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  1. Cover
  2. Praise for These Nameless Things
  3. Books by Shawn Smucker
  4. Title Page
  5. Copyright Page
  6. Dedication
  7. Epigraphs
  8. Contents
  9. Anytime to Three Months
  10. I’m Afraid Not
  11. The White-Haired Woman
  12. The Emptiness
  13. Looking for You
  14. Closer Than They Might Appear
  15. The First Drowning
  16. The Tea Party
  17. The Field
  18. My Own Flesh and Blood
  19. Crossing Over
  20. A Place in This World
  21. Leaving
  22. The Man in the Hotel
  23. Driving Away
  24. Gone Again
  25. No Trespassing
  26. Into Nysa
  27. No Cares in the World
  28. You Should Turn Around
  29. When Everything Started Happening
  30. An Unexpected Encounter
  31. Night Swimming
  32. Shirley
  33. The Woman at the Window
  34. What’s Real?
  35. The Question
  36. The End of Me
  37. She Went Under
  38. Desecrated
  39. The Carpet
  40. The Boat
  41. Sinking
  42. The Weight of Memory
  43. Photographs
  44. Was It You?
  45. A Wedding and a Ring
  46. Dreams and Open Windows
  47. New Developments
  48. The Door
  49. Going Under
  50. The Loss of You
  51. The Glassy Sea
  52. Following Her Down
  53. Something Beyond Us
  54. Let’s Not Leave Her Alone Anymore
  55. Too Many Secrets
  56. Heavy Things
  57. She’s Gone
  58. Our Future Spelled Out
  59. Screams at the Cabin
  60. So Close
  61. When You Arrive at the End, Keep Going
  62. It’s True
  63. The Other Side
  64. Reality
  65. Swimming Underwater
  66. Only the Deepest Pools Remain
  67. The Open Window
  68. When I Knew
  69. The Clouds Bear Down
  70. The Far Green Country
  71. Gone
  72. The Fly
  73. The Nesting Doll
  74. Two Months Later
  75. Floating Away
  76. Another mesmerizing story from Shawn Smucker
  77. Prologue
  78. Acknowledgments
  79. About the Author
  80. Back Ads
  81. Back Cover

I can’t shake the idea that I know this man. From high school? But that was a long time ago, and I can’t get a good look at him anymore—where he’s sitting, a shadow falls across his face.

“That man?” you say to me.

“Yeah?”

“He’s in league with the witch waitress. Together they rule the island of Nysa. You’ve been brought back here to overthrow their evil kingdom.” The whole time you’re saying this, you’re gazing out through the glass, out into the town.

I shake my head and sigh. The thing about you is, you don’t really know when to stop. When to come back to reality.

“Nothing happens in Nysa, not really,” I say unconvincingly. I remember that icy vein of fear we all felt after the drowning of Gillian Hudson, the rush of adrenaline I felt the night Mary saw the woman in the field, the way anxiety gathered in me when I saw Tom and Shirley paddling home without Mary. Those things happened. They happened here, in Nysa. How can I tell you that nothing ever happens in Nysa?

“I saw the woman again,” you say. “On the drive here.”

“The one with the silver hair?” I try not to sound dubious.

You nod slowly. “The one who helped me with the map. She was walking across the bridge as we drove over. She was coming here, to Nysa.”

Now, I know for a fact no one was walking that bridge when we drove across. They would have been impossible for me to miss. But I stay quiet.

The John Deere ball cap man stands up. He pulls out his wallet, retrieves a single bill, and lays it down on the counter. He pats the man wearing the loose tie on the back and walks out. The man in the tie shakes his head, clears his throat, closes his paper, and also puts some cash on the counter. He shakes the hand of the happy one who had made everything feel lighter.

After the man wearing the tie walks out, the lighthearted man stands up and seems to think about leaving but has second thoughts and comes over to you and me. His eyes are quizzical, his hands fidgety and restless. What I first mistook for glib happiness when he walked in? It’s more of a nervousness, a jittery sort of pep.

“I’m Gerald Mills,” he says, holding out his hand, which I shake.

“I’m Paul. This is my granddaughter, Pearl.” At the mention of the word “granddaughter,” he visibly relaxes. Maybe he thought I was a kidnapper or something. I don’t know.

“Hi, Gerald Mills,” you say. Your happiness and the enthusiastic way you shake his hand seem to bathe him in a second round of relief.

“What are you kind folks doing here in Nysa? That is, if you don’t mind me asking.”

“Of course not,” I say. “I grew up here and wanted to show Pearl my old homeplace.”

The man who came in last, the one who sits in the shadows, seems to shift in his seat. I can tell he’s listening to us.