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  1. Gillian McAllister
  2. Contents
  3. About the Author
  4. Prologue
  5. 1.
  6. Cathy
  7. 2.
  8. Joe
  9. 3.
  10. Cathy
  11. 4.
  12. Now
  13. 5.
  14. Then
  15. 6.
  16. Joe
  17. Part I
  18. 7.
  19. Joe
  20. 8.
  21. Now
  22. 9.
  23. Then
  24. 10.
  25. Lydia
  26. 11.
  27. Joe
  28. 12.
  29. Cathy
  30. 13.
  31. Now
  32. 14.
  33. Then
  34. 15.
  35. Cathy
  36. Part II
  37. 16.
  38. Joe
  39. 17.
  40. Now
  41. 18.
  42. Then
  43. 19.
  44. Joe
  45. 20.
  46. Joe
  47. 21.
  48. Now
  49. Part III
  50. 22.
  51. Then
  52. 23.
  53. Cathy
  54. 24.
  55. Joe
  56. 25.
  57. Joe
  58. 26.
  59. Now
  60. 27.
  61. Then
  62. 28.
  63. Lydia
  64. 29.
  65. Joe
  66. 30.
  67. Cathy
  68. 31.
  69. Lydia
  70. 32.
  71. Cathy
  72. 33.
  73. Joe
  74. 34.
  75. Cathy
  76. 35.
  77. Now
  78. 36.
  79. Then
  80. 37.
  81. Joe
  82. 38.
  83. Now
  84. 39.
  85. Then
  86. 40.
  87. Joe
  88. 41.
  89. Now
  90. 42.
  91. Then
  92. 43.
  93. Joe
  94. 44.
  95. Cathy
  96. 45.
  97. Lydia
  98. 46.
  99. Joe
  100. 47.
  101. Cathy
  102. 48.
  103. Now
  104. 49.
  105. Then
  106. Part IV
  107. 50.
  108. Joe
  109. 51.
  110. Cathy
  111. 52.
  112. Now
  113. 53.
  114. Then
  115. Part V
  116. 54.
  117. Joe
  118. 55.
  119. Cathy
  120. Part VI
  121. 56.
  122. Joe
  123. 57.
  124. Cathy
  125. 58.
  126. Now
  127. 59.
  128. Then
  129. 60.
  130. Joe
  131. 61.
  132. Cathy
  133. 62.
  134. Cathy
  135. 63.
  136. Joe
  137. 64.
  138. Cathy
  139. 65.
  140. Joe
  141. 66.
  142. Lydia
  143. 67.
  144. Joe
  145. Part VII
  146. 68.
  147. Joe
  148. 69.
  149. Now
  150. 70.
  151. Then
  152. 71.
  153. Cathy
  154. 72.
  155. Now
  156. 73.
  157. Then
  158. 74.
  159. Now
  160. Epilogue
  161. Acknowledgements
  162. Read more
  163. Read more
  164. Prologue
  165. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING
  166. Table of Contents

‘Oh, there’s no need to be like that.’

‘Like what?’

‘Difficult.’

‘I’m not being difficult. You seem to be being so … finding it so … easy.’

‘What?’ Frannie says, turning to Cathy in surprise. She frowns, obviously confused.

‘Nothing,’ Cathy says, already feeling guilt – an effect only the baby of their family can have on her. She was lashing out because she felt isolated from them, she tells herself.

‘No, what?’ Frannie says.

Cathy thinks of the lawyer’s details, and of the warrant, and of Will’s blood, and how much of it there was, and finds she doesn’t quite know where to start. ‘I just wondered how you really are, underneath everything,’ Cathy says.

‘I’m really fine,’ Frannie says shortly.

‘I mean – exactly.’

‘What?’

Cathy says nothing. Frannie’s eyes widen as she looks at her. ‘Oh, I’m too fine, am I? Classic you.’

‘Classic me?’

‘Draconian self-punishment.’

‘Jesus, Fran. I was only concerned,’ Cathy says, but it’s a lie. She wasn’t concerned; she was suspicious. Frannie does seem too fine. Shopping in duty free and – right now – wearing a pair of feather earrings she must have put on that morning. Cathy can’t imagine doing such a thing. She is barely getting through the days.

Frannie stands and gets some potatoes out of a drawer and throws one at Cathy. ‘Peel this and stop being moody,’ she says. ‘Ready?’

Cathy catches the second and third potatoes while Paul shrieks with laughter, trying to do as she is told, but still thinking. She could ask about the lawyer. Frannie is already pissed off. Cathy may as well seize upon it.

She sits, looking out over the garden, a bowl between her knees, and curls the peeler around the wet, fleshy texture, thinking. Wanting to ask a million things. How often she and Joe discuss her. If they trust her. Wanting to ask if Frannie is sorry. If she is thankful, for what they did. For what they have done for her. Or if, perhaps, she doesn’t think about it. Cathy glances across the kitchen at her sister as she chops a carrot. Is she as straightforward as she makes out? Or is the directness actually cover, a deflection, like somebody who pretends to be direct but is actually a ball of neuroses, like Cathy herself?

‘What I mean,’ Cathy says, while peeling the potatoes, ‘is just …’

Frannie’s expression has hardened. She waits, silently, for Cathy to finish, like a police officer with the upper hand. ‘Just what?’ she says eventually.

‘I saw your phone in Verona. I know I shouldn’t have looked. But I saw that lawyer contact you back.’

Frannie’s eyebrows rise. ‘Right,’ she says archly.

‘Don’t be mad.’

Frannie sighs and leans against the kitchen worktop. ‘To be honest, I thought it would be sensible to have a lawyer on hand – for all of us. In the current climate. If anyone is searching my phone and finds his details, then it’s likely too late anyway …’ A sad laugh escapes through her straight, white teeth. And in that moment Cathy believes her. That laugh is vintage Frannie.