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  1. Cover
  2. Praise for These Nameless Things
  3. Books by Shawn Smucker
  4. Title Page
  5. Copyright Page
  6. Dedication
  7. Epigraphs
  8. Contents
  9. Anytime to Three Months
  10. I’m Afraid Not
  11. The White-Haired Woman
  12. The Emptiness
  13. Looking for You
  14. Closer Than They Might Appear
  15. The First Drowning
  16. The Tea Party
  17. The Field
  18. My Own Flesh and Blood
  19. Crossing Over
  20. A Place in This World
  21. Leaving
  22. The Man in the Hotel
  23. Driving Away
  24. Gone Again
  25. No Trespassing
  26. Into Nysa
  27. No Cares in the World
  28. You Should Turn Around
  29. When Everything Started Happening
  30. An Unexpected Encounter
  31. Night Swimming
  32. Shirley
  33. The Woman at the Window
  34. What’s Real?
  35. The Question
  36. The End of Me
  37. She Went Under
  38. Desecrated
  39. The Carpet
  40. The Boat
  41. Sinking
  42. The Weight of Memory
  43. Photographs
  44. Was It You?
  45. A Wedding and a Ring
  46. Dreams and Open Windows
  47. New Developments
  48. The Door
  49. Going Under
  50. The Loss of You
  51. The Glassy Sea
  52. Following Her Down
  53. Something Beyond Us
  54. Let’s Not Leave Her Alone Anymore
  55. Too Many Secrets
  56. Heavy Things
  57. She’s Gone
  58. Our Future Spelled Out
  59. Screams at the Cabin
  60. So Close
  61. When You Arrive at the End, Keep Going
  62. It’s True
  63. The Other Side
  64. Reality
  65. Swimming Underwater
  66. Only the Deepest Pools Remain
  67. The Open Window
  68. When I Knew
  69. The Clouds Bear Down
  70. The Far Green Country
  71. Gone
  72. The Fly
  73. The Nesting Doll
  74. Two Months Later
  75. Floating Away
  76. Another mesmerizing story from Shawn Smucker
  77. Prologue
  78. Acknowledgments
  79. About the Author
  80. Back Ads
  81. Back Cover

“Yes, yes, of course. Thank you.”

She turns to go, but words erupt from me, unexpected words.

“Did you grow up here?” I ask.

She turns back toward me, suspicious. “My whole life.”

“Did we know each other?” I ask, although I knew so few people in high school. And after I met Mary, I didn’t care about meeting anyone else.

She sighs. I’m not going to give up, at least not easily, and I can tell by the look on her face that she’s weighing her desire to keep her name to herself with the hassle that might ensue if she doesn’t tell me. She gives in.

“Jenny Hudson.”

I know that name. Don’t I? “Did we know each other? I’m Paul Elias.”

She can’t possibly be more disinterested. “I don’t know.”

Again she turns to go, when a name emerges from my deepest subconscious.

“Gillian Hudson,” I say. The girl who drowned at the beginning, when everything else started. Even though Jenny has taken a few steps away from me, she stops in her tracks. “Any relation?”

She turns around with a skeptical look on her face. And one a bit frightened as well. “You knew Gillian?”

“Not really. Only the name.”

Tiredness descends on her face, and she puts one hand on her hip. “Then why are you asking about her?” But it isn’t an accusation as much as a plea. She unties her apron and pulls it off in one smooth motion before poking her head in through the door that leads to the kitchen, shouting, “I’m taking a break.”

A panicked voice shouts back, “Right now?” But she doesn’t reply. She crouches down and slides into the booth beside me, leaning forward on both elbows. Everything about this situation startles me.

“I remember when she drowned,” I say, picking up a French fry and putting it back down again. Her eyes are sad. It’s a wonder to me how I can misread someone so much.

“That was a long time ago. Why bring it up now? Why come back?”

“I wanted to show my granddaughter where I grew up.”

Jenny is the first person who isn’t taken in. “Sure,” she spits out. “Okay. Why else are you here?”

I weigh telling her everything. “My wife died here, in Nysa, many years ago. She had . . . mental challenges. She saw a woman who wasn’t actually there, a woman with silver-white hair.” I shrug. “Maybe you knew her? Mary? Her mom worked here.”

Jenny nods. “I remember her.”

“Now my granddaughter is seeing the same thing, the same person. I don’t know if that’s why I’m here. But it all feels connected.”

Jenny’s face is frozen. I can’t tell if she is going to slap me, stand up and walk off, or go on staring for the next thousand years.

She doesn’t do any of those. She leans back in the booth, rubs her temples, and shakes her head. “My friends and I saw her.”