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  1. Cover
  2. Praise for These Nameless Things
  3. Books by Shawn Smucker
  4. Title Page
  5. Copyright Page
  6. Dedication
  7. Epigraphs
  8. Contents
  9. Anytime to Three Months
  10. I’m Afraid Not
  11. The White-Haired Woman
  12. The Emptiness
  13. Looking for You
  14. Closer Than They Might Appear
  15. The First Drowning
  16. The Tea Party
  17. The Field
  18. My Own Flesh and Blood
  19. Crossing Over
  20. A Place in This World
  21. Leaving
  22. The Man in the Hotel
  23. Driving Away
  24. Gone Again
  25. No Trespassing
  26. Into Nysa
  27. No Cares in the World
  28. You Should Turn Around
  29. When Everything Started Happening
  30. An Unexpected Encounter
  31. Night Swimming
  32. Shirley
  33. The Woman at the Window
  34. What’s Real?
  35. The Question
  36. The End of Me
  37. She Went Under
  38. Desecrated
  39. The Carpet
  40. The Boat
  41. Sinking
  42. The Weight of Memory
  43. Photographs
  44. Was It You?
  45. A Wedding and a Ring
  46. Dreams and Open Windows
  47. New Developments
  48. The Door
  49. Going Under
  50. The Loss of You
  51. The Glassy Sea
  52. Following Her Down
  53. Something Beyond Us
  54. Let’s Not Leave Her Alone Anymore
  55. Too Many Secrets
  56. Heavy Things
  57. She’s Gone
  58. Our Future Spelled Out
  59. Screams at the Cabin
  60. So Close
  61. When You Arrive at the End, Keep Going
  62. It’s True
  63. The Other Side
  64. Reality
  65. Swimming Underwater
  66. Only the Deepest Pools Remain
  67. The Open Window
  68. When I Knew
  69. The Clouds Bear Down
  70. The Far Green Country
  71. Gone
  72. The Fly
  73. The Nesting Doll
  74. Two Months Later
  75. Floating Away
  76. Another mesmerizing story from Shawn Smucker
  77. Prologue
  78. Acknowledgments
  79. About the Author
  80. Back Ads
  81. Back Cover

But my curiosity overcomes me at the first door, so I open it slowly, reach inside, and fish around on the wall for the light switch. When I find it, the room lights up, and I see that it’s another spare bedroom. The carpet is cream, and the comforter on the bed is navy blue. There are no windows, not even the small window wells that some basement bedrooms have. I don’t know how Tom keeps the water out with the lake being so close. A door, partially open, leads into a bathroom.

I turn off the light and close the door.

I find myself wanting to check each and every door, spend the rest of the evening searching all these rooms. For what?

The next door that I open creaks, and two recliners face a large screen on the far wall. A kind of home theater. I close the door.

I manage to walk the rest of the way down the hall without opening more doors. Then I notice a gleam of light coming from under the last door on the right, just before the stairway, which climbs half a flight before turning. I listen for the sound of footsteps, but there’s nothing. The basement is almost completely silent, apart from the humming of some distant appliance.

I turn away from the steps and open the door to the last room. The floor is different from the other rooms—it’s unfinished concrete, and the room is some kind of storage area. It’s lined with row after row of well-organized metal shelves. Some hold shoeboxes with white labels; some are lined with binders, each labeled with black marker in exaggerated handwriting. Accounting boxes take up a few rows, apparently full of tax documentation. At the far end of the room, the shelves hold large plastic bins, also labeled.

When I enter the room and pull the door closed behind me, the rest of the house goes completely silent, like I’m sealing myself into a crypt. Even the distant humming I could hear from the bottom of the stairway shuts off, and again I strain my ears, listening for the approach of someone, anyone, but there isn’t a sound. I walk through the aisles of shelves, my socks scratching quietly on the cement floor.

I run my fingers along the shoeboxes, and while I can’t tell what they are from the way they’re labeled, when I lift one of the lids and take a glance inside, it looks like they are all filled with letters or printed-out emails or notes. One person’s handwriting seems to dominate—Tom’s or Shirley’s or perhaps Shirley’s mother’s. Why so many letters, and what could they possibly have had to write to each other about? Didn’t Shirley’s parents live here in Nysa? Didn’t Tom’s?

I drop the lid of the box and turn, taking in the rows and rows of binders. One is marked “Jan–Jun 1980.” The year after Mary left. I pull it from the shelf and open it—it is full of photographs tucked into plastic sleeves with only an occasional caption. But I don’t need captions for most of them. This is close enough to the time I remember, and although I wouldn’t have been in Nysa anymore, I can supply the captions myself.