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Chapters (93)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Chapter 44
  49. Chapter 45
  50. Chapter 46
  51. Chapter 47
  52. Chapter 48
  53. Chapter 49
  54. Chapter 50
  55. Chapter 51
  56. Chapter 52
  57. Chapter 53
  58. Chapter 54
  59. Chapter 55
  60. Chapter 56
  61. Chapter 57
  62. Chapter 58
  63. Chapter 59
  64. Chapter 60
  65. Chapter 61
  66. Chapter 62
  67. Chapter 63
  68. Chapter 64
  69. Chapter 65
  70. Chapter 66
  71. Chapter 67
  72. Chapter 68
  73. Chapter 69
  74. Chapter 70
  75. Chapter 71
  76. Chapter 72
  77. Chapter 73
  78. Chapter 74
  79. Chapter 75
  80. Chapter 76
  81. Chapter 77
  82. Chapter 78
  83. Chapter 79
  84. Chapter 80
  85. Chapter 81
  86. Chapter 82
  87. Chapter 83
  88. Chapter 84
  89. Chapter 85
  90. Acknowledgements
  91. About the Author
  92. Also by Charlotte Philby
  93. About the Publisher

‘A place has come up for two days a week at the children’s centre. There’s an open day, I thought we could have a look around,’ Tom said one afternoon, calling her as she was heading into a meeting.

‘When is it?’ she asked.

‘Thursday.’

‘Shit, I can’t make it,’ Gabriela said. ‘You go, tell me what it’s like.’

There was a pause. ‘But I think it’s important we both see it.’

Another member of the team walked past into the meeting room and Gabriela smiled at her, indicating she’d only be a moment more. ‘Tom, what am I supposed to do, ask for a day off at this short notice? Come on, it’s nursery. Anyway, I’ll have a look at the Ofsted – and you have a look around. I trust you to make the right choice.’

‘Sure,’ he said, a hint of resignation in his voice. ‘I just thought you might want to be part of it.’

Despite the inevitable blips that were surely part and parcel of family life, soon things fell into a satisfying rhythm, that first year working with Madeleine. With Sadie part-time in the children’s centre, Tom was freed up to take on a small residential project, working on weekends and while Callum napped. As the months passed, Callum began to sleep through the night. The following year, as September drew nearer, so too approached the moment when Sadie, who was turning four, would move into the school nursery, freeing up even more time. At last, Gabriela conceded, it was impossible not to believe the stars were aligning.

Then, just after Madeleine had come back from Hanoi, and they were starting to make proper progress in the office, the summons came from the Permanent Under-Secretary’s office.

Not one to shy away from a public showdown, the big boss chose mid-morning on the Monday before the Commons broke up for summer recess to hold the one-on-one meeting, ensuring the maximum audience in front of whom to wield his axe. Gabriela was waiting at the bottom of the staircase while he and Madeleine talked, their voices rising from the room like balls being thwacked across a tennis court.

‘But you can’t do this … He can’t do this!’ Madeleine’s voice rang from behind the closed door. When it swung open twenty minutes later and she ran down the stairs, her fury left a trail beneath the portraits of countless men with all the power of empire at their disposal.

Gabriela followed her out of the building. ‘Madeleine, stop, talk to me – what’s going on, what did he say?’ They were halfway down the street before she finally slowed down, her body trembling as she reached into her bag for a cigarette.