Back A Double Life
Chapters (93)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Chapter 44
  49. Chapter 45
  50. Chapter 46
  51. Chapter 47
  52. Chapter 48
  53. Chapter 49
  54. Chapter 50
  55. Chapter 51
  56. Chapter 52
  57. Chapter 53
  58. Chapter 54
  59. Chapter 55
  60. Chapter 56
  61. Chapter 57
  62. Chapter 58
  63. Chapter 59
  64. Chapter 60
  65. Chapter 61
  66. Chapter 62
  67. Chapter 63
  68. Chapter 64
  69. Chapter 65
  70. Chapter 66
  71. Chapter 67
  72. Chapter 68
  73. Chapter 69
  74. Chapter 70
  75. Chapter 71
  76. Chapter 72
  77. Chapter 73
  78. Chapter 74
  79. Chapter 75
  80. Chapter 76
  81. Chapter 77
  82. Chapter 78
  83. Chapter 79
  84. Chapter 80
  85. Chapter 81
  86. Chapter 82
  87. Chapter 83
  88. Chapter 84
  89. Chapter 85
  90. Acknowledgements
  91. About the Author
  92. Also by Charlotte Philby
  93. About the Publisher

‘He’s pulling the plug,’ she said simply, flicking repeatedly at the flint until the flame appeared and she inhaled deeply, as if gasping for life. ‘Fucking bastard,’ her teeth were gritted and her eyes shone with astonished rage.

‘What? Who?’

‘Emsworth,’ she said, spitting his name. ‘Who do you think? Apparently there are funding issues across the whole organisation, cuts need to be made and we are deemed dispensable. He claims he can absorb our roles into his department.’

‘But he can’t— What do you mean?’

‘Oh, don’t be so bloody naive, Gabriela. Of course he can. He already has.’

Gabriela was so dumbstruck that she didn’t go after Madeleine, her feet cemented to the pavement as she moved away, and with her the prospect of any meaningful future disappearing into the distance; the tsunami drawing back, preparing to strike.

As she settled back at her desk a while later, ignoring the concerned looks of her colleagues trying to catch her eye from their desks, the adrenaline only now beginning to pulse through her body, she found an email from Serena.

What’s going on?

Inhaling, she deleted the message.

If she had given it more thought, she might have prevented at least some of what was to follow. But maybe, she would wonder later on, she didn’t want to think too deeply about what was really happening. Maybe she was too busy thinking about herself.

‘Everything OK?’ Tom asked that evening as she stormed into the kitchen, throwing down her bag and filling the closest glass with wine.

‘Mama!’ Sadie ran to her and, without thinking, Gabriela pushed her away. ‘Not now, please, I just need a minute.’

Sadie whirled round and raced out of the room, tears brimming. Gabriela lifted her hands to her face.

‘Mummy just needs to decompress,’ she heard Tom say as he closed the door behind her and Gabriela instantly regretted her briskness. And yet, as Tom walked back into the room, her mind went back to her day at work. How could she tell him? If the department was being torn apart and she was about to be made redundant or shifted across somewhere she didn’t want to be, in order to survive her focus now had to be on making herself indispensable, to cling on with both hands.