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Chapters (81)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Prologue
  4. Chapter One
  5. Chapter Two
  6. Chapter Three
  7. Chapter Four
  8. Chapter Five
  9. Chapter Six
  10. Chapter Seven
  11. Chapter Eight
  12. Chapter Nine
  13. Chapter Ten
  14. Chapter Eleven
  15. Chapter Twelve
  16. Chapter Thirteen
  17. Chapter Fourteen
  18. Chapter Fifteen
  19. Chapter Sixteen
  20. Chapter Seventeen
  21. Chapter Eighteen
  22. Chapter Nineteen
  23. Chapter Twenty
  24. Chapter Twenty-One
  25. Chapter Twenty-Two
  26. Chapter Twenty-Three
  27. Chapter Twenty-Four
  28. Chapter Twenty-Five
  29. Chapter Twenty-Six
  30. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  31. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  32. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  33. Chapter Thirty
  34. Chapter Thirty-One
  35. Chapter Thirty-Two
  36. Chapter Thirty-Three
  37. Chapter Thirty-Four
  38. Chapter Thirty-Five
  39. Chapter Thirty-Six
  40. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  41. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  42. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  43. Chapter Forty
  44. Chapter Forty-One
  45. Chapter Forty-Two
  46. Chapter Forty-Three
  47. Chapter Forty-Four
  48. Chapter Forty-Five
  49. Chapter Forty-Six
  50. Chapter Forty-Seven
  51. Chapter Forty-Eight
  52. Chapter Forty-Nine
  53. Chapter Fifty
  54. Chapter Fifty-One
  55. Chapter Fifty-Two
  56. Chapter Fifty-Three
  57. Chapter Fifty-Four
  58. Chapter Fifty-Five
  59. Chapter Fifty-Six
  60. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  61. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  62. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  63. Chapter Sixty
  64. Chapter Sixty-One
  65. Chapter Sixty-Two
  66. Chapter Sixty-Three
  67. Chapter Sixty-Four
  68. Chapter Sixty-Five
  69. Chapter Sixty-Six
  70. Chapter Sixty-Seven
  71. Chapter Sixty-Eight
  72. Chapter Sixty-Nine
  73. Chapter Seventy
  74. Chapter Seventy-One
  75. Chapter Seventy-Two
  76. Chapter Seventy-Three
  77. Chapter Seventy-Four
  78. A Letter From Ruby
  79. Acknowledgements
  80. About the Author
  81. Also by Ruby Speechley

‘Remember the moon landing exhibition?’ he says without looking at her.

She nods.

‘Amazing, wasn’t it? We’re lucky to have been alive for the fiftieth anniversary. I like what you’ve done with the garden, by the way, although having only black flowers is quite eerie at night. I’d have preferred a Moon Garden.’

Their eyes meet.

‘It’s as though all the colour has drained out of your world.’ He touches her arm but she twists away.

‘I thought you were dead. I’ve been a widow in mourning.’

‘I’m sorry.’ He looks away. ‘You’ve kept the tree,’ he stumbles over his words.

‘Why wouldn’t I?’ He’s full of tricks. Mother warned her.

Max doesn’t answer.

‘Do you know they found your rucksack, then your van? It was on the local news.’

He dips his head.

‘Why didn’t you call to let me know you were okay?’

‘I wasn’t well, I couldn’t think straight.’

‘They told us to expect the worst.’ She pulls her cardigan round her tighter and folds her arms. ‘Can you imagine what that did to Emily?’

‘I’m really sorry. I stood on that bridge and my mind went blank. I felt at peace, like it was the solution to everything.’

‘Solution to what?’

‘And the next moment I’d jumped.’

‘But you got out.’

‘I nearly drowned.’

‘Wasn’t that the idea?’

‘I don’t know. I damaged my leg.’ He bends down to rub his shin. Two bats fly in concentric circles above their heads. ‘I suppose I thought you’d be better off without me, that you could claim the life insurance, I don’t know.’

Maddy faces him full on. ‘On a missing body?’ She follows him to the foot of the tree. ‘You wanted us to believe you were dead?’ The words fester above them like a cloud of midges. She studies Max’s profile. The beautiful outline of his jaw is smudged by the new beard. A hint of loose skin has formed beneath his chin.

He looks deep into her eyes in that intense James Dean way he has, this strong power he has over her, and sure enough the familiar flutter rises in her chest, catching her by surprise. She moves away from him, determined not to be drawn in.

He reaches forward and touches the bark. ‘In that minute I wanted to be dead, and for… for Chloe to be alive.’ He clenches his fist and thumps the tree, letting out a sob.