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  1. Cover
  2. Praise for These Nameless Things
  3. Books by Shawn Smucker
  4. Title Page
  5. Copyright Page
  6. Dedication
  7. Epigraphs
  8. Contents
  9. Anytime to Three Months
  10. I’m Afraid Not
  11. The White-Haired Woman
  12. The Emptiness
  13. Looking for You
  14. Closer Than They Might Appear
  15. The First Drowning
  16. The Tea Party
  17. The Field
  18. My Own Flesh and Blood
  19. Crossing Over
  20. A Place in This World
  21. Leaving
  22. The Man in the Hotel
  23. Driving Away
  24. Gone Again
  25. No Trespassing
  26. Into Nysa
  27. No Cares in the World
  28. You Should Turn Around
  29. When Everything Started Happening
  30. An Unexpected Encounter
  31. Night Swimming
  32. Shirley
  33. The Woman at the Window
  34. What’s Real?
  35. The Question
  36. The End of Me
  37. She Went Under
  38. Desecrated
  39. The Carpet
  40. The Boat
  41. Sinking
  42. The Weight of Memory
  43. Photographs
  44. Was It You?
  45. A Wedding and a Ring
  46. Dreams and Open Windows
  47. New Developments
  48. The Door
  49. Going Under
  50. The Loss of You
  51. The Glassy Sea
  52. Following Her Down
  53. Something Beyond Us
  54. Let’s Not Leave Her Alone Anymore
  55. Too Many Secrets
  56. Heavy Things
  57. She’s Gone
  58. Our Future Spelled Out
  59. Screams at the Cabin
  60. So Close
  61. When You Arrive at the End, Keep Going
  62. It’s True
  63. The Other Side
  64. Reality
  65. Swimming Underwater
  66. Only the Deepest Pools Remain
  67. The Open Window
  68. When I Knew
  69. The Clouds Bear Down
  70. The Far Green Country
  71. Gone
  72. The Fly
  73. The Nesting Doll
  74. Two Months Later
  75. Floating Away
  76. Another mesmerizing story from Shawn Smucker
  77. Prologue
  78. Acknowledgments
  79. About the Author
  80. Back Ads
  81. Back Cover

“Okay, okay,” I mumbled reluctantly. I climbed out of the car, turned toward them, and raised my arms in surrender. But by the time I was halfway up the sidewalk, Mary came through the door. I stopped in my tracks. She was a vision.

“Hey, Mary,” I said, my voice running away from me.

“Hey, Paul,” she said with her customary bashful look, eyes flitting here and there.

“You’re real pretty today,” I managed to choke out.

“Paul!” she exclaimed, red rushing up her neck. She pushed her hair out of her eyes, smiled, and shoved me away playfully, then trotted to the rear passenger-side door and climbed in. I followed her and got back into the passenger seat.

“Where are we going?” Mary asked, rolling down her window.

I wished I was sitting in the back seat with her. I noticed she was glancing nervously at her house. “Let’s go, Tom,” I said.

“Okay, okay, old boy. Relax,” he said, putting the car in gear.

“It’s a surprise.” Shirley rolled her eyes, saying “surprise” like it was the most fake word in the world.

For some reason, Tom didn’t pull away. He was lost in his thoughts, or something else, but as we sat there for an extra moment, I could see Mary getting more and more uncomfortable.

“What’s up, Tom?” I asked. “Let’s go.”

“Tom,” Shirley insisted from the back seat. “C’mon.”

Out of nowhere, Mary shouted, “Go!” and there was panic in her voice.

Tom jumped out of his reverie and looked at Mary like she had lost her mind. Shirley and I were stunned, not knowing what to do. I turned toward Mary to see what would cause her to cry out like that, and she was staring out of her window with fear in her eyes.

“Go, Tom. Please go,” she whispered.

“For goodness’ sake, Tom,” Shirley said, her voice quiet and flighty and trembling. “Mary said go.”

I turned to Tom to tell him to put his foot down, but as I did, he took off, and my head flew back against the seat. The sound of gravel pinging the underside of the car blended with the sound of the air rushing in the windows.

Tom drove at breakneck speed for at least two miles, winding precariously along the back roads between the edge of town and the lake. But before we had gone too far, he hooted a loud cry of freedom.

“How about that, old boy!” he said, laughing.

I grinned. “What were you waiting for?” I asked, but his laugh was contagious, and soon I was laughing too. I heard Shirley giggle.

How easily we forget things when we are young. How quickly we move from one moment to the next. Our laughter rang out, and we basked in the sunshine, the warm air, the empty, open roads. We weren’t thinking about Mary’s unfounded fear anymore, or the silver-haired woman she had seen in the shadows the previous Halloween. We weren’t worried about the future or the past or anything outside of that moment in the car, racing through summer. We were young and in love and had made our way out into the world, out where no one could stop us.