Back The Woman in the Photograph
Chapters (65)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for the previous work of
  3. Dedication
  4. Epigraph
  5. 24 April 2018
  6. Part 1: Subject
  7. 15 June 1968
  8. 20 June 1968
  9. July 1968
  10. 2 February 2018
  11. Part 2: Light
  12. 20 November 1970
  13. 20 November 1970
  14. 21 November 1970
  15. November 1970
  16. 19 February 2018
  17. Part 3: Focus
  18. 15 April 1977
  19. 18 April 1977
  20. 15 May 1977
  21. July 1977
  22. 26 February 2018
  23. 8 March 2018
  24. 8 March 2018
  25. Part 4: Distance
  26. 15 May 1979
  27. 15 May 1979
  28. 16 May 1979
  29. June 1979
  30. 29 March 2018
  31. 29 March 2018
  32. 27 March 2018
  33. Part 5: Movement
  34. 18 October 1981
  35. 10 April 2018
  36. 18 October 1981
  37. 10 April 2018
  38. 18 October 1981
  39. 10 April 2018
  40. 18 October 1981
  41. 10 April 2018
  42. 10 April 2018
  43. 18 October 1981
  44. 10 April 2018
  45. October 1981
  46. Part 6: Exposure
  47. July 1984
  48. 5 September 1984
  49. 24 April 2018
  50. 25 April 2018
  51. Part 7: Developing
  52. 26 April 2018
  53. Vee, in the lost place, 1984
  54. 26 April 2018
  55. Epilogue
  56. 5 February 2019
  57. Author’s Note
  58. Acknowledgements
  59. Letter from Author
  60. Stephanie Butland’s Readers’ Club
  61. For your Reading Group
  62. For discussion
  63. Select bibliography
  64. About the author
  65. Also by Stephanie Butland

Erica looks away and Vee wonders, for the first time in years, who got out from under and who didn’t. She remembers Kiki didn’t go back; she got a divorce, started over. Most women didn’t.

‘We should include some of these in the exhibition. Do you have any at all?’

‘I might,’ Vee says, ‘but they would need to be ones where people couldn’t be identified.’

‘Of course.’ Erica nods. ‘So, would you look for them?’

‘I’ll see.’ There are some boxes that she really needs to go through: the private photographs, the family and the moments she doesn’t want to share with the world. She’s left them because she doesn’t want to look at them again.

‘Thank you,’ Erica says, and then, after the smallest hesitation, adds, ‘I know you don’t want to talk about when Leonie died—’

‘There’s nothing to say.’ Vee makes a point of not knocking determined women but oh, this is hard.

Erica nods. ‘I’m not asking anything. Except – if you’re looking for photographs, would you see if you have the contact sheet for the first film you took that day?’

‘What?’ Vee has given her the contact sheet and film of the final photographs. She hasn’t even mentioned that there was a first film.

‘Your contact sheets. I’ve studied them. You usually take a few shots while the subject settles in, from a few angles, then you stick with one place or one pose. The contact sheet of – of my aunt’s death – it doesn’t feel like that. It looks as though there was a film before that one.’

Vee shrugs. It hurts her head. Which serves her right. ‘I don’t know,’ she says. It’s an outright lie. She does know.

Erica’s expression flickers, just for a second, something like pain; she can recognise a lie. She looks back at the Miss World photograph. ‘You were close, around that time? When you shared a flat?’