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  1. Cover
  2. Praise for These Nameless Things
  3. Books by Shawn Smucker
  4. Title Page
  5. Copyright Page
  6. Dedication
  7. Epigraphs
  8. Contents
  9. Anytime to Three Months
  10. I’m Afraid Not
  11. The White-Haired Woman
  12. The Emptiness
  13. Looking for You
  14. Closer Than They Might Appear
  15. The First Drowning
  16. The Tea Party
  17. The Field
  18. My Own Flesh and Blood
  19. Crossing Over
  20. A Place in This World
  21. Leaving
  22. The Man in the Hotel
  23. Driving Away
  24. Gone Again
  25. No Trespassing
  26. Into Nysa
  27. No Cares in the World
  28. You Should Turn Around
  29. When Everything Started Happening
  30. An Unexpected Encounter
  31. Night Swimming
  32. Shirley
  33. The Woman at the Window
  34. What’s Real?
  35. The Question
  36. The End of Me
  37. She Went Under
  38. Desecrated
  39. The Carpet
  40. The Boat
  41. Sinking
  42. The Weight of Memory
  43. Photographs
  44. Was It You?
  45. A Wedding and a Ring
  46. Dreams and Open Windows
  47. New Developments
  48. The Door
  49. Going Under
  50. The Loss of You
  51. The Glassy Sea
  52. Following Her Down
  53. Something Beyond Us
  54. Let’s Not Leave Her Alone Anymore
  55. Too Many Secrets
  56. Heavy Things
  57. She’s Gone
  58. Our Future Spelled Out
  59. Screams at the Cabin
  60. So Close
  61. When You Arrive at the End, Keep Going
  62. It’s True
  63. The Other Side
  64. Reality
  65. Swimming Underwater
  66. Only the Deepest Pools Remain
  67. The Open Window
  68. When I Knew
  69. The Clouds Bear Down
  70. The Far Green Country
  71. Gone
  72. The Fly
  73. The Nesting Doll
  74. Two Months Later
  75. Floating Away
  76. Another mesmerizing story from Shawn Smucker
  77. Prologue
  78. Acknowledgments
  79. About the Author
  80. Back Ads
  81. Back Cover

She slowed down, and it felt like we had only been walking a few moments, but it also felt like a long time. I was cold, but she lifted me down from her shoulders and gave me something warm to drink. I started to walk forward, but she grabbed my shoulder and pulled me back into the shadows where we stood. It was the darkest part of the night, and even the sounds of the forest came to a rest. She told me to wait. Ahead of us was the cabin. The one where you and Grandma and Tom and Shirley spent those summers. I couldn’t believe it.

I started asking her where the door was, but she stopped me, putting her hand over my mouth, and I pulled away—her hand was so cold. She stiffened, so I reached over and held on to her arm at the elbow, trying to prove that she wasn’t too cold for me. She softened when I did this, even reached up and patted my hand.

“The door must be here,” she whispered to herself, and she sounded frustrated. “This door is always causing all sorts of mischief. Would you like to go inside and see?”

A kind of fear boiled up in me so quickly I didn’t know what to say, but she told me it was okay, she knew I was afraid, and she would go with me. So I told her yes.

“What will we do if we find it?” I asked.

“Finding it is the first concern,” she said in a flat tone. “We’ll worry about what to do after that.”

The Door

From where we stood, the lake went on forever, shimmering in the night. We crept into the house real quiet and left the door open behind us, which I didn’t think was a great idea, but when I went to close it, she snapped her fingers and hissed to get my attention. She shook her head, so I left the door open.

Inside the house, it was beautiful, mostly because of the pale light reflecting off the lake and in through the windows. It seemed like a completely different place than the one you and I had visited. It felt like a dream world. We crept through the house, through an even darker hallway with no windows. I wanted to ask the woman where we were going, but when I started to talk she held one of her icy fingers up.

In that back room, it was so dark I felt like I was floating in space. It even felt like there were rooms and hallways that I hadn’t seen when we were there yesterday, like parts of the house were only visible in the moonlight when no one else was there. It was amazing. I heard the creaking of another door opening, and she whispered to me to watch my step. There were stairs, and we started walking down. We walked down the stairs for at least five minutes, not stopping. That’s a lot of steps, Grampy. At one point, she stopped and muttered that she could probably risk a match, and I heard a quick scrape and a hiss and the match burst to life. I almost passed out when I saw where we were.