Chapters (93)
- Cover
- Dedication
- Epigraph
- Prologue
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- Chapter 9
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Chapter 13
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- Chapter 27
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- Chapter 35
- Chapter 36
- Chapter 37
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- Chapter 51
- Chapter 52
- Chapter 53
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Chapter 56
- Chapter 57
- Chapter 58
- Chapter 59
- Chapter 60
- Chapter 61
- Chapter 62
- Chapter 63
- Chapter 64
- Chapter 65
- Chapter 66
- Chapter 67
- Chapter 68
- Chapter 69
- Chapter 70
- Chapter 71
- Chapter 72
- Chapter 73
- Chapter 74
- Chapter 75
- Chapter 76
- Chapter 77
- Chapter 78
- Chapter 79
- Chapter 80
- Chapter 81
- Chapter 82
- Chapter 83
- Chapter 84
- Chapter 85
- Acknowledgements
- About the Author
- Also by Charlotte Philby
- About the Publisher
And yet, Polina is right, because she knows Layla better than anyone. She has spent more time with Layla in her short time on earth than anyone else. It was Gabriela’s lap she chose for cuddles when all was well, but it was Polina to whom she instinctively turned when the tears rose in her eyes.
‘I’ll go and get packed then,’ she says, moving towards the hall, regretting not having gathered all that she needed before Polina returned.
And then she hears the door click open and a voice calling her daughter’s name, and when she turns she sees him standing in the doorway, blocking their escape.
Chapter 76
Gabriela
It takes a moment for Gabriela to compose herself, and when she does, she sees that Ivan is looking at her in a way that makes her rearrange herself on the spot.
‘But what are you doing here?’ she asks, recovering herself just enough for the sentence to form.
‘I was about to ask you the same thing …’ He lingers for a moment as if awaiting a reply, and then he says, ‘My flight was cancelled. I’m leaving tomorrow instead.’
‘OK,’ she says, after a moment. ‘My course was postponed. I didn’t see any reason to tell you, as you were supposed to be away.’
‘I see. Well, that’s worked out well then, hasn’t it?’
‘Hasn’t it?’ she says, as he leans in to kiss her, the bristle of his beard scratching her cheek.
‘I’ll cook for all of us. Polina, too,’ she says as evening folds in, having spent the afternoon resisting the urge to stare at him, to scour his face for evidence of what he does and does not know.
She moves into the kitchen and puts on the apron hanging on the back of the door – the one she had made, with a print of Layla and Ivan with Ivan’s mother from their trip to Moscow, the three of them on the sofa in her apartment.
‘Polina,’ Gabriela calls out. ‘You’ll eat with us, won’t you? I need a drink,’ she says, turning to Ivan. ‘Do we have gin?’
‘We seem to have run out,’ he says. ‘What about something else? We have wine or—’
‘I really fancy gin. Do you think you could run out and grab some, while I prepare this?’
He pauses. ‘OK. If you’re sure you can’t have something else.’
‘I’m sorry,’ she says. ‘You don’t mind, do you?’
Polina walks into the hall and out of nowhere she has a flicker of memory of Madeleine talking. Information from insider informants.
Pushing the voice away, she looks back at Ivan and he shrugs, then pulls on his coat. ‘Anything else?’
‘I don’t think so,’ she says.