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Chapters (128)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Dedication
  4. PART ONE
  5. Orion Pagan
  6. Valentino Prince
  7. Orion
  8. Valentino
  9. Orion
  10. Valentino
  11. Orion
  12. Valentino
  13. Orion
  14. PART TWO
  15. Joaquin Rosa
  16. Orion
  17. Valentino
  18. Orion
  19. Joaquin Rosa
  20. Valentino
  21. Joaquin Rosa
  22. Valentino
  23. Orion
  24. Joaquin Rosa
  25. Rolando Rubio
  26. Andrea Donahue
  27. Valentino
  28. Orion
  29. Valentino
  30. Orion
  31. Valentino
  32. Orion
  33. Valentino
  34. Orion
  35. Valentino
  36. Joaquin Rosa
  37. PART THREE
  38. William Wilde
  39. Joaquin Rosa
  40. Valentino
  41. Orion
  42. Frankie Dario
  43. Valentino
  44. Frankie Dario
  45. Orion
  46. Valentino
  47. Scarlett Prince
  48. Captain Harry E. Pearson
  49. Scarlett Prince
  50. Orion
  51. Scarlett Prince
  52. Naya Rosa
  53. Joaquin Rosa
  54. Naya Rosa
  55. Frankie Dario
  56. Gloria Dario
  57. Naya Rosa
  58. Rolando Rubio
  59. Dalma Young
  60. Valentino
  61. Rolando Rubio
  62. Frankie Dario
  63. Valentino
  64. Scarlett Prince
  65. Valentino
  66. Orion
  67. Valentino
  68. Naya Rosa
  69. Valentino
  70. Férnan Emeterio
  71. Orion
  72. Rolando Rubio
  73. Valentino
  74. Captain Harry E. Pearson
  75. Orion
  76. Clint Suarez
  77. Gloria Dario
  78. Orion
  79. Scarlett Prince
  80. Valentino
  81. Gloria Dario
  82. Orion
  83. Valentino
  84. Joaquin Rosa
  85. Orion
  86. Joaquin Rosa
  87. Valentino
  88. Scarlett Prince
  89. Orion
  90. Valentino
  91. Gloria Dario
  92. Rufus Emeterio
  93. Mateo Torrez Jr.
  94. Orion
  95. Valentino
  96. Orion
  97. Valentino
  98. PART FOUR
  99. Orion
  100. Frankie Dario
  101. Valentino
  102. Orion
  103. Gloria Dario
  104. Valentino
  105. Frankie Dario
  106. Valentino
  107. Paz Dario
  108. Frankie Dario
  109. Dalma Young
  110. Orion
  111. Dalma Young
  112. Gloria Dario
  113. Orion
  114. PART FIVE
  115. Orion
  116. Dalma Young
  117. Scarlett Prince
  118. Gloria Dario
  119. Orion
  120. Dalma Young
  121. Orion
  122. Joaquin Rosa
  123. Orion
  124. Acknowledgments
  125. About the Author
  126. Books by Adam Silvera
  127. Back Ad
  128. About the Publisher

“Probably because I knew I wouldn’t get a word in!”

I zip up my lips and hand Valentino the make-believe key. He clenches it in his fist.

“Knowing my luck, I’ll probably lose it like my phone.” Valentino looks over his shoulder as if there’s a chance he’s going to find his iPhone on the ground just waiting for him. “I didn’t say hi because I didn’t know that was a thing that people actually do. But I’m really glad you did what I didn’t have the heart to do.”

I want to snatch the key out of his hand so I could ask him if the pun was intended, or to rag on how he definitely doesn’t want my busted heart, but Valentino unlocks my lips with his own.

“Just so you know, I legit never walk up on cute guys. I was really trying to live it up.”

“Thank God you— I’m really thankful you made that first move, Orion.”

“Thanks for not scarring me with some huge-ass rejection, Valentino.”

He doesn’t take his eyes off me, like I’m the most interesting part about this city.

I grab the camera out of the hoodie’s pocket and point at the bottom corner of the bench. “Go sit. I want to take a picture of the spot where I first met you.”

“I’m not taking that alone. We’re in that together.”

Valentino and I sit on the bench, and I extend my arm, hoping to get the right picture. I’m about to snap one no matter how shitty it is when someone taps my shoulder. It’s an older Latino man sitting beside a young curly-haired kid in glasses; I’m guessing father and son but definitely family.

“Would you like some help?” the man asks.

“Oh, uh, sure. You don’t mind?”

“Not at all.”

We step aside so the man and the kid can get down easily.

The kid seems a little jumpy, like he’s about to hide behind the man. I’m guessing he’s like nine or ten.

“It’s okay, Mateo,” the man says.

I give him the camera, though I feel bad about scaring this Mateo kid, who keeps looking around. I get this heartbreaking feeling that maybe it’s Mateo’s End Day and he’s terrified of dying but he really wanted to people-watch in Times Square before he does. Valentino snaps me out of it when he turns my gaze to him, our eyes locked. The man counts us down from three and instead of smiling for the camera, Valentino leans in and kisses me. It means everything that I’ll have this moment immortalized, and when we pull apart, Valentino is smiling with his eyes closed, as if he’s burning this moment into his memory, as if he’s not going to be able to look over the pictures with me.