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Chapters (81)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Prologue
  4. Chapter One
  5. Chapter Two
  6. Chapter Three
  7. Chapter Four
  8. Chapter Five
  9. Chapter Six
  10. Chapter Seven
  11. Chapter Eight
  12. Chapter Nine
  13. Chapter Ten
  14. Chapter Eleven
  15. Chapter Twelve
  16. Chapter Thirteen
  17. Chapter Fourteen
  18. Chapter Fifteen
  19. Chapter Sixteen
  20. Chapter Seventeen
  21. Chapter Eighteen
  22. Chapter Nineteen
  23. Chapter Twenty
  24. Chapter Twenty-One
  25. Chapter Twenty-Two
  26. Chapter Twenty-Three
  27. Chapter Twenty-Four
  28. Chapter Twenty-Five
  29. Chapter Twenty-Six
  30. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  31. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  32. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  33. Chapter Thirty
  34. Chapter Thirty-One
  35. Chapter Thirty-Two
  36. Chapter Thirty-Three
  37. Chapter Thirty-Four
  38. Chapter Thirty-Five
  39. Chapter Thirty-Six
  40. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  41. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  42. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  43. Chapter Forty
  44. Chapter Forty-One
  45. Chapter Forty-Two
  46. Chapter Forty-Three
  47. Chapter Forty-Four
  48. Chapter Forty-Five
  49. Chapter Forty-Six
  50. Chapter Forty-Seven
  51. Chapter Forty-Eight
  52. Chapter Forty-Nine
  53. Chapter Fifty
  54. Chapter Fifty-One
  55. Chapter Fifty-Two
  56. Chapter Fifty-Three
  57. Chapter Fifty-Four
  58. Chapter Fifty-Five
  59. Chapter Fifty-Six
  60. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  61. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  62. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  63. Chapter Sixty
  64. Chapter Sixty-One
  65. Chapter Sixty-Two
  66. Chapter Sixty-Three
  67. Chapter Sixty-Four
  68. Chapter Sixty-Five
  69. Chapter Sixty-Six
  70. Chapter Sixty-Seven
  71. Chapter Sixty-Eight
  72. Chapter Sixty-Nine
  73. Chapter Seventy
  74. Chapter Seventy-One
  75. Chapter Seventy-Two
  76. Chapter Seventy-Three
  77. Chapter Seventy-Four
  78. A Letter From Ruby
  79. Acknowledgements
  80. About the Author
  81. Also by Ruby Speechley

‘Do you have any plasters? I didn’t realise I’d caught my thumb. It’s not bleeding, just sore.’ He showed her the split in a patch of dry skin.

‘There’s some in here.’

He trailed after her to the kitchen, where she dug out a first aid kit from a drawer in the dresser.

‘Here, let me do it for you.’ She turned his hand on the side.

He watched her carefully peel back the plastic strips and place the plaster gently across his thumb. As she pressed the sticky tabs to his skin, she gazed into his eyes. With his fingertips he lightly touched the back of her hand and, when she didn’t protest, he caressed her smooth skin.

‘Thank you,’ he said.

Her warm smile widened, eyes still fixed on his.

‘Would it be okay if I have a shower?’ He’d been sweating buckets all day and she was too polite to complain.

‘Of course. I’ll get a clean towel for you.’

Upstairs, he stood close behind her at the airing cupboard.

She spun round, towel in hand.

‘I really appreciate everything, you know,’ he said. She didn’t move away. Her breathing quickened and her hand brushed his as he took the towel.

After his shower, he wandered downstairs wearing it around his waist. Maddy’s face flushed at the sight of him.

‘Can I get you a drink or something to eat?’ Her red face deepened.

‘A glass of water, thanks.’

He was amused at her stealing a glance of his toned chest. As she handed him the glass, he let the towel fall to the ground. She gave a little gasp. He leaned down and kissed her on the mouth. She was more eager than he’d expected and didn’t resist when he led her up to her bedroom and started to undress her.

That night he lay awake in the dark with the curtains open, Maddy fast asleep. Such a stunning girl, bit old-fashioned in her ways, but that wasn’t her fault. She was incredibly kind and eager to please.

He got up and stood at the window in the silver light of the waxing moon. Gran had sworn by the lunar rhythms and told him it was foolhardy for anyone to ignore them. Below him, a network of gardens was fronted by large houses like this one. He’d have a go at building his own one day. He lit a cigarette and inhaled deeply, tapping the end out of the window. The ash fluttered away like a mini flurry of snow. His mind drifted back to the heavy fall in February. A brother holding each of her arms, pulling her back with every attempt she’d made to lurch forward, face criss-crossed with tears, voice brittle. The shadowy outline of her father in the background. There he went again, as if he didn’t have a future, only a magnet to the past.