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Chapters (128)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Dedication
  4. PART ONE
  5. Orion Pagan
  6. Valentino Prince
  7. Orion
  8. Valentino
  9. Orion
  10. Valentino
  11. Orion
  12. Valentino
  13. Orion
  14. PART TWO
  15. Joaquin Rosa
  16. Orion
  17. Valentino
  18. Orion
  19. Joaquin Rosa
  20. Valentino
  21. Joaquin Rosa
  22. Valentino
  23. Orion
  24. Joaquin Rosa
  25. Rolando Rubio
  26. Andrea Donahue
  27. Valentino
  28. Orion
  29. Valentino
  30. Orion
  31. Valentino
  32. Orion
  33. Valentino
  34. Orion
  35. Valentino
  36. Joaquin Rosa
  37. PART THREE
  38. William Wilde
  39. Joaquin Rosa
  40. Valentino
  41. Orion
  42. Frankie Dario
  43. Valentino
  44. Frankie Dario
  45. Orion
  46. Valentino
  47. Scarlett Prince
  48. Captain Harry E. Pearson
  49. Scarlett Prince
  50. Orion
  51. Scarlett Prince
  52. Naya Rosa
  53. Joaquin Rosa
  54. Naya Rosa
  55. Frankie Dario
  56. Gloria Dario
  57. Naya Rosa
  58. Rolando Rubio
  59. Dalma Young
  60. Valentino
  61. Rolando Rubio
  62. Frankie Dario
  63. Valentino
  64. Scarlett Prince
  65. Valentino
  66. Orion
  67. Valentino
  68. Naya Rosa
  69. Valentino
  70. Férnan Emeterio
  71. Orion
  72. Rolando Rubio
  73. Valentino
  74. Captain Harry E. Pearson
  75. Orion
  76. Clint Suarez
  77. Gloria Dario
  78. Orion
  79. Scarlett Prince
  80. Valentino
  81. Gloria Dario
  82. Orion
  83. Valentino
  84. Joaquin Rosa
  85. Orion
  86. Joaquin Rosa
  87. Valentino
  88. Scarlett Prince
  89. Orion
  90. Valentino
  91. Gloria Dario
  92. Rufus Emeterio
  93. Mateo Torrez Jr.
  94. Orion
  95. Valentino
  96. Orion
  97. Valentino
  98. PART FOUR
  99. Orion
  100. Frankie Dario
  101. Valentino
  102. Orion
  103. Gloria Dario
  104. Valentino
  105. Frankie Dario
  106. Valentino
  107. Paz Dario
  108. Frankie Dario
  109. Dalma Young
  110. Orion
  111. Dalma Young
  112. Gloria Dario
  113. Orion
  114. PART FIVE
  115. Orion
  116. Dalma Young
  117. Scarlett Prince
  118. Gloria Dario
  119. Orion
  120. Dalma Young
  121. Orion
  122. Joaquin Rosa
  123. Orion
  124. Acknowledgments
  125. About the Author
  126. Books by Adam Silvera
  127. Back Ad
  128. About the Publisher

Has someone shot Valentino? Orion? Both of them?

Was this always supposed to end in gunfire?

Had Valentino been killed last night, would this be over? Possibly. But it also means he wouldn’t have been able to live first. Something that Orion made sure happened.

At what price?

Her family is panicking. Her mother and Dahlia run out of the pizzeria empty-handed and go straight into the car, yelling at Dalma to get in too. Floyd is banging on the lobby door and buzzing every button on the intercom for someone to let him in. Some tenants on the ground level are running out of their apartments, scared for their lives as they should be, as scared as Dalma should be for hers, but the moment that door opens, she shoves past everyone, even Floyd, and runs up those stairs.

Dalma feels as if she is a first responder, determined to save Orion’s life, knowing in her own heart that he would run toward danger to save hers too.

Orion

6:47 p.m.

Everything is mad hazy.

I’m seeing stars, but I’m not in space.

My head is on a pillow, but I’m not in bed.

Valentino’s arm is across my chest, but he’s not holding me close.

There were gunshots, but I’m not dead.

I fight to get my eyes open and then immediately regret it when I see the blood smeared all over my boyfriend’s beautiful face like something out of a horror movie. I want to return to the darkness where I can imagine—no, remember—being in bed with Valentino as he holds me close in a room that’s quiet except for our breathing.

I try shaking him awake, but he’s still trying to sleep, which fine, I get it, we haven’t had a ton of rest on his End Day, but we don’t have a lot of time left, and we still have to go down memory lane together. Valentino wanted—wants—to see how our first picture came out together, that fucking selfie, a word that we both fucking hate, that’s not supposed to outlive him.

Maybe I can wake him up with some Sleeping Beauty–type kiss because this can’t be how it ends, please don’t let this be how it ends.

I press my lips to Valentino’s, but he doesn’t snap awake and kiss me back.

His chest is slowly rising.

There’s hope, there’s hope, there’s hope, hope, hope.

I just don’t understand something.

If his heart is beating, why doesn’t it feel like he’s alive?

Dalma Young

6:47 p.m.

Dalma’s heart is pounding, scared she might bump into the killer or see her best friend’s corpse.

One feels worse than the other.