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Chapters (65)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for the previous work of
  3. Dedication
  4. Epigraph
  5. 24 April 2018
  6. Part 1: Subject
  7. 15 June 1968
  8. 20 June 1968
  9. July 1968
  10. 2 February 2018
  11. Part 2: Light
  12. 20 November 1970
  13. 20 November 1970
  14. 21 November 1970
  15. November 1970
  16. 19 February 2018
  17. Part 3: Focus
  18. 15 April 1977
  19. 18 April 1977
  20. 15 May 1977
  21. July 1977
  22. 26 February 2018
  23. 8 March 2018
  24. 8 March 2018
  25. Part 4: Distance
  26. 15 May 1979
  27. 15 May 1979
  28. 16 May 1979
  29. June 1979
  30. 29 March 2018
  31. 29 March 2018
  32. 27 March 2018
  33. Part 5: Movement
  34. 18 October 1981
  35. 10 April 2018
  36. 18 October 1981
  37. 10 April 2018
  38. 18 October 1981
  39. 10 April 2018
  40. 18 October 1981
  41. 10 April 2018
  42. 10 April 2018
  43. 18 October 1981
  44. 10 April 2018
  45. October 1981
  46. Part 6: Exposure
  47. July 1984
  48. 5 September 1984
  49. 24 April 2018
  50. 25 April 2018
  51. Part 7: Developing
  52. 26 April 2018
  53. Vee, in the lost place, 1984
  54. 26 April 2018
  55. Epilogue
  56. 5 February 2019
  57. Author’s Note
  58. Acknowledgements
  59. Letter from Author
  60. Stephanie Butland’s Readers’ Club
  61. For your Reading Group
  62. For discussion
  63. Select bibliography
  64. About the author
  65. Also by Stephanie Butland

There’s a pause. Vee opens her eyes, looks towards the window, the light. When she speaks, her mouth hardly moves, as though she is trying to keep her jaw still. ‘That’s depressing. Women of your age, your education and means getting swept up. It’s the opposite of what the movement was fighting for.’

This again. If Erica doesn’t start to confront it, she will be trampled. She won’t be able to look Tom or Marcus in the eye when she gets home, as it is. ‘Weren’t you fighting for the right not to be judged? It sometimes seems to me that you only wanted that in theory. I get judged every which way, and much more by women than by men.’ She thinks of Marcus’s mother, Sarah, who considers it shocking that she employs a weekly cleaner. An older former colleague told her that she was letting the side down by having a baby. Whereas most of the men she works with couldn’t give a toss about her childcare arrangements or the moral compromises she has made, so long as she turns up when she’s supposed to. ‘You would say you spent the seventies fighting for women’s freedom but that only seems to be true if we are the right sort of free.’

‘That’s probably a fair point,’ Vee says, after a pause so long Erica thought she was ignoring her.

Erica can’t help but nod, with a kind of ‘ha!’ abruptness.

They stand in silence for a moment, then another. Erica goes to the table and leafs through the photographs again. It’s the first time in a long time that her aunt has seemed more than an abstract figure, the family icon/tragedy. ‘She looks . . . dynamic. And angry, a lot of the time. My aunt.’

Vee half-laughs, an affectionate, remembering sound. ‘She was. We all were, to an extent, in that we were all trying to make changes, and we were aware of how unjust the world was, and we couldn’t believe it wasn’t changing faster. If you’d told me then that I was going on this march today, I’d have written you off as a pessimist. Leonie would have hauled you over the coals for not believing in the power of the sisterhood.’ She smiles, looking straight at Erica for the first time today. ‘Do you want to call a cab while I put my boots on?’

‘Are you up to it?’

‘I have no idea,’ Vee says, ‘but I sorted out my camera last night, so I’ll give it a try.’