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Contents ( 81)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for These Nameless Things
  3. Books by Shawn Smucker
  4. Title Page
  5. Copyright Page
  6. Dedication
  7. Epigraphs
  8. Contents
  9. Anytime to Three Months
  10. I’m Afraid Not
  11. The White-Haired Woman
  12. The Emptiness
  13. Looking for You
  14. Closer Than They Might Appear
  15. The First Drowning
  16. The Tea Party
  17. The Field
  18. My Own Flesh and Blood
  19. Crossing Over
  20. A Place in This World
  21. Leaving
  22. The Man in the Hotel
  23. Driving Away
  24. Gone Again
  25. No Trespassing
  26. Into Nysa
  27. No Cares in the World
  28. You Should Turn Around
  29. When Everything Started Happening
  30. An Unexpected Encounter
  31. Night Swimming
  32. Shirley
  33. The Woman at the Window
  34. What’s Real?
  35. The Question
  36. The End of Me
  37. She Went Under
  38. Desecrated
  39. The Carpet
  40. The Boat
  41. Sinking
  42. The Weight of Memory
  43. Photographs
  44. Was It You?
  45. A Wedding and a Ring
  46. Dreams and Open Windows
  47. New Developments
  48. The Door
  49. Going Under
  50. The Loss of You
  51. The Glassy Sea
  52. Following Her Down
  53. Something Beyond Us
  54. Let’s Not Leave Her Alone Anymore
  55. Too Many Secrets
  56. Heavy Things
  57. She’s Gone
  58. Our Future Spelled Out
  59. Screams at the Cabin
  60. So Close
  61. When You Arrive at the End, Keep Going
  62. It’s True
  63. The Other Side
  64. Reality
  65. Swimming Underwater
  66. Only the Deepest Pools Remain
  67. The Open Window
  68. When I Knew
  69. The Clouds Bear Down
  70. The Far Green Country
  71. Gone
  72. The Fly
  73. The Nesting Doll
  74. Two Months Later
  75. Floating Away
  76. Another mesmerizing story from Shawn Smucker
  77. Prologue
  78. Acknowledgments
  79. About the Author
  80. Back Ads
  81. Back Cover

“Doesn’t seem like it’s changed much,” I say hesitantly. “The old town still the same?”

“When did you leave Nysa?”

“Right after graduation,” I say, not wanting to get into the details.

“Summer of ’79?” he asks.

I nod.

“You really haven’t been back, have you?” he asks.

I shake my head.

“Some things happened back in the day . . .”

“Things?”

“Things,” he says, and that word is like a period, ending that conversation. “You need some gas?”

“Sure,” I say, though we have half a tank. I turn the car back on and pull in front of the pump. I move to get out, but he has already shuffled over.

“I gotcha,” he says, waving me back into my car. “I gotcha.”

Galen’s son is pumping my gas. We probably went to school together, but I don’t remember him. Everything about this feels so odd. I think of the old man’s words from the hotel—it does feel like a ghost town. I realize I haven’t passed a single car since we came over the bridge.

I hear the loud click of a full tank. He tells me the total.

“You take cards?”

His mouth scrunches up, twists, and he jerks his head back and to the side. “Inside,” he mumbles.

I turn to tell you that I’m going in to pay and see you’ve fallen asleep. Across the street from the gas station is a field. There’s a house in the distance, though I can’t see the road that goes to it. A grove of trees wraps around the gas station on three sides. I decide to leave you. I lock the doors.

Inside, he swipes my card four times before it works. When he hands me the receipt, he says something I don’t understand at first.

“I’m sorry?” I say, signing the receipt.

“This place isn’t no good no more,” he says in a nonchalant voice that doesn’t seem to go with the message.

“I’m sorry?” I say again.

He squints at me again. “Nysa,” he begins, but his words devolve into mutters. “You know, when we were kids, this was a good place to be. The town was hopping. Community. Stuff like that. The little fair that came around in the fall.”

I smile and nod.

“Not anymore. Stopped coming. Not enough people. And things happened out by the lake. Bad things. Around the time you left, and it hasn’t stopped since. Don’t go out there.”

He stands there as if he’s waiting for something from me, but I already paid. Everything is so quiet. Through one of the back windows I can see a squirrel jumping from limb to limb and then climbing onto an old barrel. From there it scampers into the shadows.

“You really should turn around, head out,” he says again. “I would if I were you.”

Our gazes meet, and there’s a sadness in his eyes, and regret.

“I think we’ll check out the town,” I say hesitantly.

“It’s all dead, Nysa. The whole island. Nothing’s left.” He clears his throat.