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Chapters (65)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for the previous work of
  3. Dedication
  4. Epigraph
  5. 24 April 2018
  6. Part 1: Subject
  7. 15 June 1968
  8. 20 June 1968
  9. July 1968
  10. 2 February 2018
  11. Part 2: Light
  12. 20 November 1970
  13. 20 November 1970
  14. 21 November 1970
  15. November 1970
  16. 19 February 2018
  17. Part 3: Focus
  18. 15 April 1977
  19. 18 April 1977
  20. 15 May 1977
  21. July 1977
  22. 26 February 2018
  23. 8 March 2018
  24. 8 March 2018
  25. Part 4: Distance
  26. 15 May 1979
  27. 15 May 1979
  28. 16 May 1979
  29. June 1979
  30. 29 March 2018
  31. 29 March 2018
  32. 27 March 2018
  33. Part 5: Movement
  34. 18 October 1981
  35. 10 April 2018
  36. 18 October 1981
  37. 10 April 2018
  38. 18 October 1981
  39. 10 April 2018
  40. 18 October 1981
  41. 10 April 2018
  42. 10 April 2018
  43. 18 October 1981
  44. 10 April 2018
  45. October 1981
  46. Part 6: Exposure
  47. July 1984
  48. 5 September 1984
  49. 24 April 2018
  50. 25 April 2018
  51. Part 7: Developing
  52. 26 April 2018
  53. Vee, in the lost place, 1984
  54. 26 April 2018
  55. Epilogue
  56. 5 February 2019
  57. Author’s Note
  58. Acknowledgements
  59. Letter from Author
  60. Stephanie Butland’s Readers’ Club
  61. For your Reading Group
  62. For discussion
  63. Select bibliography
  64. About the author
  65. Also by Stephanie Butland

‘What have I got wrong? Baby? Got rid of?’ Vee slides a look at her watch. They need to leave in an hour, at the most. It’s going to be a long evening in more ways than one. Leonie is bound to want to go to the after-party. Vee’s not a great one for the theatre, or parties, come to that, but this will be her first cover shoot and she feels as though she should make the most of the evening. She’d like there to be time for photographs outside the theatre, before it gets too busy. She doesn’t really know how famous Alison Steadman is. She’s well known enough to be on the cover of a magazine. Hopefully, anonymous enough still to stand in the street, the corner of a poster for the show in shot.

‘Paul might be the genetic father of the foetus I aborted. He might not. I don’t know and I don’t care.’

‘Well,’ Vee says, and then doesn’t really know what to add. She stands up, thinks about wiping the table down, but the mood Leonie’s in, she’d probably get a lecture on not subjugating herself.

‘It was only an abortion. And mine. You’d think it had been you, the way you’ve gone on about it. I couldn’t care less.’

Leonie had cared, very much, on the day of the abortion, holding tight to Vee’s hand, tears in her eyes. It could have just been the physical pain. Leonie would say she has no right to assume anything else. But the not washing, the constant eating, in the three weeks since would suggest a deeper misery.

‘We need to leave at six. Do you want to have a shower before I use the bathroom?’

‘Where are we going?’

Vee sighs. She knows Leonie knows this. ‘Hampstead Theatre. A play. Abigail’s Party.’ Leonie hates public transport with a passion, so she adds, ‘I’m driving. I’m photographing one of the actresses for This Month.’

A sigh, out-of-proportion deep. ‘That’s tonight?’

‘Yes.’

That shake of the head that Vee is so familiar with. ‘I don’t think I can, Vee. I’m not up to it. You know.’

If Vee doesn’t say something there’s a risk she will bite through her tongue. ‘You said you’d come. I could have asked someone else but you said you wanted to come.’

Leonie shrugs. ‘I have to read this,’ she says, putting her hand on a book that’s been sitting on the kitchen table for a week, a proof copy of something called The Women’s Room. ‘I’m reviewing it for Spare Rib.’