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Chapters (93)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Chapter 44
  49. Chapter 45
  50. Chapter 46
  51. Chapter 47
  52. Chapter 48
  53. Chapter 49
  54. Chapter 50
  55. Chapter 51
  56. Chapter 52
  57. Chapter 53
  58. Chapter 54
  59. Chapter 55
  60. Chapter 56
  61. Chapter 57
  62. Chapter 58
  63. Chapter 59
  64. Chapter 60
  65. Chapter 61
  66. Chapter 62
  67. Chapter 63
  68. Chapter 64
  69. Chapter 65
  70. Chapter 66
  71. Chapter 67
  72. Chapter 68
  73. Chapter 69
  74. Chapter 70
  75. Chapter 71
  76. Chapter 72
  77. Chapter 73
  78. Chapter 74
  79. Chapter 75
  80. Chapter 76
  81. Chapter 77
  82. Chapter 78
  83. Chapter 79
  84. Chapter 80
  85. Chapter 81
  86. Chapter 82
  87. Chapter 83
  88. Chapter 84
  89. Chapter 85
  90. Acknowledgements
  91. About the Author
  92. Also by Charlotte Philby
  93. About the Publisher

Moving faster still, she lets her eyes roam the room and in the silence she must reconcile herself to the fact that she doesn’t truly know him at all. She doesn’t know anything about his life, not really, just as he knows nothing about hers. Much as she wants to believe he is unaware of the purpose of the visas his company doles out, she cannot think that he is so naive, so detached from the work to which he dedicates so much of his life. Either he knows, or he chose not to ask.

But what does that matter now? Either way, she understands what she has to do.

Pulling out her phone, she dials Polina’s number but it goes straight to voicemail.

Banging doors as she moves from room to room, she calls out her name. ‘Layla?’ But she is not here.

A sick feeling rises up inside her as she reaches the top of the stairs. Just as she takes her first step, she sees Polina’s silhouette at the door. In her arms is Layla, her face breaking into a smile as she sees her mother.

Gabriela runs down the stairs to her, her whole being shaking with relief as she envelops her daughter in her arms.

Polina laughs, taken aback.

‘Where were you?’ Gabriela says forcefully, looking over her daughter’s shoulder at her.

‘By the river,’ Polina says, her voice more wary now. ‘Layla was restless so I took her for a walk. Is everything all right?’

Closing her eyes, she relaxes her grip on Layla slightly.

‘Sorry. Everything is fine. There was just a change of plan, that’s all. I panicked …’

She gives Polina a reassuring smile and says, ‘If it’s OK with you, I thought I might take Layla out for the day. What do you think, Layla? You and me, shall we go out somewhere nice?’

When Layla smiles, there is a familiar expression, the way her mouth curls up at one side, and she realises it is herself who she is seeing. Layla has always looked so much like her father, the same tight dark curls, the same dark eyes, the prominent brows. If she hadn’t come out of her, Gabriela might have questioned her provenance before this moment, before this flash of her own face in her daughter’s.

‘You want to come with Mummy? OK, let’s do it!’ She turns to Polina, giving her brightest smile. ‘Is there a change of clothes in her bag?’

‘Of course. And a couple of nappies, and her dummy. I know you’re keen for her to give it up, but it offers her comfort when you’re gone, and I really don’t want to take another thing away from her right now.’

She means nothing by it, but this comment makes Gabriela flush. The smile falters on her lips.