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Chapters (128)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Dedication
  4. PART ONE
  5. Orion Pagan
  6. Valentino Prince
  7. Orion
  8. Valentino
  9. Orion
  10. Valentino
  11. Orion
  12. Valentino
  13. Orion
  14. PART TWO
  15. Joaquin Rosa
  16. Orion
  17. Valentino
  18. Orion
  19. Joaquin Rosa
  20. Valentino
  21. Joaquin Rosa
  22. Valentino
  23. Orion
  24. Joaquin Rosa
  25. Rolando Rubio
  26. Andrea Donahue
  27. Valentino
  28. Orion
  29. Valentino
  30. Orion
  31. Valentino
  32. Orion
  33. Valentino
  34. Orion
  35. Valentino
  36. Joaquin Rosa
  37. PART THREE
  38. William Wilde
  39. Joaquin Rosa
  40. Valentino
  41. Orion
  42. Frankie Dario
  43. Valentino
  44. Frankie Dario
  45. Orion
  46. Valentino
  47. Scarlett Prince
  48. Captain Harry E. Pearson
  49. Scarlett Prince
  50. Orion
  51. Scarlett Prince
  52. Naya Rosa
  53. Joaquin Rosa
  54. Naya Rosa
  55. Frankie Dario
  56. Gloria Dario
  57. Naya Rosa
  58. Rolando Rubio
  59. Dalma Young
  60. Valentino
  61. Rolando Rubio
  62. Frankie Dario
  63. Valentino
  64. Scarlett Prince
  65. Valentino
  66. Orion
  67. Valentino
  68. Naya Rosa
  69. Valentino
  70. Férnan Emeterio
  71. Orion
  72. Rolando Rubio
  73. Valentino
  74. Captain Harry E. Pearson
  75. Orion
  76. Clint Suarez
  77. Gloria Dario
  78. Orion
  79. Scarlett Prince
  80. Valentino
  81. Gloria Dario
  82. Orion
  83. Valentino
  84. Joaquin Rosa
  85. Orion
  86. Joaquin Rosa
  87. Valentino
  88. Scarlett Prince
  89. Orion
  90. Valentino
  91. Gloria Dario
  92. Rufus Emeterio
  93. Mateo Torrez Jr.
  94. Orion
  95. Valentino
  96. Orion
  97. Valentino
  98. PART FOUR
  99. Orion
  100. Frankie Dario
  101. Valentino
  102. Orion
  103. Gloria Dario
  104. Valentino
  105. Frankie Dario
  106. Valentino
  107. Paz Dario
  108. Frankie Dario
  109. Dalma Young
  110. Orion
  111. Dalma Young
  112. Gloria Dario
  113. Orion
  114. PART FIVE
  115. Orion
  116. Dalma Young
  117. Scarlett Prince
  118. Gloria Dario
  119. Orion
  120. Dalma Young
  121. Orion
  122. Joaquin Rosa
  123. Orion
  124. Acknowledgments
  125. About the Author
  126. Books by Adam Silvera
  127. Back Ad
  128. About the Publisher

So Rolando wasn’t on a breakfast date. He was with a man who’s dying today—who may be dead already.

“Why did you meet with him?”

And so Rolando tells Gloria about his long phone call with the man named Clint, and how he came to find himself having breakfast with him on his End Day. “I don’t want you waiting around for your life, Gloria. And more important, I don’t want you waiting around for your death. It might not be my business, but I don’t want to regret not saying anything if . . . if Frankie loses control.”

As if the worst parts of her life flash by, Gloria shudders.

“I’m sorry to bring this up,” Rolando says. “But not as sorry as I’ll be if I lose you.”

“I appreciate the concern. It’s just more complicated than you think.”

“I think it’s the opposite. It’s simpler than you think. You shouldn’t be with someone who might be your cause of death. Not when you have so much to live for.”

Gloria turns to Pazito, but she understands she should be pulling out a mirror instead.

She reminds herself that she’s important, that she matters, that she deserves a better life.

“I’m scared,” Gloria finally admits.

“I understand. Frankie is terrifying.”

“No, it’s more than that . . . I’m scared of starting over.”

Gloria looks at the park, finding her son going down a slide. He’s one of many kids who will grow up and expect for life to be smooth sailing. But Gloria’s journey has been rocky, and she’s sure that peace will be on the horizon if she throws her husband overboard. But it’s not that simple. Frankie will weigh her down like an anvil, keeping peace out of reach.

“Starting over is scary,” Rolando says. “But that’s the only way forward.”

“It’s the only way forward,” Gloria repeats with tears in her eyes.

“For me, starting over means not waiting for my End Day to admit that I’m still in love with you, Gloria. Always have been, always will be.”

Gloria sucks in a breath, as if she’s had the most amazing kiss in her life. But Rolando has not touched her. Not physically, at least. They remain seated apart and staring at one another, the sounds of children living in the background, and Gloria’s heartbeat pounding in her ears. Rolando does love her—always has, always will. Gloria believes those words with a fierceness that she never felt for Frankie’s vows. The man she should’ve married was the one standing behind her husband at the wedding.

“I’m not expecting you to divorce your husband for me,” Rolando says. “But I hope you’ll divorce him for yourself.”

Before Gloria can decide if she wants to restart her life with Rolando, she must choose to end this one with Frankie.