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Contents ( 81)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for These Nameless Things
  3. Books by Shawn Smucker
  4. Title Page
  5. Copyright Page
  6. Dedication
  7. Epigraphs
  8. Contents
  9. Anytime to Three Months
  10. I’m Afraid Not
  11. The White-Haired Woman
  12. The Emptiness
  13. Looking for You
  14. Closer Than They Might Appear
  15. The First Drowning
  16. The Tea Party
  17. The Field
  18. My Own Flesh and Blood
  19. Crossing Over
  20. A Place in This World
  21. Leaving
  22. The Man in the Hotel
  23. Driving Away
  24. Gone Again
  25. No Trespassing
  26. Into Nysa
  27. No Cares in the World
  28. You Should Turn Around
  29. When Everything Started Happening
  30. An Unexpected Encounter
  31. Night Swimming
  32. Shirley
  33. The Woman at the Window
  34. What’s Real?
  35. The Question
  36. The End of Me
  37. She Went Under
  38. Desecrated
  39. The Carpet
  40. The Boat
  41. Sinking
  42. The Weight of Memory
  43. Photographs
  44. Was It You?
  45. A Wedding and a Ring
  46. Dreams and Open Windows
  47. New Developments
  48. The Door
  49. Going Under
  50. The Loss of You
  51. The Glassy Sea
  52. Following Her Down
  53. Something Beyond Us
  54. Let’s Not Leave Her Alone Anymore
  55. Too Many Secrets
  56. Heavy Things
  57. She’s Gone
  58. Our Future Spelled Out
  59. Screams at the Cabin
  60. So Close
  61. When You Arrive at the End, Keep Going
  62. It’s True
  63. The Other Side
  64. Reality
  65. Swimming Underwater
  66. Only the Deepest Pools Remain
  67. The Open Window
  68. When I Knew
  69. The Clouds Bear Down
  70. The Far Green Country
  71. Gone
  72. The Fly
  73. The Nesting Doll
  74. Two Months Later
  75. Floating Away
  76. Another mesmerizing story from Shawn Smucker
  77. Prologue
  78. Acknowledgments
  79. About the Author
  80. Back Ads
  81. Back Cover

“What’s up, old boy?” Tom asked me on a warm summer morning. It was around eight months after the four of us had first met, sometime in June. My life was unrecognizable when compared to what it had been like before those friends swept in and pulled me out of my lonely existence. I felt like I was finally awake to life.

Tom stood over my bed, shaking me by the shoulder. He had taken to calling me “old boy.” I can’t remember where the phrase had come up, although we had recently read The Great Gatsby in school, and I have a feeling it was his version of “old sport.”

“What are you doing?” I groaned, rolling over to face the wall.

Tom pulled the covers off. “We’re going out to the lake today. Did you forget?”

I sighed. I had forgotten.

“C’mon, old boy.”

I made some other sound of protest, but the truth was, I was ready to wake up. Thoughts of Mary filled my head constantly. Everything I saw reminded me of her, and when I closed my eyes, her face was there, offering that same bashful, hopeful grin.

“Don’t call me that,” I said as I put my feet down beside the bed.

Tom laughed. “Okay, old boy.”

Within a few minutes, Tom and I were in his car, windows down, the morning air fresh and new and warming up. Everything smelled like it did in the summer on a day that would soon be extremely hot. Tom’s face was sleepy and happy and free, everything you’d expect to find on the face of a teenager who was in the middle of discovering life and all it might have to offer. I laughed and punched him in the shoulder. He only grinned harder. I put my arm on the window, leaned my head into the rushing stream of air, and closed my eyes.

In that moment, life was perfect.

We picked up Shirley first. She gave Tom a peck on the cheek before climbing into the back seat, over my protests.

“I want to talk to Mary,” she said, “not be the passenger in between you and Tom gabbing.”

“Hey!” Tom protested, but he winked at her in the rearview mirror, and she laughed.

“Where are we going, anyway?” I asked.

“The lake,” Tom said.

“I know that. But where?”

He laughed. “It’s a surprise, old boy.”

“What?” Shirley exclaimed, sounding genuinely offended.

“Whoa, whoa, easy now,” Tom said. “Don’t worry, babe. You’re going to love it.”

I glanced back at Shirley, and she crossed her arms in mock protest. It didn’t last long though. Sullenness never clung to Shirley.

Five minutes later we stopped in front of Mary’s house. Tom beeped the horn once, and Shirley slapped the back of his seat.

“Thomas Avery James, are you kidding me?” she snapped, glaring at me—I could feel it.

“You’ll make quite a mother someday, Shirley,” I said.

“You get up to that door this instant and ring that bell like a proper gentleman.”