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Chapters (81)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Prologue
  4. Chapter One
  5. Chapter Two
  6. Chapter Three
  7. Chapter Four
  8. Chapter Five
  9. Chapter Six
  10. Chapter Seven
  11. Chapter Eight
  12. Chapter Nine
  13. Chapter Ten
  14. Chapter Eleven
  15. Chapter Twelve
  16. Chapter Thirteen
  17. Chapter Fourteen
  18. Chapter Fifteen
  19. Chapter Sixteen
  20. Chapter Seventeen
  21. Chapter Eighteen
  22. Chapter Nineteen
  23. Chapter Twenty
  24. Chapter Twenty-One
  25. Chapter Twenty-Two
  26. Chapter Twenty-Three
  27. Chapter Twenty-Four
  28. Chapter Twenty-Five
  29. Chapter Twenty-Six
  30. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  31. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  32. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  33. Chapter Thirty
  34. Chapter Thirty-One
  35. Chapter Thirty-Two
  36. Chapter Thirty-Three
  37. Chapter Thirty-Four
  38. Chapter Thirty-Five
  39. Chapter Thirty-Six
  40. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  41. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  42. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  43. Chapter Forty
  44. Chapter Forty-One
  45. Chapter Forty-Two
  46. Chapter Forty-Three
  47. Chapter Forty-Four
  48. Chapter Forty-Five
  49. Chapter Forty-Six
  50. Chapter Forty-Seven
  51. Chapter Forty-Eight
  52. Chapter Forty-Nine
  53. Chapter Fifty
  54. Chapter Fifty-One
  55. Chapter Fifty-Two
  56. Chapter Fifty-Three
  57. Chapter Fifty-Four
  58. Chapter Fifty-Five
  59. Chapter Fifty-Six
  60. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  61. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  62. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  63. Chapter Sixty
  64. Chapter Sixty-One
  65. Chapter Sixty-Two
  66. Chapter Sixty-Three
  67. Chapter Sixty-Four
  68. Chapter Sixty-Five
  69. Chapter Sixty-Six
  70. Chapter Sixty-Seven
  71. Chapter Sixty-Eight
  72. Chapter Sixty-Nine
  73. Chapter Seventy
  74. Chapter Seventy-One
  75. Chapter Seventy-Two
  76. Chapter Seventy-Three
  77. Chapter Seventy-Four
  78. A Letter From Ruby
  79. Acknowledgements
  80. About the Author
  81. Also by Ruby Speechley

‘Adam, can you hear me?’ The nurse’s voice roused him. His eyes gradually opened as she took his temperature.

‘They’ve fixed your hand,’ Ali said. She was standing by his bed, her eyes rimmed red. He squinted at the heavy bandaging and swollen fingers.

‘They caught him, all thanks to you.’ She put her arm around the boy by her side.

‘What’s your name?’ Max asked.

‘Jamie,’ the boy said.

Max searched Ali’s face, but she wouldn’t look at him, fussing instead with unpacking a bottle of Lucozade, a bag of grapes and a bar of milk chocolate. He looked at the boy properly now. His thatch of blond hair, a cheeky grin; older than Emily or Chloe. Maddy! He tried to sit up. ‘What time is it?’

‘Eight thirty.’

‘I have to go!’

‘They might let you out tomorrow.’

‘No, you don’t understand, I have to go right now.’ He was supposed to be driving Maddy and the girls to Margate the next morning.

‘I don’t understand, where do you need to be?’ Alison asked.

The nurse beside the next patient came over.

‘You’re not going anywhere tonight, my love, it’ll be lights out shortly. Come on,’ she said, pulling the covers up to his neck, ‘you’ve had a general anaesthetic, not to mention painkillers. You’re lucky there wasn’t more serious damage.’

He pushed his head into the pillow and closed his eyes. He’d have to confess about Maddy and his daughters.

Ali gave the boy some change and told him to get himself a drink from the vending machine.

‘He’s a good boy,’ she said.

‘We need to talk.’ He pressed his throbbing brow.

‘It’s been hard finding the right moment.’

‘I should have told you sooner…’ he began.

‘The thing is…’ She sat on the bed close to him.

‘We’ve all done things in the past…’

‘I know and I’ve been meaning to…’ She shook her head as she smoothed the sheet.

‘What?’ He touched her hand, waited for her to speak. She searched his eyes with hers.

‘I couldn’t go through with it.’

He frowned.

‘Jamie…’

‘What? What are you saying?’ His heart fizzed to life like a firework. He made a move to sit up.

‘Jamie is your son… our son.’ She leaned over and hugged him, but he pushed her away. He tried again to sit up but groaned in agony.

‘Shit, Ali! What the fuck are you playing at? Why are you only telling me now?’

‘I’m so sorry.’ She stood back and dabbed her eyes with her fingers.

‘How could you carry on letting me believe he didn’t exist?’ He screwed his good fist up and slammed it down on the bed, making her flinch.

‘I said I’m sorry.’ She stepped back.

‘When were you going to tell me? Were you going to?’