Back Every Little Secret
Chapters (81)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Prologue
  4. Chapter One
  5. Chapter Two
  6. Chapter Three
  7. Chapter Four
  8. Chapter Five
  9. Chapter Six
  10. Chapter Seven
  11. Chapter Eight
  12. Chapter Nine
  13. Chapter Ten
  14. Chapter Eleven
  15. Chapter Twelve
  16. Chapter Thirteen
  17. Chapter Fourteen
  18. Chapter Fifteen
  19. Chapter Sixteen
  20. Chapter Seventeen
  21. Chapter Eighteen
  22. Chapter Nineteen
  23. Chapter Twenty
  24. Chapter Twenty-One
  25. Chapter Twenty-Two
  26. Chapter Twenty-Three
  27. Chapter Twenty-Four
  28. Chapter Twenty-Five
  29. Chapter Twenty-Six
  30. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  31. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  32. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  33. Chapter Thirty
  34. Chapter Thirty-One
  35. Chapter Thirty-Two
  36. Chapter Thirty-Three
  37. Chapter Thirty-Four
  38. Chapter Thirty-Five
  39. Chapter Thirty-Six
  40. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  41. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  42. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  43. Chapter Forty
  44. Chapter Forty-One
  45. Chapter Forty-Two
  46. Chapter Forty-Three
  47. Chapter Forty-Four
  48. Chapter Forty-Five
  49. Chapter Forty-Six
  50. Chapter Forty-Seven
  51. Chapter Forty-Eight
  52. Chapter Forty-Nine
  53. Chapter Fifty
  54. Chapter Fifty-One
  55. Chapter Fifty-Two
  56. Chapter Fifty-Three
  57. Chapter Fifty-Four
  58. Chapter Fifty-Five
  59. Chapter Fifty-Six
  60. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  61. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  62. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  63. Chapter Sixty
  64. Chapter Sixty-One
  65. Chapter Sixty-Two
  66. Chapter Sixty-Three
  67. Chapter Sixty-Four
  68. Chapter Sixty-Five
  69. Chapter Sixty-Six
  70. Chapter Sixty-Seven
  71. Chapter Sixty-Eight
  72. Chapter Sixty-Nine
  73. Chapter Seventy
  74. Chapter Seventy-One
  75. Chapter Seventy-Two
  76. Chapter Seventy-Three
  77. Chapter Seventy-Four
  78. A Letter From Ruby
  79. Acknowledgements
  80. About the Author
  81. Also by Ruby Speechley

‘I swear on Jamie’s life I don’t have him,’ he says, ‘I’m as worried as you are.’

‘How can you even say that?’ Alison crosses her arms.

‘Shall we all sit down?’ PC Blunt indicates the sitting room.

They follow Alison, who is helped by Jamie.

‘Why haven’t you answered your phone or called me?’ She grinds her teeth.

‘I lost my phone.’

‘I hear you’ve been staying all over the place. How lovely for you.’

‘Where’s Poppy?’

‘He’s gone,’ Jamie says.

‘What happened?’ His voice is low and calm.

‘I can’t believe you’re worried about the bloody dog when our baby is missing. What is wrong with you?’ Every inch of her is shaking.

‘Of course I’m worried about the baby, but don’t you understand, if Poppy had been here when this person came into the house, he would have barked and woken you up.’

‘He ran away.’ Jamie wipes his eyes. ‘We tried to find him.’

‘How did that happen?’

‘Someone left the gate open.’

‘Christ Ali, he was a lovely boy.’

‘Have you been sending a cleaner round?’ She feels the heat of tears building behind her eyes, but she won’t give him the satisfaction.

‘Do I look like I can afford that?’ Adam opens the patio door, stands outside and lights a cigarette. ‘Where’s the tree?’ Smoke trails back into the room.

‘I told you I’d have the bloody thing chopped down. You wouldn’t listen.’

‘Okay, let’s all calm down and try not to apportion any more blame.’ PC Blunt indicates that he should come and sit down. Adam drags the cigarette stub down the brick wall and comes in.

‘Why the hell did you go off in the first place?’ Alison takes the glass of water from Jamie and whispers to him to go upstairs. He shakes his head and stands near his dad.

‘I couldn’t take it anymore.’ Adam sits at one end of the sofa, nearest the policewoman.

‘Take what?’ Alison’s voice rises.

‘You deciding to have a baby without telling me. You spending all my money like it comes out of a tap. Do you want me to go on?’ Adam grips his hands together in front of him, turning them over, twisting the broken skin.

‘I didn’t get pregnant on my own.’ Alison moves along the sofa closer to him. His hair is matted and his skin and beard could do with a good scrub. He smells like he’s not washed properly for a while. Even the soles are peeling away from his trainers. She’s never seen him in such a state.

‘Take your time.’ PC Blunt nods to him.

‘I had to think…’ he stops and swallows hard, ‘…about why we were having another child.’

‘But I thought you were happy with growing our little family. You said we were good together, remember?’