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  1. Cover
  2. Praise for These Nameless Things
  3. Books by Shawn Smucker
  4. Title Page
  5. Copyright Page
  6. Dedication
  7. Epigraphs
  8. Contents
  9. Anytime to Three Months
  10. I’m Afraid Not
  11. The White-Haired Woman
  12. The Emptiness
  13. Looking for You
  14. Closer Than They Might Appear
  15. The First Drowning
  16. The Tea Party
  17. The Field
  18. My Own Flesh and Blood
  19. Crossing Over
  20. A Place in This World
  21. Leaving
  22. The Man in the Hotel
  23. Driving Away
  24. Gone Again
  25. No Trespassing
  26. Into Nysa
  27. No Cares in the World
  28. You Should Turn Around
  29. When Everything Started Happening
  30. An Unexpected Encounter
  31. Night Swimming
  32. Shirley
  33. The Woman at the Window
  34. What’s Real?
  35. The Question
  36. The End of Me
  37. She Went Under
  38. Desecrated
  39. The Carpet
  40. The Boat
  41. Sinking
  42. The Weight of Memory
  43. Photographs
  44. Was It You?
  45. A Wedding and a Ring
  46. Dreams and Open Windows
  47. New Developments
  48. The Door
  49. Going Under
  50. The Loss of You
  51. The Glassy Sea
  52. Following Her Down
  53. Something Beyond Us
  54. Let’s Not Leave Her Alone Anymore
  55. Too Many Secrets
  56. Heavy Things
  57. She’s Gone
  58. Our Future Spelled Out
  59. Screams at the Cabin
  60. So Close
  61. When You Arrive at the End, Keep Going
  62. It’s True
  63. The Other Side
  64. Reality
  65. Swimming Underwater
  66. Only the Deepest Pools Remain
  67. The Open Window
  68. When I Knew
  69. The Clouds Bear Down
  70. The Far Green Country
  71. Gone
  72. The Fly
  73. The Nesting Doll
  74. Two Months Later
  75. Floating Away
  76. Another mesmerizing story from Shawn Smucker
  77. Prologue
  78. Acknowledgments
  79. About the Author
  80. Back Ads
  81. Back Cover

The man’s expression changes from whimsical to serious. His squint sets in. “Did you say a woman with silver-white hair came to you?”

You nod.

“She came to you, just like that?”

You nod again, clearly delighted at this conversation.

“Did she have a name?”

You think about it. “I don’t think she told me her name,” you finally reply.

“Did she . . .” the old man begins, his voice unsteady. He glances at the door, then back at us. “Did she come with you here, to the hotel?”

“No,” I say in a flat voice. “She did not.”

You give me that cute little glare. “Grampy,” you mutter before addressing the old man. “No, she didn’t come with us. But she said she would meet me there, in Grampy’s hometown. In Nysa.”

I sigh. You turn and glare at me again—my clear disregard for the existence of the woman is ruining the story. I nearly say, She isn’t real, but I bite my tongue.

“Would you both be so kind as to join me for breakfast? Seven o’clock sharp?” the old man asks in a hesitant, distant sort of voice.

I’m inclined to turn down the offer. I’ve been very tired lately, probably because of the disease sprouting a knot on my head, and besides, I’m not one to visit with strangers. A polite hello is usually as far as I allow such interactions to progress. But once again, before I can speak, you interject.

“It would be our pleasure.” You give him a half curtsy.

I nearly groan, but now the old man is walking off, and you turn your face up to me.

“Pearl,” I begin, but the woman behind the desk says my name. I turn, and she gives us our room key while listing the amenities. We pick up our travel bags and head to the elevator, all the way up to the sixth floor. We find our room and settle in, and although you have been so eager to watch television from your bed, within minutes you’re asleep.

I stay up for another hour or so. All the lights in our room are turned off. I pull the desk chair over to the window and stare up at the stars, take in the acres and acres of forest we drove through to get this far, and imagine the trees shifting in the wind, their shadows swaying.

I can’t stop thinking about what the man said about Nysa.

Drownings?

I had only ever heard of two.

Driving Away

Tom and Shirley and Mary and I became inseparable, spending afternoons and evenings anywhere but in our houses. Tom was the first to get his driver’s license, and that opened up a new world of exploration for us. How many nights did we drive long into the darkness, Shirley leaning her head against Tom’s shoulder while he drove, Mary leaning her head against mine in the back seat, our fingers entangled? How many times did we stop and park somewhere, take blankets up on the roof of Tom’s old car, tuck ourselves in against the cold, and stare at the stars?