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Chapters (65)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for the previous work of
  3. Dedication
  4. Epigraph
  5. 24 April 2018
  6. Part 1: Subject
  7. 15 June 1968
  8. 20 June 1968
  9. July 1968
  10. 2 February 2018
  11. Part 2: Light
  12. 20 November 1970
  13. 20 November 1970
  14. 21 November 1970
  15. November 1970
  16. 19 February 2018
  17. Part 3: Focus
  18. 15 April 1977
  19. 18 April 1977
  20. 15 May 1977
  21. July 1977
  22. 26 February 2018
  23. 8 March 2018
  24. 8 March 2018
  25. Part 4: Distance
  26. 15 May 1979
  27. 15 May 1979
  28. 16 May 1979
  29. June 1979
  30. 29 March 2018
  31. 29 March 2018
  32. 27 March 2018
  33. Part 5: Movement
  34. 18 October 1981
  35. 10 April 2018
  36. 18 October 1981
  37. 10 April 2018
  38. 18 October 1981
  39. 10 April 2018
  40. 18 October 1981
  41. 10 April 2018
  42. 10 April 2018
  43. 18 October 1981
  44. 10 April 2018
  45. October 1981
  46. Part 6: Exposure
  47. July 1984
  48. 5 September 1984
  49. 24 April 2018
  50. 25 April 2018
  51. Part 7: Developing
  52. 26 April 2018
  53. Vee, in the lost place, 1984
  54. 26 April 2018
  55. Epilogue
  56. 5 February 2019
  57. Author’s Note
  58. Acknowledgements
  59. Letter from Author
  60. Stephanie Butland’s Readers’ Club
  61. For your Reading Group
  62. For discussion
  63. Select bibliography
  64. About the author
  65. Also by Stephanie Butland

‘Well, probably. And idealistic. But if you’re changing the world you need to start with the ideal you want, don’t you? Not begin by aiming for a compromise?’ It’s strange to be talking as though she had been an activist when she was really a hanger-on, at the beginning at least, horrified by Leonie and her friends and drawn to them, like a ten-year-old tagging along with shoplifting teenagers. ‘My generation did what we could. Your generation needs to take this fight further, I think. We gave you enough for it to be possible for you to do that. Not . . .’

Erica’s face is interested but there’s something hard in it too, a Leonie look. ‘Not what?’

Vee shakes her head. She feels shaky, and her soul is exhausted by this conversation, and the memories it brings back. ‘I don’t know, Erica. I think we imagined that your generation would be – free. More free than we were. Sometimes I think you have it worse.’

‘Maybe,’ she replies, and Vee wonders whether, if she were a people person, if she was Leonie, or Ursula, she would put all talk of the exhibition aside and ask Erica how she was.

Erica nods, and then, laying out the contents of the Miss World folder – handwritten notes, printed notes, permission forms, newspaper clippings – says, ‘I haven’t got a contact sheet for this one. I wondered if you still have it? If you’re looking through them anyway. For the other photos we talked about.’

‘I should have that one.’ Vee always kept good records, unlike most of the newsrooms of the 1970s and 80s, which were uninterested in anything once it was yesterday’s copy. Once she started working for the newspapers directly, she always made friends with the lab technicians in the hope that she would be able to get her original films and contact sheets back. It worked until she was doing well and getting the good jobs. Then her films and contact sheets were filed more carefully, according to the celebrity she’d photographed. Even her most established contacts in the lab, the closest people she had to friends at the papers and magazines, didn’t dare return them to her after that.

Apart from that one time.

‘Did you know, the lab technicians used to go through the films at the end of the year, pull out the ones they thought no one would want again, and strip off the silver to sell, to pay for the Christmas party?’

‘Mmm.’ Erica’s not listening, not really; she’s scrutinising the images Vee took outside the Café de Paris: blurred faces, greyscale banners, but a sense of purpose all the same. After a moment she says, as though it’s nothing, ‘I’ve never actually been on a march.’

‘What?’ Vee hears that her voice is a bark. Making allowances for the world changing is one thing. This is another, ‘You’re not serious? Nothing?’