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Contents ( 81)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for These Nameless Things
  3. Books by Shawn Smucker
  4. Title Page
  5. Copyright Page
  6. Dedication
  7. Epigraphs
  8. Contents
  9. Anytime to Three Months
  10. I’m Afraid Not
  11. The White-Haired Woman
  12. The Emptiness
  13. Looking for You
  14. Closer Than They Might Appear
  15. The First Drowning
  16. The Tea Party
  17. The Field
  18. My Own Flesh and Blood
  19. Crossing Over
  20. A Place in This World
  21. Leaving
  22. The Man in the Hotel
  23. Driving Away
  24. Gone Again
  25. No Trespassing
  26. Into Nysa
  27. No Cares in the World
  28. You Should Turn Around
  29. When Everything Started Happening
  30. An Unexpected Encounter
  31. Night Swimming
  32. Shirley
  33. The Woman at the Window
  34. What’s Real?
  35. The Question
  36. The End of Me
  37. She Went Under
  38. Desecrated
  39. The Carpet
  40. The Boat
  41. Sinking
  42. The Weight of Memory
  43. Photographs
  44. Was It You?
  45. A Wedding and a Ring
  46. Dreams and Open Windows
  47. New Developments
  48. The Door
  49. Going Under
  50. The Loss of You
  51. The Glassy Sea
  52. Following Her Down
  53. Something Beyond Us
  54. Let’s Not Leave Her Alone Anymore
  55. Too Many Secrets
  56. Heavy Things
  57. She’s Gone
  58. Our Future Spelled Out
  59. Screams at the Cabin
  60. So Close
  61. When You Arrive at the End, Keep Going
  62. It’s True
  63. The Other Side
  64. Reality
  65. Swimming Underwater
  66. Only the Deepest Pools Remain
  67. The Open Window
  68. When I Knew
  69. The Clouds Bear Down
  70. The Far Green Country
  71. Gone
  72. The Fly
  73. The Nesting Doll
  74. Two Months Later
  75. Floating Away
  76. Another mesmerizing story from Shawn Smucker
  77. Prologue
  78. Acknowledgments
  79. About the Author
  80. Back Ads
  81. Back Cover

“What’s up, Danny-boy?” he asks good-naturedly.

I can’t hear the man’s reply, but the two of them chuckle and the friendly-looking man settles onto the stool. The waitress comes out, smiles when she sees him, and pours him a cup of coffee. Everyone suddenly seems more relaxed, and sunshine slants in through the windows and warms me on one side. I feel all of the mortgaged tiredness from the last few days coming due, and I take a deep breath, lean back in the booth, sigh. My knot throbs.

“Know what you want?” the waitress asks, sliding up beside us.

“Pearl, any ideas?” I ask you.

“A grilled cheese, please.”

The waitress grunts quietly.

“What’s good?” I ask.

“What?” She seems taken aback.

“What do you like? Do you have a specialty?”

She glances at her notepad, then back up at me as if I haven’t said anything at all, and sighs impatiently.

“Let’s do the grilled cheese,” I say. “Can you put bacon on that?”

When she writes, it’s like the pen is her weapon, the paper her enemy. I’m surprised she’s not tearing right through it. She grunts again and plunges through the door to the kitchen. The door swings in wide arcs behind her.

“You know what she is?” you say. There’s a mischievous glint in your eye, and I know what’s coming. But I pretend I don’t. I try not to smile.

“No. What?”

“That waitress is the secret witch queen of the island of Nysa.” You’re whispering now, your voice hissing and hesitant.

“Is that so?” I ask.

You nod, your face serious. “This is the entryway to her secret lair. Back in the room where they keep all their ingredients, there’s a secret door behind one of the shelves.”

“Like in Nancy Drew?”

You nod again. “Only better. It only swings opens if you lift up one of the ketchup bottles. There are a thousand steps down into the earth, and at the very bottom is where she keeps her prisoners.”

“Who does she take prisoner?” I ask, feigning seriousness.

“Only people with one name.”

“One name? What name is that?”

“Paul!” You start giggling.

“Paul?” I pretend to be offended, but I’m unable to keep the smile from my face. “Paul?”

“Yeah, Paul!” you say, laughing so hard now you almost can’t speak. “She takes all the Pauls prisoner.” You’re rolling around on the booth, holding your side.

“Why all the Pauls?” I ask, but you can’t answer. You’re laughing too hard. Finally you stop, wiping the tears of laughter from your eyes.

“Oh, Grampy,” you begin, then stop talking.

“You’re a good storyteller,” I say.

You get a strange look on your face, a kind of earnestness that’s akin to pleading. “You know, not all of my stories are made up.”

I reach across the table and place my hand palm up. You put one of your small hands into mine. I stroke the top of your hand with my index finger, and for some reason I’m feeling emotional now, feeling the smoothness of your skin, the tiny bones in your young hand.