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Chapters (65)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for the previous work of
  3. Dedication
  4. Epigraph
  5. 24 April 2018
  6. Part 1: Subject
  7. 15 June 1968
  8. 20 June 1968
  9. July 1968
  10. 2 February 2018
  11. Part 2: Light
  12. 20 November 1970
  13. 20 November 1970
  14. 21 November 1970
  15. November 1970
  16. 19 February 2018
  17. Part 3: Focus
  18. 15 April 1977
  19. 18 April 1977
  20. 15 May 1977
  21. July 1977
  22. 26 February 2018
  23. 8 March 2018
  24. 8 March 2018
  25. Part 4: Distance
  26. 15 May 1979
  27. 15 May 1979
  28. 16 May 1979
  29. June 1979
  30. 29 March 2018
  31. 29 March 2018
  32. 27 March 2018
  33. Part 5: Movement
  34. 18 October 1981
  35. 10 April 2018
  36. 18 October 1981
  37. 10 April 2018
  38. 18 October 1981
  39. 10 April 2018
  40. 18 October 1981
  41. 10 April 2018
  42. 10 April 2018
  43. 18 October 1981
  44. 10 April 2018
  45. October 1981
  46. Part 6: Exposure
  47. July 1984
  48. 5 September 1984
  49. 24 April 2018
  50. 25 April 2018
  51. Part 7: Developing
  52. 26 April 2018
  53. Vee, in the lost place, 1984
  54. 26 April 2018
  55. Epilogue
  56. 5 February 2019
  57. Author’s Note
  58. Acknowledgements
  59. Letter from Author
  60. Stephanie Butland’s Readers’ Club
  61. For your Reading Group
  62. For discussion
  63. Select bibliography
  64. About the author
  65. Also by Stephanie Butland

Vee steps up onto a low wall, unzips her camera bag, and takes out her beloved old Olympus OM-1. Once she started using this model – in ’75, maybe – she didn’t see that she ever needed anything fancier, better, or more sophisticated. Instead she bought another body, then another, all the same, and she went out into the world with one round her neck and a spare slung over her shoulder. This is her implement and her weapon, and they have been through enough together to work as one. Vee loops the worn, warm strap around her neck, clips off the lens cap – she loves the tension then give of the movement – then palms it into her pocket. When she does this, she isn’t seventy and dying. She’s twenty and anxious, thirty and assertive, forty and confident, fifty and at the top of her game. She’s sixty and learning herself all over again. She’s Veronica Moon: photographer, observer, force.

She lifts the camera to her face and her left eye finds the viewfinder, relaxes into the way of seeing it invites. Her right eye closes, and the place between her eyebrows rests against the top of the camera. Vee’s left eye is, has always been, the one that wants to do the looking – a camera has never felt right to her when she tries to use her right eye – so when she takes a shot she has to move her head away to wind the film on, with the lever at the top right. She used to envy photographers who took shot after shot without needing to take the camera from their right eye, winding on as they looked, but now she realises that that second of grace and refocus gives her the chance to find something a fraction better than what she had in the last frame.

Erica glances around, looking for her, and Vee smiles, then makes a shooing motion with her free hand; Erica does not need her, here, and she definitely does not need Erica. A photographer is a solitary thing, half-person, half-camera. Her feet are solid and her hands are steady, as serious as they have always been when they are working.

Vee scans through and over the crowd, waits for something to snag her eye. First it’s a woman with a child of five or six on her shoulders, the woman reaching a hand up and the child reaching for it, both of them smiling, neither able to see the other’s face. She presses the shutter, winds on, settles in again, looking for another image. A better one, this time.