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Chapters (128)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Dedication
  4. PART ONE
  5. Orion Pagan
  6. Valentino Prince
  7. Orion
  8. Valentino
  9. Orion
  10. Valentino
  11. Orion
  12. Valentino
  13. Orion
  14. PART TWO
  15. Joaquin Rosa
  16. Orion
  17. Valentino
  18. Orion
  19. Joaquin Rosa
  20. Valentino
  21. Joaquin Rosa
  22. Valentino
  23. Orion
  24. Joaquin Rosa
  25. Rolando Rubio
  26. Andrea Donahue
  27. Valentino
  28. Orion
  29. Valentino
  30. Orion
  31. Valentino
  32. Orion
  33. Valentino
  34. Orion
  35. Valentino
  36. Joaquin Rosa
  37. PART THREE
  38. William Wilde
  39. Joaquin Rosa
  40. Valentino
  41. Orion
  42. Frankie Dario
  43. Valentino
  44. Frankie Dario
  45. Orion
  46. Valentino
  47. Scarlett Prince
  48. Captain Harry E. Pearson
  49. Scarlett Prince
  50. Orion
  51. Scarlett Prince
  52. Naya Rosa
  53. Joaquin Rosa
  54. Naya Rosa
  55. Frankie Dario
  56. Gloria Dario
  57. Naya Rosa
  58. Rolando Rubio
  59. Dalma Young
  60. Valentino
  61. Rolando Rubio
  62. Frankie Dario
  63. Valentino
  64. Scarlett Prince
  65. Valentino
  66. Orion
  67. Valentino
  68. Naya Rosa
  69. Valentino
  70. Férnan Emeterio
  71. Orion
  72. Rolando Rubio
  73. Valentino
  74. Captain Harry E. Pearson
  75. Orion
  76. Clint Suarez
  77. Gloria Dario
  78. Orion
  79. Scarlett Prince
  80. Valentino
  81. Gloria Dario
  82. Orion
  83. Valentino
  84. Joaquin Rosa
  85. Orion
  86. Joaquin Rosa
  87. Valentino
  88. Scarlett Prince
  89. Orion
  90. Valentino
  91. Gloria Dario
  92. Rufus Emeterio
  93. Mateo Torrez Jr.
  94. Orion
  95. Valentino
  96. Orion
  97. Valentino
  98. PART FOUR
  99. Orion
  100. Frankie Dario
  101. Valentino
  102. Orion
  103. Gloria Dario
  104. Valentino
  105. Frankie Dario
  106. Valentino
  107. Paz Dario
  108. Frankie Dario
  109. Dalma Young
  110. Orion
  111. Dalma Young
  112. Gloria Dario
  113. Orion
  114. PART FIVE
  115. Orion
  116. Dalma Young
  117. Scarlett Prince
  118. Gloria Dario
  119. Orion
  120. Dalma Young
  121. Orion
  122. Joaquin Rosa
  123. Orion
  124. Acknowledgments
  125. About the Author
  126. Books by Adam Silvera
  127. Back Ad
  128. About the Publisher

“The High Line,” I decide at the top of the stairs, right as I hear a clattering from above that I can’t make out and don’t concern myself with because I’m happy in this memory. “It’s our first photo together. I want to see how it came out.”

“I bet you look amazing, and I look like shit.”

Fourth landing, fourth kiss.

“I’m sure you look great too.”

“I said amazing! Once again, in trying to compliment me, you downgrade me.”

I laugh. “I’m sorry, my amazing boyfriend! You are amazing and I’m sure you look amazing and everything about you is amazing and I’m not amazing enough for you! Are we amazing again?”

“Yeah, sure, sure, sure, we’re amazing again, my great boyfriend.”

“I could kick you down these stairs,” I say, halfway up the fifth flight.

“I’ll just land on my pillow. But for real, I wouldn’t mind the break. You chose poorly moving into a sixth-floor walk-up.”

“I was told there’d be an elevator.”

“If you knew me sooner I could’ve checked that shit out for you.”

“Add that to the list of why I wish I could time-travel.”

Fifth floor, fifth kiss.

“This moment isn’t so bad,” Orion says.

This one isn’t.

Frankie Dario

6:40 p.m.

Frankie is going to kill Rolando.

He considers grabbing the gun from his closet, but a bullet is too merciful. He wants to personally beat Rolando to death. There are any number of ways to do that: the leg of the chair that just popped off as it crashed into the TV’s entertainment center, the TV itself, the boots by the door, the defrosted ham Gloria was supposed to cook for dinner, a kitchen knife, some good strikes with the ring of keys. His fists will do the trick just fine too.

“Rolando, get out here!”

“What are you doing?” Gloria asks.

Frankie points his finger at his wife—at the woman who no longer wants to be his wife. “You brought this man into my house, so let’s see how much of a man he is.” The door opens, and Rolando steps out. Paz tries following him, but Rolando nudges him back into his room. Rolando turns to Gloria.

“Don’t look at my wife!”

“You need to calm down,” Rolando says.

“You don’t make the rules in my house!”

“We’re all happy to leave your house.”

Frankie begins closing the space between himself and Rolando. “You can get the fuck out of my house, but you’re not leaving with my family!”

“I am not your property,” Gloria says, getting in between the two men.

Frankie shoves Gloria into Rolando’s arms. “Then you can both get out of here! But Paz isn’t going anywhere!”

He has no interest in being a single father, but he’ll be damned if another man raises his son.