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Contents ( 81)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for These Nameless Things
  3. Books by Shawn Smucker
  4. Title Page
  5. Copyright Page
  6. Dedication
  7. Epigraphs
  8. Contents
  9. Anytime to Three Months
  10. I’m Afraid Not
  11. The White-Haired Woman
  12. The Emptiness
  13. Looking for You
  14. Closer Than They Might Appear
  15. The First Drowning
  16. The Tea Party
  17. The Field
  18. My Own Flesh and Blood
  19. Crossing Over
  20. A Place in This World
  21. Leaving
  22. The Man in the Hotel
  23. Driving Away
  24. Gone Again
  25. No Trespassing
  26. Into Nysa
  27. No Cares in the World
  28. You Should Turn Around
  29. When Everything Started Happening
  30. An Unexpected Encounter
  31. Night Swimming
  32. Shirley
  33. The Woman at the Window
  34. What’s Real?
  35. The Question
  36. The End of Me
  37. She Went Under
  38. Desecrated
  39. The Carpet
  40. The Boat
  41. Sinking
  42. The Weight of Memory
  43. Photographs
  44. Was It You?
  45. A Wedding and a Ring
  46. Dreams and Open Windows
  47. New Developments
  48. The Door
  49. Going Under
  50. The Loss of You
  51. The Glassy Sea
  52. Following Her Down
  53. Something Beyond Us
  54. Let’s Not Leave Her Alone Anymore
  55. Too Many Secrets
  56. Heavy Things
  57. She’s Gone
  58. Our Future Spelled Out
  59. Screams at the Cabin
  60. So Close
  61. When You Arrive at the End, Keep Going
  62. It’s True
  63. The Other Side
  64. Reality
  65. Swimming Underwater
  66. Only the Deepest Pools Remain
  67. The Open Window
  68. When I Knew
  69. The Clouds Bear Down
  70. The Far Green Country
  71. Gone
  72. The Fly
  73. The Nesting Doll
  74. Two Months Later
  75. Floating Away
  76. Another mesmerizing story from Shawn Smucker
  77. Prologue
  78. Acknowledgments
  79. About the Author
  80. Back Ads
  81. Back Cover

“Is that right?” Gerald says, now appearing genuinely interested. “What’s your last name? That is, if you don’t mind.”

“Sure. Last name’s Elias. My parents had a place outside of town on Vintage Road. You know, the house up the hill, past the bridge.”

Now I can feel the man across the diner staring at me.

“Up on the top?”

“Yeah, that’s it.”

“Well,” he mutters. “I’ll be. I know it well. I used to live down that way a little further, over on Pendrick.”

It’s a road name I’ve not thought about in forty years, but I can see it now. I know how it moves with the countryside, the bends, the dips, as it follows one of the streams.

“It’s been years since I’ve been here,” I say.

“Your folks still here?” he asks.

I shake my head. “No, sir, they are not. They both passed quite a while ago.” A sharp regret stabs me in the chest. I never came back for their funerals. After Mary died, I left everyone behind. Everyone except your father.

“May their souls rest in peace,” he says, the superstition thick in his voice.

I nod, not knowing what to say to that.

He stands there awkwardly while the waitress brings our grilled cheeses. Still he stands there, more than a little bit in the way as she tries to unload her tray.

“Need anything else?” she asks, and I glance at you but have to look away quickly so I don’t start laughing. I know you’re sizing up the woman for real now, wondering if it’s possible she might actually be a witch or a sorceress.

You clear your throat and speak in an even voice. “No thank you, ma’am.”

“We’re fine. Thanks,” I say.

She walks over to the bar and talks to the man in the shadows in hushed tones. I have a sneaking feeling they’re talking about us, and I want to stand and walk out calmly and drive away, back past Junior’s, back over the bridge, back to somewhere that isn’t here. But I don’t. We’re both hungry. And I have no other plan for you—it’s Nysa or bust.

I lift the grilled cheese and take a bite. It’s delicious. The melted cheese is hot and the bacon crunches between my teeth. I close my eyes in ecstasy.

Gerald Mills is still standing there beside the table.

“I’m sorry?” I say, not sure what he’s waiting for.

“Of course,” he says. “I should be going.” He hesitates.

“Is there something . . .” I begin, but again it all feels awkward. Why is he still here, staring at us? At you? What does he want to say that he’s not saying?

He looks nervously over his shoulder, in the direction of the man sitting at the bar. “We don’t get many visitors.”

“In the diner?” I ask, wiping my mouth with a napkin.

“In the town.” He whispers the words, and something about the faintness of his voice makes my mouth go dry.