Chapters (93)
- Cover
- Dedication
- Epigraph
- Prologue
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- Chapter 9
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Chapter 13
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- Chapter 27
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- Chapter 35
- Chapter 36
- Chapter 37
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- Chapter 51
- Chapter 52
- Chapter 53
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Chapter 56
- Chapter 57
- Chapter 58
- Chapter 59
- Chapter 60
- Chapter 61
- Chapter 62
- Chapter 63
- Chapter 64
- Chapter 65
- Chapter 66
- Chapter 67
- Chapter 68
- Chapter 69
- Chapter 70
- Chapter 71
- Chapter 72
- Chapter 73
- Chapter 74
- Chapter 75
- Chapter 76
- Chapter 77
- Chapter 78
- Chapter 79
- Chapter 80
- Chapter 81
- Chapter 82
- Chapter 83
- Chapter 84
- Chapter 85
- Acknowledgements
- About the Author
- Also by Charlotte Philby
- About the Publisher
‘He’s pulling the plug,’ she said simply, flicking repeatedly at the flint until the flame appeared and she inhaled deeply, as if gasping for life. ‘Fucking bastard,’ her teeth were gritted and her eyes shone with astonished rage.
‘What? Who?’
‘Emsworth,’ she said, spitting his name. ‘Who do you think? Apparently there are funding issues across the whole organisation, cuts need to be made and we are deemed dispensable. He claims he can absorb our roles into his department.’
‘But he can’t— What do you mean?’
‘Oh, don’t be so bloody naive, Gabriela. Of course he can. He already has.’
Gabriela was so dumbstruck that she didn’t go after Madeleine, her feet cemented to the pavement as she moved away, and with her the prospect of any meaningful future disappearing into the distance; the tsunami drawing back, preparing to strike.
As she settled back at her desk a while later, ignoring the concerned looks of her colleagues trying to catch her eye from their desks, the adrenaline only now beginning to pulse through her body, she found an email from Serena.
What’s going on?
Inhaling, she deleted the message.
If she had given it more thought, she might have prevented at least some of what was to follow. But maybe, she would wonder later on, she didn’t want to think too deeply about what was really happening. Maybe she was too busy thinking about herself.
‘Everything OK?’ Tom asked that evening as she stormed into the kitchen, throwing down her bag and filling the closest glass with wine.
‘Mama!’ Sadie ran to her and, without thinking, Gabriela pushed her away. ‘Not now, please, I just need a minute.’
Sadie whirled round and raced out of the room, tears brimming. Gabriela lifted her hands to her face.
‘Mummy just needs to decompress,’ she heard Tom say as he closed the door behind her and Gabriela instantly regretted her briskness. And yet, as Tom walked back into the room, her mind went back to her day at work. How could she tell him? If the department was being torn apart and she was about to be made redundant or shifted across somewhere she didn’t want to be, in order to survive her focus now had to be on making herself indispensable, to cling on with both hands.