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Contents ( 81)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for These Nameless Things
  3. Books by Shawn Smucker
  4. Title Page
  5. Copyright Page
  6. Dedication
  7. Epigraphs
  8. Contents
  9. Anytime to Three Months
  10. I’m Afraid Not
  11. The White-Haired Woman
  12. The Emptiness
  13. Looking for You
  14. Closer Than They Might Appear
  15. The First Drowning
  16. The Tea Party
  17. The Field
  18. My Own Flesh and Blood
  19. Crossing Over
  20. A Place in This World
  21. Leaving
  22. The Man in the Hotel
  23. Driving Away
  24. Gone Again
  25. No Trespassing
  26. Into Nysa
  27. No Cares in the World
  28. You Should Turn Around
  29. When Everything Started Happening
  30. An Unexpected Encounter
  31. Night Swimming
  32. Shirley
  33. The Woman at the Window
  34. What’s Real?
  35. The Question
  36. The End of Me
  37. She Went Under
  38. Desecrated
  39. The Carpet
  40. The Boat
  41. Sinking
  42. The Weight of Memory
  43. Photographs
  44. Was It You?
  45. A Wedding and a Ring
  46. Dreams and Open Windows
  47. New Developments
  48. The Door
  49. Going Under
  50. The Loss of You
  51. The Glassy Sea
  52. Following Her Down
  53. Something Beyond Us
  54. Let’s Not Leave Her Alone Anymore
  55. Too Many Secrets
  56. Heavy Things
  57. She’s Gone
  58. Our Future Spelled Out
  59. Screams at the Cabin
  60. So Close
  61. When You Arrive at the End, Keep Going
  62. It’s True
  63. The Other Side
  64. Reality
  65. Swimming Underwater
  66. Only the Deepest Pools Remain
  67. The Open Window
  68. When I Knew
  69. The Clouds Bear Down
  70. The Far Green Country
  71. Gone
  72. The Fly
  73. The Nesting Doll
  74. Two Months Later
  75. Floating Away
  76. Another mesmerizing story from Shawn Smucker
  77. Prologue
  78. Acknowledgments
  79. About the Author
  80. Back Ads
  81. Back Cover

Tom doesn’t answer.

“Or did I make that all up in my head?” I ask, adding a dry chuckle.

“No, no,” he says. “I remember. Of course I do.”

“I think Pearl’s been seeing her.”

“Who?”

“The same woman. I think Pearl’s been seeing her. You can’t pass that kind of specific thing down through your DNA, can you? She keeps talking about this silver-haired woman who’s been helping her with various things. I’m used to her making stuff up—she’s met with more than her fair share of fairies, gnomes, elves, and autonomous shadows. She has an extraordinary imagination. But this one, this ‘kind, silver-haired woman,’ as she refers to her, has me a bit unsettled.”

Tom stands and walks to the deck rails, staring out over the water we can no longer see in the darkness. The red-orange of the torches flickers on his back, dancing his shadow around us in many different forms and angles.

“You must have mentioned it to Pearl at some point,” Tom says in what I imagine is his diagnosis voice. “That’s the only explanation. Pearl heard the story, and now she’s taken it on as her own.”

I shake my head. “I’ve never talked about that with anyone. Not a single soul.”

I wish I was having this conversation with Tom inside, where I could read his face. As it is, his back faces me, and the darkness keeps me from noticing even a slump in his shoulders or an uncomfortable shifting of his weight.

“Shirley saw the woman in the weeks before she died,” he says.

“What do you mean?”

“As she was dying, she said she was seeing the woman Mary had always talked about, the one from the field the first night we met.” He paused. “The woman we all knew was imaginary.”

“Maybe you knew that. I was never so sure.”

He clears his throat but doesn’t say anything. I hear a splash in the lake where it edges up against the woods.

“How’d Shirley know it was her?”

“I asked the same. She said she just knew.”

I reach up and touch the knot on my head tenderly with my thumb. “Is it a psychological thing?” I ask. “I mean, Pearl hasn’t had a father. He’s been gone for a long time. Her mother died when she was a baby.”

“She has you.”

“You know what I mean. Could be she’s wishing for a parent?”

“It’s possible.”

“But you don’t think so? In your professional opinion?”

“I’d have to spend some time with her to get a better feel for what’s going on.”

“The woman isn’t real,” I say. “Is she?”

“That depends on what you mean by ‘real.’” He is still facing the water out beyond the trees. “If you mean something that everyone else sees, I would guess not, or someone else would have seen this woman by now. But if you mean something that actually occurs to someone in their own mind, then yes. I would say what Shirley explained to me was very real to her.”