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  1. Gillian McAllister
  2. Contents
  3. About the Author
  4. Prologue
  5. 1.
  6. Cathy
  7. 2.
  8. Joe
  9. 3.
  10. Cathy
  11. 4.
  12. Now
  13. 5.
  14. Then
  15. 6.
  16. Joe
  17. Part I
  18. 7.
  19. Joe
  20. 8.
  21. Now
  22. 9.
  23. Then
  24. 10.
  25. Lydia
  26. 11.
  27. Joe
  28. 12.
  29. Cathy
  30. 13.
  31. Now
  32. 14.
  33. Then
  34. 15.
  35. Cathy
  36. Part II
  37. 16.
  38. Joe
  39. 17.
  40. Now
  41. 18.
  42. Then
  43. 19.
  44. Joe
  45. 20.
  46. Joe
  47. 21.
  48. Now
  49. Part III
  50. 22.
  51. Then
  52. 23.
  53. Cathy
  54. 24.
  55. Joe
  56. 25.
  57. Joe
  58. 26.
  59. Now
  60. 27.
  61. Then
  62. 28.
  63. Lydia
  64. 29.
  65. Joe
  66. 30.
  67. Cathy
  68. 31.
  69. Lydia
  70. 32.
  71. Cathy
  72. 33.
  73. Joe
  74. 34.
  75. Cathy
  76. 35.
  77. Now
  78. 36.
  79. Then
  80. 37.
  81. Joe
  82. 38.
  83. Now
  84. 39.
  85. Then
  86. 40.
  87. Joe
  88. 41.
  89. Now
  90. 42.
  91. Then
  92. 43.
  93. Joe
  94. 44.
  95. Cathy
  96. 45.
  97. Lydia
  98. 46.
  99. Joe
  100. 47.
  101. Cathy
  102. 48.
  103. Now
  104. 49.
  105. Then
  106. Part IV
  107. 50.
  108. Joe
  109. 51.
  110. Cathy
  111. 52.
  112. Now
  113. 53.
  114. Then
  115. Part V
  116. 54.
  117. Joe
  118. 55.
  119. Cathy
  120. Part VI
  121. 56.
  122. Joe
  123. 57.
  124. Cathy
  125. 58.
  126. Now
  127. 59.
  128. Then
  129. 60.
  130. Joe
  131. 61.
  132. Cathy
  133. 62.
  134. Cathy
  135. 63.
  136. Joe
  137. 64.
  138. Cathy
  139. 65.
  140. Joe
  141. 66.
  142. Lydia
  143. 67.
  144. Joe
  145. Part VII
  146. 68.
  147. Joe
  148. 69.
  149. Now
  150. 70.
  151. Then
  152. 71.
  153. Cathy
  154. 72.
  155. Now
  156. 73.
  157. Then
  158. 74.
  159. Now
  160. Epilogue
  161. Acknowledgements
  162. Read more
  163. Read more
  164. Prologue
  165. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING
  166. Table of Contents

‘You all right?’ Frannie says, smiling.

‘We’re off-duty now,’ Owen says to Cathy, pulling her towards him for a quick hug. ‘Nice to see you briefly.’ As ever, when he looks at Paul, his face transforms. Gone is the stoicism. And gone is her mother’s anxiety. They hide behind their hands as they walk backwards up the drive, peeking out to make Paul laugh, displaying a whimsy Cathy never remembers them having with her. So many parents are better off as grandparents.

Frannie’s hair is piled on her head around the scarf. Her make-up has faded. She’s so thin. Cheekbones with deep cuts underneath them, like somebody with a wasting illness.

She steps aside and lets Cathy in, as she always does. ‘Joe with you?’ she says, and Cathy feels a pang. Like Frannie would rather Joe were here than her.

‘No. How’re you?’ Cathy asks.

‘You know,’ she says, her back to Cathy. ‘Up and down.’

‘Yeah.’

‘Glad we’re back. Tea?’

‘Yes, I’d rather be on today than a few days ago,’ Cathy says. ‘How were Mum and Dad?’

‘Oh, the same,’ Frannie says drily. ‘Exemplary grandparents. Dad actually sang to Paul. Was singing “You are My Sunshine”.’

‘Unbelievable.’

Frannie laughs, picking up a stack of post as she walks down the hallway.

Her house has a different smell to Cathy’s. Play-Doh, fresh laundry, old cooking. She is always making things with and for Paul. Finger-food, kitchen experiments, papier-mâché.

Frannie walks down the wooden-floored hallway with him, knowing that Cathy will follow. It is always at Frannie’s cottage where they congregate, never at Cathy’s. Cathy knows why, knows it’s logical, but it still stings. She could host them at hers, even though her small kitchen table is always covered with paperwork, even though the beamed ceilings are so low she needs the lights on in the day. Her house might be a poorer version of Frannie’s, but it still has nice features. Neat stacks of logs by the real, open fire. Wood-panelled cladding in the front room that she painted a navy-blue. A bell by the door that she kept from when it was a Victorian post office.

Cathy goes to sit by Frannie’s modern bi-fold doors, as they almost always do. Frannie brings over two teas, and they sit there, their legs hanging down over the patio, together.

‘Joe says you told him that his name is on that warrant,’ Frannie says casually to Cathy as she passes her the tea. Her tone is not accusatory. The world, to Frannie, is quite simple and benign, has none of the complexities Cathy seems to find in it. Joe once threatened to punch a boy who dumped Frannie when she was fifteen, and Cathy still remembers her saying to Joe: But I’m not bothered. I liked him, but not that much!

‘What?’ Cathy says, but, really, she is thinking, There is a triangle here, and Cathy is at the point of it. The angle that’s most likely to bear the brunt of any impact. That’s how it feels anyway. Immediately, she wants to leave. To go to sit alone in her house, the doors and windows closed to her siblings.