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  1. Cover
  2. Praise for These Nameless Things
  3. Books by Shawn Smucker
  4. Title Page
  5. Copyright Page
  6. Dedication
  7. Epigraphs
  8. Contents
  9. Anytime to Three Months
  10. I’m Afraid Not
  11. The White-Haired Woman
  12. The Emptiness
  13. Looking for You
  14. Closer Than They Might Appear
  15. The First Drowning
  16. The Tea Party
  17. The Field
  18. My Own Flesh and Blood
  19. Crossing Over
  20. A Place in This World
  21. Leaving
  22. The Man in the Hotel
  23. Driving Away
  24. Gone Again
  25. No Trespassing
  26. Into Nysa
  27. No Cares in the World
  28. You Should Turn Around
  29. When Everything Started Happening
  30. An Unexpected Encounter
  31. Night Swimming
  32. Shirley
  33. The Woman at the Window
  34. What’s Real?
  35. The Question
  36. The End of Me
  37. She Went Under
  38. Desecrated
  39. The Carpet
  40. The Boat
  41. Sinking
  42. The Weight of Memory
  43. Photographs
  44. Was It You?
  45. A Wedding and a Ring
  46. Dreams and Open Windows
  47. New Developments
  48. The Door
  49. Going Under
  50. The Loss of You
  51. The Glassy Sea
  52. Following Her Down
  53. Something Beyond Us
  54. Let’s Not Leave Her Alone Anymore
  55. Too Many Secrets
  56. Heavy Things
  57. She’s Gone
  58. Our Future Spelled Out
  59. Screams at the Cabin
  60. So Close
  61. When You Arrive at the End, Keep Going
  62. It’s True
  63. The Other Side
  64. Reality
  65. Swimming Underwater
  66. Only the Deepest Pools Remain
  67. The Open Window
  68. When I Knew
  69. The Clouds Bear Down
  70. The Far Green Country
  71. Gone
  72. The Fly
  73. The Nesting Doll
  74. Two Months Later
  75. Floating Away
  76. Another mesmerizing story from Shawn Smucker
  77. Prologue
  78. Acknowledgments
  79. About the Author
  80. Back Ads
  81. Back Cover

Drip.

Drip.

Drip.

Is there a lonelier sound?

At the bottom, I find myself standing in what feels to be a completely empty room, a never-ending stretch of smooth concrete under my feet, and an almost silky darkness that drips down the steps and fills the space like liquid rising. I close my eyes. I do not like the feel of the place. Across the way, the dim light glares off a thin sheet of standing water, completely still.

I hear a distant whistling.

“Pearl?” I call out.

The whistling stops.

“Pearl? Honey? Please talk to me. It’s dark. I can’t see anything.”

“Grampy?” Your tiny voice scuttles along the edges of the walls and under the steps and flits along the ceiling.

“Pearl.” I’m not sure what else to say.

“I’m sorry, Grampy.”

“Honey, you’re not in trouble. Come out. Please?”

“Maybe you should come in here. I’m under these boards.”

My eyes adjust, and in the dim light, I can see a pile of wooden pallets that has partially fallen over, and a small crawl space in among them.

“Pearl.” I sigh and get as low as I can. I inch my way back into that narrow opening, feeling the grit under my hands and knees, and you are there, in the darkness.

A light appears like a single eye, first skimming the floor, then lifting of its own accord and bouncing lightly through the void.

“Do you keep that flashlight in your backpack?”

“Isn’t this place kind of like the old cave where the giants live?”

“I’m afraid it’s too small for giants,” I reply, trying to find a comfortable position.

“You only think that because you’re one of the giants,” you say.

“Oh, is that right?” I smirk, but you remain serious.

“This is the cave of the giants, the ones that eat little boys and little girls.”

“Are you a giant, or are you a little girl about to be eaten?”

“A little girl, of course!” you protest.

“If I eat you, can we leave?”

“Grampy!”

“Okay. I’m sorry. Go ahead.”

“There are many of us little children trapped here in the mean, ugly giant’s nasty cave, but only I have found the important map.”

“A map of where?” I ask.

You start to talk but clamp your mouth shut.

“You can tell me, Pearl. I’m not really a giant.”

“I know, Grampy,” you say, your voice quiet and unsure of itself. “It’s a map of Nysa, where you grew up.”

Again, a soft chill puts goose bumps on my arms.

You stand as well as you can inside the tiny space and move to the opening. “C’mon, Grampy. Let’s go.”

You don’t want to talk about the map. That’s fine, because I don’t either. I follow you out between the boards, out into the building’s basement, which now seems much less dark than it did before, especially after being under the pallets.

“I’m sorry, Grampy,” you say.

“C’mon. You’re right. Let’s get out of here.”