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Chapters (65)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for the previous work of
  3. Dedication
  4. Epigraph
  5. 24 April 2018
  6. Part 1: Subject
  7. 15 June 1968
  8. 20 June 1968
  9. July 1968
  10. 2 February 2018
  11. Part 2: Light
  12. 20 November 1970
  13. 20 November 1970
  14. 21 November 1970
  15. November 1970
  16. 19 February 2018
  17. Part 3: Focus
  18. 15 April 1977
  19. 18 April 1977
  20. 15 May 1977
  21. July 1977
  22. 26 February 2018
  23. 8 March 2018
  24. 8 March 2018
  25. Part 4: Distance
  26. 15 May 1979
  27. 15 May 1979
  28. 16 May 1979
  29. June 1979
  30. 29 March 2018
  31. 29 March 2018
  32. 27 March 2018
  33. Part 5: Movement
  34. 18 October 1981
  35. 10 April 2018
  36. 18 October 1981
  37. 10 April 2018
  38. 18 October 1981
  39. 10 April 2018
  40. 18 October 1981
  41. 10 April 2018
  42. 10 April 2018
  43. 18 October 1981
  44. 10 April 2018
  45. October 1981
  46. Part 6: Exposure
  47. July 1984
  48. 5 September 1984
  49. 24 April 2018
  50. 25 April 2018
  51. Part 7: Developing
  52. 26 April 2018
  53. Vee, in the lost place, 1984
  54. 26 April 2018
  55. Epilogue
  56. 5 February 2019
  57. Author’s Note
  58. Acknowledgements
  59. Letter from Author
  60. Stephanie Butland’s Readers’ Club
  61. For your Reading Group
  62. For discussion
  63. Select bibliography
  64. About the author
  65. Also by Stephanie Butland

‘Leonie,’ Vee says, and then just to get the conversation away, onto different ground, ‘Paul. Is he the . . .’ She pauses, to choose the right word, and Leonie jumps in, primed for annoyance, ‘The what?’

‘It doesn’t matter.’

‘It did a minute ago.’

And this is why people leave marriages, Vee supposes. It’s easier than it used to be, to get out of a miserable relationship. It’s acceptable to be divorced (at least in London, though she wouldn’t fancy the chances of her friends back home), and though the sisters are claiming this as a victory for women taking their power, taking control, Vee suspects that many splits are nothing to do with women realising how oppressed they are. Divorce is surely more likely to be born of one too many conversations like this, bickering and unkind. It’s so strange, the way you get to know someone well enough to antagonise them, and at some point, you choose to do that. Whereas you used to choose to support them, because you know them well enough to do that, too. ‘Is he the what? Go on, ask.’

Vee sighs, ‘Is he the father?’

‘Of who?’

‘Oh, come on, Leonie.’ Vee gets up. ‘I don’t have time for this.’

‘No, because your fucking career takes up all your time.’

‘OK.’ Vee holds up her hands, an ‘anything for peace’ gesture. ‘Is Paul the father of the baby you—’

The hesitation is tiny but Leonie’s on it. ‘Come on, Miss Unflinching Lens. Say the a-word.’

‘Ms. Not “Miss”,’ Vee says. It’s worth a try – Leonie can sometimes be diffused this way – but she doesn’t laugh. She’s paler than usual, her hair greasy. Left to herself she eats badly, and Vee hasn’t been around to cook, much. She always makes sure the fruit bowl is full even though she knows that’s a pretty redundant exercise. Leonie likes pizza from the restaurant round the corner, rice pudding eaten from the tin with a spoon, French Fancies, cheese. She eats bananas, sometimes, and the occasional apple, though she says they are too much work.

Leonie glares. ‘Don’t change the subject.’

‘Is Paul the father of the baby you got rid of?’

‘Can you do it less judgementally?’