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Contents ( 81)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for These Nameless Things
  3. Books by Shawn Smucker
  4. Title Page
  5. Copyright Page
  6. Dedication
  7. Epigraphs
  8. Contents
  9. Anytime to Three Months
  10. I’m Afraid Not
  11. The White-Haired Woman
  12. The Emptiness
  13. Looking for You
  14. Closer Than They Might Appear
  15. The First Drowning
  16. The Tea Party
  17. The Field
  18. My Own Flesh and Blood
  19. Crossing Over
  20. A Place in This World
  21. Leaving
  22. The Man in the Hotel
  23. Driving Away
  24. Gone Again
  25. No Trespassing
  26. Into Nysa
  27. No Cares in the World
  28. You Should Turn Around
  29. When Everything Started Happening
  30. An Unexpected Encounter
  31. Night Swimming
  32. Shirley
  33. The Woman at the Window
  34. What’s Real?
  35. The Question
  36. The End of Me
  37. She Went Under
  38. Desecrated
  39. The Carpet
  40. The Boat
  41. Sinking
  42. The Weight of Memory
  43. Photographs
  44. Was It You?
  45. A Wedding and a Ring
  46. Dreams and Open Windows
  47. New Developments
  48. The Door
  49. Going Under
  50. The Loss of You
  51. The Glassy Sea
  52. Following Her Down
  53. Something Beyond Us
  54. Let’s Not Leave Her Alone Anymore
  55. Too Many Secrets
  56. Heavy Things
  57. She’s Gone
  58. Our Future Spelled Out
  59. Screams at the Cabin
  60. So Close
  61. When You Arrive at the End, Keep Going
  62. It’s True
  63. The Other Side
  64. Reality
  65. Swimming Underwater
  66. Only the Deepest Pools Remain
  67. The Open Window
  68. When I Knew
  69. The Clouds Bear Down
  70. The Far Green Country
  71. Gone
  72. The Fly
  73. The Nesting Doll
  74. Two Months Later
  75. Floating Away
  76. Another mesmerizing story from Shawn Smucker
  77. Prologue
  78. Acknowledgments
  79. About the Author
  80. Back Ads
  81. Back Cover

That was it. Somehow I knew. That’s what she wanted me to bring back.

Grampy, that’s the first time I felt fear over there—the thought of going into the house and taking the book scared me. But I knew I had to do it if I wanted to save you. So I walked around the house until I found the door and opened it as quietly as I could. It still made a slight clicking noise, and I stopped and held my breath. But the house stayed quiet. I stepped through the door and left it open behind me.

That’s when I panicked. I was overwhelmed with this feeling that I had to get that book and get out of there as quickly as possible. So I shoved my way through the house in the direction of the kitchen, and there the book was, still on the table. I darted in, but as I put my hand on it, I heard someone else walk into the room behind me.

“Hello, Pearl.”

I gasped, held my breath. My hand was still on the soft leather. I didn’t want to turn around. I froze.

“Dear Pearl.” The voice was so, so kind, and I had to turn and look just to see who it was.

Standing there was a beautiful woman. I could tell she used to have jet-black hair, but now there were glorious white and gray streaks through it, the kind that made me want to reach out and touch them. Those silver highlights reminded me of the lights in the underwater cave and of the silver-haired woman.

“Hi,” I said, my voice barely working. “How do you know my name?”

I could see in her eyes that she was nearly crying but also happy.

“You can take it,” she said, motioning toward the book with a nod. She sounded a little nervous, like she didn’t want to scare me off. “If you need it, you can take it.”

“I don’t understand.”

“I came here, like you, a long time ago, and I found this book. It’s what she wanted. I refused to come and get the book for her, but I died anyway, and I couldn’t go back.” She paused. “No matter how much I loved Paul, I couldn’t go back. I thought the woman would come for it someday. I thought she could take me back if she did, but it’s been so long. I know I can’t go back, not now. Not anymore.”

“She can’t come here. She’s tried to send others, but they all died and couldn’t go back.”

“I know. I’ve seen them come and pass by. I’ve told them which way to go.” She shrugged and gave me a sad smile. “Are you going to go back?”

I nodded. “I have to. I have to save my Grampy.”

“Will you tell him I said hello? That I still love him?”

She was talking about you, Grampy. I nodded again, not knowing what to say.