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  1. Cover
  2. Praise for These Nameless Things
  3. Books by Shawn Smucker
  4. Title Page
  5. Copyright Page
  6. Dedication
  7. Epigraphs
  8. Contents
  9. Anytime to Three Months
  10. I’m Afraid Not
  11. The White-Haired Woman
  12. The Emptiness
  13. Looking for You
  14. Closer Than They Might Appear
  15. The First Drowning
  16. The Tea Party
  17. The Field
  18. My Own Flesh and Blood
  19. Crossing Over
  20. A Place in This World
  21. Leaving
  22. The Man in the Hotel
  23. Driving Away
  24. Gone Again
  25. No Trespassing
  26. Into Nysa
  27. No Cares in the World
  28. You Should Turn Around
  29. When Everything Started Happening
  30. An Unexpected Encounter
  31. Night Swimming
  32. Shirley
  33. The Woman at the Window
  34. What’s Real?
  35. The Question
  36. The End of Me
  37. She Went Under
  38. Desecrated
  39. The Carpet
  40. The Boat
  41. Sinking
  42. The Weight of Memory
  43. Photographs
  44. Was It You?
  45. A Wedding and a Ring
  46. Dreams and Open Windows
  47. New Developments
  48. The Door
  49. Going Under
  50. The Loss of You
  51. The Glassy Sea
  52. Following Her Down
  53. Something Beyond Us
  54. Let’s Not Leave Her Alone Anymore
  55. Too Many Secrets
  56. Heavy Things
  57. She’s Gone
  58. Our Future Spelled Out
  59. Screams at the Cabin
  60. So Close
  61. When You Arrive at the End, Keep Going
  62. It’s True
  63. The Other Side
  64. Reality
  65. Swimming Underwater
  66. Only the Deepest Pools Remain
  67. The Open Window
  68. When I Knew
  69. The Clouds Bear Down
  70. The Far Green Country
  71. Gone
  72. The Fly
  73. The Nesting Doll
  74. Two Months Later
  75. Floating Away
  76. Another mesmerizing story from Shawn Smucker
  77. Prologue
  78. Acknowledgments
  79. About the Author
  80. Back Ads
  81. Back Cover

He laughs, and it sounds nice. It’s quiet, not full, but a laugh nonetheless. “That’s because I’m not doing the work. You know, one funny thing we realized is that this place has a basement.”

“Really?”

“Well, more of a crawl space, really. When we discovered it, we dug it out, made a proper basement.”

“Wouldn’t it flood, being so close to the lake?”

“It did,” he admits. “It does. There’s nothing down there now except a few empty shelves and, occasionally, some standing water that my guy has to pump out.”

It doesn’t surprise me that Tom has a “guy.” I glance around the place, again taking in the simple class of the décor, plain and yet somehow perfect. There is a bookshelf against the wall that separates the main living area from a small entryway, and the books are lined up like little soldiers. I walk over and run my fingers along the titles, most of which are classics.

“Nice collection,” I remark.

“Shirley’s,” he says, and that one word, her name, is filled with longing. It’s the most emotion he’s shown yet, and it gives me hope that the old Tom is still in there somewhere.

“She always did enjoy a good story.”

On one of the shelves, completely out of place, sits one of those Russian nesting dolls, the kind that you can break in half to find a smaller doll inside, and another, and so on. I reach up and take it from the shelf. It’s so bright, painted with reds and oranges and greens, that it seems almost garish there among the beiges and grays and pastel blues.

“Another one of Shirley’s favorites,” Tom says, but his voice is flat again. So flat that I look over at him to see if there’s a problem. He gives me a tight smile and almost imperceptibly glances at the doll.

I look at it again, spinning the top half around without removing it. “Where did she get this?”

“She liked to travel,” Tom says, and again I think his voice seems strained.

Maybe it brings back memories of Shirley, I think, placing the doll back on the shelf. “I’m sorry,” I say, but I’m not sure what I’m apologizing for—Shirley’s death? Handling something that has personal meaning? Simply being there?

Tom shakes his head. “It’s okay.”

“I love it here,” Pearl says.

We both spot her standing by the bannister, and I have this vision of her, that she’s a bird getting ready to fly away. It feels like Tom and I stand there for a long time looking up at her, not saying anything.

She smiles down at us. “I love it here,” she says again.

“We lived here for almost two whole summers,” I say to her, but I’m also saying it to Tom, reminding him for some reason, as if he might have forgotten. “Tom, Shirley, your grandmother, and me.”

“Really?”

“Really. It was . . . We had a great time.”

“A million years ago,” Tom reflects.