Chapters (128)
- Cover
- Title Page
- Dedication
- PART ONE
- Orion Pagan
- Valentino Prince
- Orion
- Valentino
- Orion
- Valentino
- Orion
- Valentino
- Orion
- PART TWO
- Joaquin Rosa
- Orion
- Valentino
- Orion
- Joaquin Rosa
- Valentino
- Joaquin Rosa
- Valentino
- Orion
- Joaquin Rosa
- Rolando Rubio
- Andrea Donahue
- Valentino
- Orion
- Valentino
- Orion
- Valentino
- Orion
- Valentino
- Orion
- Valentino
- Joaquin Rosa
- PART THREE
- William Wilde
- Joaquin Rosa
- Valentino
- Orion
- Frankie Dario
- Valentino
- Frankie Dario
- Orion
- Valentino
- Scarlett Prince
- Captain Harry E. Pearson
- Scarlett Prince
- Orion
- Scarlett Prince
- Naya Rosa
- Joaquin Rosa
- Naya Rosa
- Frankie Dario
- Gloria Dario
- Naya Rosa
- Rolando Rubio
- Dalma Young
- Valentino
- Rolando Rubio
- Frankie Dario
- Valentino
- Scarlett Prince
- Valentino
- Orion
- Valentino
- Naya Rosa
- Valentino
- Férnan Emeterio
- Orion
- Rolando Rubio
- Valentino
- Captain Harry E. Pearson
- Orion
- Clint Suarez
- Gloria Dario
- Orion
- Scarlett Prince
- Valentino
- Gloria Dario
- Orion
- Valentino
- Joaquin Rosa
- Orion
- Joaquin Rosa
- Valentino
- Scarlett Prince
- Orion
- Valentino
- Gloria Dario
- Rufus Emeterio
- Mateo Torrez Jr.
- Orion
- Valentino
- Orion
- Valentino
- PART FOUR
- Orion
- Frankie Dario
- Valentino
- Orion
- Gloria Dario
- Valentino
- Frankie Dario
- Valentino
- Paz Dario
- Frankie Dario
- Dalma Young
- Orion
- Dalma Young
- Gloria Dario
- Orion
- PART FIVE
- Orion
- Dalma Young
- Scarlett Prince
- Gloria Dario
- Orion
- Dalma Young
- Orion
- Joaquin Rosa
- Orion
- Acknowledgments
- About the Author
- Books by Adam Silvera
- Back Ad
- About the Publisher
So Rolando wasn’t on a breakfast date. He was with a man who’s dying today—who may be dead already.
“Why did you meet with him?”
And so Rolando tells Gloria about his long phone call with the man named Clint, and how he came to find himself having breakfast with him on his End Day. “I don’t want you waiting around for your life, Gloria. And more important, I don’t want you waiting around for your death. It might not be my business, but I don’t want to regret not saying anything if . . . if Frankie loses control.”
As if the worst parts of her life flash by, Gloria shudders.
“I’m sorry to bring this up,” Rolando says. “But not as sorry as I’ll be if I lose you.”
“I appreciate the concern. It’s just more complicated than you think.”
“I think it’s the opposite. It’s simpler than you think. You shouldn’t be with someone who might be your cause of death. Not when you have so much to live for.”
Gloria turns to Pazito, but she understands she should be pulling out a mirror instead.
She reminds herself that she’s important, that she matters, that she deserves a better life.
“I’m scared,” Gloria finally admits.
“I understand. Frankie is terrifying.”
“No, it’s more than that . . . I’m scared of starting over.”
Gloria looks at the park, finding her son going down a slide. He’s one of many kids who will grow up and expect for life to be smooth sailing. But Gloria’s journey has been rocky, and she’s sure that peace will be on the horizon if she throws her husband overboard. But it’s not that simple. Frankie will weigh her down like an anvil, keeping peace out of reach.
“Starting over is scary,” Rolando says. “But that’s the only way forward.”
“It’s the only way forward,” Gloria repeats with tears in her eyes.
“For me, starting over means not waiting for my End Day to admit that I’m still in love with you, Gloria. Always have been, always will be.”
Gloria sucks in a breath, as if she’s had the most amazing kiss in her life. But Rolando has not touched her. Not physically, at least. They remain seated apart and staring at one another, the sounds of children living in the background, and Gloria’s heartbeat pounding in her ears. Rolando does love her—always has, always will. Gloria believes those words with a fierceness that she never felt for Frankie’s vows. The man she should’ve married was the one standing behind her husband at the wedding.
“I’m not expecting you to divorce your husband for me,” Rolando says. “But I hope you’ll divorce him for yourself.”
Before Gloria can decide if she wants to restart her life with Rolando, she must choose to end this one with Frankie.