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Contents ( 166)
  1. Gillian McAllister
  2. Contents
  3. About the Author
  4. Prologue
  5. 1.
  6. Cathy
  7. 2.
  8. Joe
  9. 3.
  10. Cathy
  11. 4.
  12. Now
  13. 5.
  14. Then
  15. 6.
  16. Joe
  17. Part I
  18. 7.
  19. Joe
  20. 8.
  21. Now
  22. 9.
  23. Then
  24. 10.
  25. Lydia
  26. 11.
  27. Joe
  28. 12.
  29. Cathy
  30. 13.
  31. Now
  32. 14.
  33. Then
  34. 15.
  35. Cathy
  36. Part II
  37. 16.
  38. Joe
  39. 17.
  40. Now
  41. 18.
  42. Then
  43. 19.
  44. Joe
  45. 20.
  46. Joe
  47. 21.
  48. Now
  49. Part III
  50. 22.
  51. Then
  52. 23.
  53. Cathy
  54. 24.
  55. Joe
  56. 25.
  57. Joe
  58. 26.
  59. Now
  60. 27.
  61. Then
  62. 28.
  63. Lydia
  64. 29.
  65. Joe
  66. 30.
  67. Cathy
  68. 31.
  69. Lydia
  70. 32.
  71. Cathy
  72. 33.
  73. Joe
  74. 34.
  75. Cathy
  76. 35.
  77. Now
  78. 36.
  79. Then
  80. 37.
  81. Joe
  82. 38.
  83. Now
  84. 39.
  85. Then
  86. 40.
  87. Joe
  88. 41.
  89. Now
  90. 42.
  91. Then
  92. 43.
  93. Joe
  94. 44.
  95. Cathy
  96. 45.
  97. Lydia
  98. 46.
  99. Joe
  100. 47.
  101. Cathy
  102. 48.
  103. Now
  104. 49.
  105. Then
  106. Part IV
  107. 50.
  108. Joe
  109. 51.
  110. Cathy
  111. 52.
  112. Now
  113. 53.
  114. Then
  115. Part V
  116. 54.
  117. Joe
  118. 55.
  119. Cathy
  120. Part VI
  121. 56.
  122. Joe
  123. 57.
  124. Cathy
  125. 58.
  126. Now
  127. 59.
  128. Then
  129. 60.
  130. Joe
  131. 61.
  132. Cathy
  133. 62.
  134. Cathy
  135. 63.
  136. Joe
  137. 64.
  138. Cathy
  139. 65.
  140. Joe
  141. 66.
  142. Lydia
  143. 67.
  144. Joe
  145. Part VII
  146. 68.
  147. Joe
  148. 69.
  149. Now
  150. 70.
  151. Then
  152. 71.
  153. Cathy
  154. 72.
  155. Now
  156. 73.
  157. Then
  158. 74.
  159. Now
  160. Epilogue
  161. Acknowledgements
  162. Read more
  163. Read more
  164. Prologue
  165. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING
  166. Table of Contents

Cathy says nothing, not knowing what to offer up. Jesus Christ. It was murder. It was murder, after all. The blood. The delay. Frannie’s faux-straightforwardness, her simplicity: she relied on her own reputation within the family to get away with this. ‘You never said. I asked you so straight-up the other night. And you never said.’

‘Where?’ Joe says.

‘Mum and Dad’s.’

‘Oh, right. Without me.’

‘It wasn’t like that,’ Cathy says. ‘Don’t be so petty,’ she adds, even though she knows she would feel exactly as he does: vulnerable.

‘I’ll go now, to the police,’ Frannie says, disentangling herself, her hands up, white palms out. She grabs her handbag.

‘Don’t be dramatic,’ Joe says, his face red. ‘It’s too late. It’s too fucking late. We’d all go down for all sorts. Sit back down.’

Cathy deflates right there as they stand apart, just looking at each other. One of Paul’s paintings from nursery is pinned to the corkboard by the door to Frannie’s kitchen. It looks like Frannie, a tall stick figure with dark hair, his handprint in pink beside it. Cathy sighs, the air leaving her like she is a popped balloon. Joe’s right, of course. Angry but right. That ship has sailed. It is too late.

She was thinking of taking the blame for Frannie only yesterday. On the verge of just doing it, some days, to end the suffering her little sister never deserved, that – Cathy thought – had been thrown over her like a hailstorm, one that Cathy could weather better than Frannie, and with fewer unintended consequences.

‘What the fuck were you thinking?’ Joe says through gritted teeth. Cathy gets that uneasy feeling again, the one she first got in the market, when Joe puffed up like this. Protective Joe. Short-fused Joe. Only his enemy is now Frannie, once his greatest ally.

‘They’re going to find him,’ Frannie cries. ‘I had to tell you before they found him and the injuries weren’t … what I said.’

‘Let’s just – look. Let’s speak tomorrow, about Evan,’ Cathy says. ‘Let’s just go – go away and all sleep on it.’ Something seems to be bubbling away in Joe and she doesn’t like it. She feels it too. Anger. Justifiable anger towards their sister who has misled them. The circumstances are no longer the same, even if the outcome is. Frannie intended it, and now everything is different.

‘No,’ Joe shouts at Cathy.

‘Joe,’ Frannie says tearfully.

‘Fuck this absolute shit,’ Joe says. ‘Nope.’ His square shoulders, bigger than they once were, are now retreating down Frannie’s dark hallway. ‘And fuck you,’ he says to Frannie. He opens the door and the room is blinded, momentarily, by her security light, a rectangle of brightness let in and then shut out again, the room still as dark as it once was, as though no amount of light can be held in here, preserved, to keep the darkness from them.

Cathy arrives home and goes immediately out into her garden. She can’t be confined. She needs to look at the horizon, the fields beneath it, the sky above, and breathe.