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Contents ( 81)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for These Nameless Things
  3. Books by Shawn Smucker
  4. Title Page
  5. Copyright Page
  6. Dedication
  7. Epigraphs
  8. Contents
  9. Anytime to Three Months
  10. I’m Afraid Not
  11. The White-Haired Woman
  12. The Emptiness
  13. Looking for You
  14. Closer Than They Might Appear
  15. The First Drowning
  16. The Tea Party
  17. The Field
  18. My Own Flesh and Blood
  19. Crossing Over
  20. A Place in This World
  21. Leaving
  22. The Man in the Hotel
  23. Driving Away
  24. Gone Again
  25. No Trespassing
  26. Into Nysa
  27. No Cares in the World
  28. You Should Turn Around
  29. When Everything Started Happening
  30. An Unexpected Encounter
  31. Night Swimming
  32. Shirley
  33. The Woman at the Window
  34. What’s Real?
  35. The Question
  36. The End of Me
  37. She Went Under
  38. Desecrated
  39. The Carpet
  40. The Boat
  41. Sinking
  42. The Weight of Memory
  43. Photographs
  44. Was It You?
  45. A Wedding and a Ring
  46. Dreams and Open Windows
  47. New Developments
  48. The Door
  49. Going Under
  50. The Loss of You
  51. The Glassy Sea
  52. Following Her Down
  53. Something Beyond Us
  54. Let’s Not Leave Her Alone Anymore
  55. Too Many Secrets
  56. Heavy Things
  57. She’s Gone
  58. Our Future Spelled Out
  59. Screams at the Cabin
  60. So Close
  61. When You Arrive at the End, Keep Going
  62. It’s True
  63. The Other Side
  64. Reality
  65. Swimming Underwater
  66. Only the Deepest Pools Remain
  67. The Open Window
  68. When I Knew
  69. The Clouds Bear Down
  70. The Far Green Country
  71. Gone
  72. The Fly
  73. The Nesting Doll
  74. Two Months Later
  75. Floating Away
  76. Another mesmerizing story from Shawn Smucker
  77. Prologue
  78. Acknowledgments
  79. About the Author
  80. Back Ads
  81. Back Cover

“Whoa!” you say, laughing. Tom can’t help but grin too, even though he lets it slide quickly from his face.

I watch all of this without moving. I’m still sitting, feeling the rock of the boat, the gentle swaying, the up and down, and the occasional knock as it bumps the dock.

“We’ll head inside,” Tom says. “You take your time, Paul.”

You follow him along the wooden boards, looking over your shoulder twice to see if I’m coming. You seem nervous, skittish, ready to bolt. I recognize it, because that’s how I feel. This place is too familiar to feel strange, too long ago to feel like home.

I pull myself up onto the dock, and the firmness of the world under my feet feels comforting. The boat rocks up and down in the small waves, the rope going back and forth between slack and taut. I wipe my wet hands on my jeans and take a deep breath, breathing in that place. Up ahead, Tom opens the back door to the cabin, and the two of you disappear inside.

I walk slowly up the dock. The outside of the cabin has been recently stained so that the wood shines, and the glass in the oversized windows is so clean it’s almost invisible. The grounds around the cabin have been cleared, at least more than they used to be, and there’s a small patch of grass off to the side. I can’t see the lane from there, but I expect it’s been widened slightly and properly maintained. It seems Tom has become a very responsible adult. Perhaps having money makes that a little easier, if you can hire out the work you wouldn’t normally do yourself.

All in all, the place looks good. Well kept. Tidy. The dock feels firm, not flimsy at all. I slowly open the door.

I can see Tom has renovated inside. All in good taste, of course—nothing over the top. The countertops are a plain, beige granite, the appliances are all stainless steel, and the living room furniture is new. The floors are hardwood.

“What do you think of the place?” Tom asks, coming out of the hallway.

“Where’s Pearl?”

“Exploring.”

I smile. “It’s nice. You’ve done a great job on the place.”

He seems relieved. I get the feeling he cares more about my opinion of the cabin than my opinion of his huge, glorious house.

“We wanted to keep it sharp, Shirley and I. Nothing too fancy.”

“Did you ever stay here?”

“Not often. A handful of times. One of her cousins brought their family here for a week every year, and I had an uncle who used it as a writing getaway. Besides that, not much.” He pauses. “Every so often we’d find beer cans out on the dock. I guess the high school kids camped out here from time to time.”

“Sounds familiar,” I say, thinking back on our first summer fixing the place up. “You’ve done a better job of renovating than we did that summer.”