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Chapters (140)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. PROLOGUE
  4. The Baby
  5. Stan Davidson
  6. PART ONE
  7. Friday, 16 July 2021
  8. Alice
  9. Tom
  10. Ambleside, July 2013
  11. Monday, 19 July 2021
  12. Tom
  13. Alice
  14. Wednesday, 21 July 2021
  15. Tom
  16. Alice
  17. Summer, 2012
  18. Wednesday, 21 July 2021
  19. The Baby
  20. Ambleside, July 2013
  21. Thursday, 22 July 2021
  22. Tom
  23. Alice
  24. Tom
  25. Alice
  26. Tom
  27. Alice
  28. Tom
  29. Alice
  30. PART TWO
  31. The Baby
  32. Carrie Sanchez
  33. Sunday, 15 August 2021
  34. Tuesday, 17 August 2021
  35. Alice
  36. Tom
  37. Alice
  38. Tom
  39. Ambleside, 2013
  40. Wednesday, 18 August 2021
  41. Tom
  42. The Baby
  43. Alice
  44. Tom
  45. Summer, 2012
  46. Wednesday, 18 August 2021
  47. Mike Andrew
  48. Thursday, 19 August 2021
  49. DI Wynne
  50. Tom
  51. Alice
  52. ‘CRUCIFIX’ KILLER STRIKES: VICTIM ESCAPES
  53. Friday, 20 August 2021
  54. DI Wynne
  55. Tom
  56. Ambleside, July 2013
  57. Friday, 20 August 2021
  58. Tom
  59. Alice
  60. Tom
  61. Saturday, 21 August 2021
  62. Tom
  63. Alice
  64. DI Wynne
  65. Tom
  66. Ambleside, July 2013
  67. Tuesday, 24 August 2021
  68. Janice Kettering
  69. Tom
  70. Alice
  71. DI Wynne
  72. Tom
  73. Alice
  74. Thursday, 26 August 2021
  75. Tom
  76. Ambleside, July 2013
  77. Friday, 27 August 2021
  78. Alice
  79. Tom
  80. Saturday, 28 August 2021
  81. Alice
  82. Tom
  83. Wast Water, July 2013
  84. Brenda
  85. PART THREE
  86. Saturday, 28 August 2021
  87. Alice
  88. DI Wynne
  89. Ambleside, July 2013
  90. Sunday, 29 August 2021
  91. Nottingham, July 2013
  92. Sunday, 29 August 2021
  93. Alice
  94. Tom
  95. Alice
  96. Nottingham, July 2013
  97. Sunday, 29 August 2021
  98. Nottingham, July 2013
  99. Sunday, 29 August 2021
  100. Alice
  101. Roland
  102. DI Wynne
  103. Nadia
  104. Stockton Heath, September 2013
  105. Sunday, 29 August 2021
  106. Nadia
  107. Stockton Heath, December 2013
  108. Sunday, 29 August 2021
  109. Tom
  110. Perth, Australia, May 2013
  111. Stockton Heath, 28 December 2013
  112. Sunday, 29 August 2021
  113. Nadia
  114. Alice
  115. Roland
  116. Alice
  117. Roland
  118. Alice
  119. Roland
  120. Alice
  121. Roland
  122. Alice
  123. Roland
  124. Alice
  125. Roland
  126. Alice
  127. Roland
  128. DI Wynne
  129. Tom
  130. Roland
  131. DI Wynne
  132. Monday, 30 August 2021
  133. DI Wynne
  134. EPILOGUE
  135. Barrow, Maine, USA, October 2021
  136. Keep Reading …
  137. Acknowledgements
  138. About the Author
  139. Also by Alex Lake
  140. About the Publisher

Tom sat by the window, Joanna asleep in his arms. It had been a rough night; Jo was awake for most of it, which meant either he or Alice was too. He had finally gone to bed around two in the morning, handing his daughter off to his wife, only to be woken before seven by Alice, holding a still crying baby.

That was their life now. Work, baby, sleep. They’d got married four years ago – although they’d met a few years before, after Alice moved to Stockton Heath. He’d admired her from a distance – she was tough and independent and seemed very self-contained. He hadn’t thought she’d be interested in him, but over time they’d met at various parties and pubs, and one day she’d asked him out on a date.

Thankfully, Jo was finally sleeping. He took a series of deep breaths. Recently he’d started feeling as though his chest was constricted, his stomach tight. It was constant, and he’d mentioned it to Dr Quinn.

That’s anxiety, she said. It’s when your body’s stress response is constantly being triggered. It can go haywire, and so you’re flooded with adrenaline. Adrenaline’s great – it helps you focus and primes your muscles to deal with whatever threat has caused the body to produce it, but when you don’t need it, it just makes you feel on edge and hyper-alert.

She had suggested deep breathing exercises – there were medications available, but she preferred to use those as a last resort. The exercises worked, to an extent, and he had started to do them whenever he felt the anxiety rising.

He did them now.

After a few minutes, he felt better. He stood up. He needed a cup of tea. Dr Quinn had also mentioned that caffeine could make things worse, but he was not ready to give up tea. Things weren’t quite that bad, yet.

He set Joanna down in her basket and walked into the kitchen. Sunlight streamed in through the skylight, and he felt it lift his spirits. He filled the kettle and switched it on, then turned to the cupboard where they kept the teabags.

He froze.

There was a letter on the counter top.

It was like the others. There was no stamp. Just a name printed on a home printer.

Alice Sark

His chest tightened and he felt dizzy. He tried taking deep breaths again, but this time they had no effect.

This panic was not his body overreacting and running wild. This panic was fully justified.

Alice

Alice lay in bed upstairs and typed a message on her phone.

Are you awake?

Kay replied immediately.

Yes. Getting ready for work.

Can you talk?

Her phone rang seconds after she sent the question.

‘Hi,’ she said, keeping her voice to a whisper. ‘Sorry to bother you so early.’

‘What’s the matter?’ Kay said. ‘Why are you being so quiet.’