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Chapters (65)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for the previous work of
  3. Dedication
  4. Epigraph
  5. 24 April 2018
  6. Part 1: Subject
  7. 15 June 1968
  8. 20 June 1968
  9. July 1968
  10. 2 February 2018
  11. Part 2: Light
  12. 20 November 1970
  13. 20 November 1970
  14. 21 November 1970
  15. November 1970
  16. 19 February 2018
  17. Part 3: Focus
  18. 15 April 1977
  19. 18 April 1977
  20. 15 May 1977
  21. July 1977
  22. 26 February 2018
  23. 8 March 2018
  24. 8 March 2018
  25. Part 4: Distance
  26. 15 May 1979
  27. 15 May 1979
  28. 16 May 1979
  29. June 1979
  30. 29 March 2018
  31. 29 March 2018
  32. 27 March 2018
  33. Part 5: Movement
  34. 18 October 1981
  35. 10 April 2018
  36. 18 October 1981
  37. 10 April 2018
  38. 18 October 1981
  39. 10 April 2018
  40. 18 October 1981
  41. 10 April 2018
  42. 10 April 2018
  43. 18 October 1981
  44. 10 April 2018
  45. October 1981
  46. Part 6: Exposure
  47. July 1984
  48. 5 September 1984
  49. 24 April 2018
  50. 25 April 2018
  51. Part 7: Developing
  52. 26 April 2018
  53. Vee, in the lost place, 1984
  54. 26 April 2018
  55. Epilogue
  56. 5 February 2019
  57. Author’s Note
  58. Acknowledgements
  59. Letter from Author
  60. Stephanie Butland’s Readers’ Club
  61. For your Reading Group
  62. For discussion
  63. Select bibliography
  64. About the author
  65. Also by Stephanie Butland

Vee looks at the boots again – Erica has stretched out her legs in front of her – and she must make a sound, a tut or a sigh, because Erica sees where her gaze is resting, and says, ‘I like heels.’ That stubbornness – the particular timbre of it, the tug and fall of the consonants against the vowels, each word a fight – runs deep into Vee. It lands in her brain and heart and gut, and strikes a note through her body that she never thought she’d hear again. She closes her eyes for a moment, against the memory. Opens them, and looks at the toes of her own boots. She’s worn Doc Martens since 1972, when Leonie bought her her first pair, for her birthday. They only came in black, then. This latest pair, electric blue, must be five years old. They might be her last. She wonders how many there have been. It’s such a pleasure to never have to think about your feet; just to let them take you where you want to go.

Erica pulls a notebook from her bag. ‘I’d like to walk the space with you today, and tell you what I’m thinking. How the exhibition will be laid out, what I want to bring forward, and how I plan to use the ephemera and objects—’

‘Ephemera?’

Erica smiles. ‘Sorry. Jargon. Paper-based items that relate to the prints. So, a lot of Leonie’s archive of your work. The contemporaneous things that she kept. Magazines, newspapers and so on. The objects are the equipment. I mentioned them in my initial email? And I sent you a breakdown.’

‘I’m sure you did,’ Vee says, ‘I just need reminding sometimes.’

Erica accepts this – oh, she is young, and thinks she will never be old, and forget things in her turn – and continues, ‘It’s mostly the things I found in my mother’s loft after her death. In a box with “Leonie” on the side. I don’t think it can have been opened since my mother cleared Leonie’s flat.’

‘I do remember.’ Vee does, now. Leonie had had very little good to say at the time about how newspapers reported stories, how women were portrayed in magazines, or the way Vee had sold out by working for them. Today, the thought of Leonie quietly buying and carefully keeping a record of Vee’s work feels almost unbearably touching; like finding a lost love letter when the lover has died, Vee imagines, though she wouldn’t really know.