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Chapters (128)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Dedication
  4. PART ONE
  5. Orion Pagan
  6. Valentino Prince
  7. Orion
  8. Valentino
  9. Orion
  10. Valentino
  11. Orion
  12. Valentino
  13. Orion
  14. PART TWO
  15. Joaquin Rosa
  16. Orion
  17. Valentino
  18. Orion
  19. Joaquin Rosa
  20. Valentino
  21. Joaquin Rosa
  22. Valentino
  23. Orion
  24. Joaquin Rosa
  25. Rolando Rubio
  26. Andrea Donahue
  27. Valentino
  28. Orion
  29. Valentino
  30. Orion
  31. Valentino
  32. Orion
  33. Valentino
  34. Orion
  35. Valentino
  36. Joaquin Rosa
  37. PART THREE
  38. William Wilde
  39. Joaquin Rosa
  40. Valentino
  41. Orion
  42. Frankie Dario
  43. Valentino
  44. Frankie Dario
  45. Orion
  46. Valentino
  47. Scarlett Prince
  48. Captain Harry E. Pearson
  49. Scarlett Prince
  50. Orion
  51. Scarlett Prince
  52. Naya Rosa
  53. Joaquin Rosa
  54. Naya Rosa
  55. Frankie Dario
  56. Gloria Dario
  57. Naya Rosa
  58. Rolando Rubio
  59. Dalma Young
  60. Valentino
  61. Rolando Rubio
  62. Frankie Dario
  63. Valentino
  64. Scarlett Prince
  65. Valentino
  66. Orion
  67. Valentino
  68. Naya Rosa
  69. Valentino
  70. Férnan Emeterio
  71. Orion
  72. Rolando Rubio
  73. Valentino
  74. Captain Harry E. Pearson
  75. Orion
  76. Clint Suarez
  77. Gloria Dario
  78. Orion
  79. Scarlett Prince
  80. Valentino
  81. Gloria Dario
  82. Orion
  83. Valentino
  84. Joaquin Rosa
  85. Orion
  86. Joaquin Rosa
  87. Valentino
  88. Scarlett Prince
  89. Orion
  90. Valentino
  91. Gloria Dario
  92. Rufus Emeterio
  93. Mateo Torrez Jr.
  94. Orion
  95. Valentino
  96. Orion
  97. Valentino
  98. PART FOUR
  99. Orion
  100. Frankie Dario
  101. Valentino
  102. Orion
  103. Gloria Dario
  104. Valentino
  105. Frankie Dario
  106. Valentino
  107. Paz Dario
  108. Frankie Dario
  109. Dalma Young
  110. Orion
  111. Dalma Young
  112. Gloria Dario
  113. Orion
  114. PART FIVE
  115. Orion
  116. Dalma Young
  117. Scarlett Prince
  118. Gloria Dario
  119. Orion
  120. Dalma Young
  121. Orion
  122. Joaquin Rosa
  123. Orion
  124. Acknowledgments
  125. About the Author
  126. Books by Adam Silvera
  127. Back Ad
  128. About the Publisher

Valentino sighs as he unboxes a couple jackets and sweaters. “I appreciate that, but just so you don’t feel weird, I don’t see her as the enemy. I actually understand where she’s coming from. I would’ve behaved the same way if you had the magical organ that could save Scarlett’s life.”

If the tables were turned, I like to think I’d do exactly what Valentino is doing for me. Maybe if Scarlett does need some saving one day I can be her hero. If she ever needs a heart and I got Valentino’s, then it’s all hers, no questions asked.

As I’m opening the box for the air mattress, I’m really taking in what a fresh start this move was for Valentino. He didn’t even have a proper bed to sleep on. It’s not like when I moved out of my childhood apartment and into Casa Young. I had options between the pullout couch in the brownstone’s living room, the sleeping bags from Dayana and Floyd’s overnight camping trips, and obviously the guest room bed that became mine. Meanwhile, Valentino has the world’s loudest air mattress. I almost unplug it from the wall because I don’t want to disturb his neighbors at this hour, but I don’t give a shit, because Valentino deserves a bed on his End Day—even if it’s just an inflatable one.

In a world that currently has no problem leaving people to sleep on the streets, I’m already nervous how Deckers are going to be treated as time goes on.

It’s a good thing Valentino won’t have to suffer from that nonsense.

Valentino

3:41 a.m.

The last box is full of footwear I won’t ever wear around New York City.

My Timberland boots did great work tonight, but I was really looking forward to stepping out with my favorite oxfords and blue Chucks and tan loafers. And also going for many morning runs in my Nikes, exploring Central Park. I pull out two pairs of white sneakers, one scuffed up from casual outings and the other reserved for parties where I’m dressing down but want to look fresh. My parents always thought I was ridiculous for owning identical sneakers with different purposes, but they’re not as involved in their appearances as I am. When I think I look good, I feel good. I stand by my fashion choices, even now when it might look silly to have been so protective of shoes that won’t see the light of day.

Not on me, at least. They’ll find new homes on someone else’s feet.

Until then, I line them up by the door.

“All done,” I say. It’s not much, but I’ve created the illusion that someone is living here.

“What’s next?” Orion asks behind a yawn.