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  1. Gillian McAllister
  2. Contents
  3. About the Author
  4. Prologue
  5. 1.
  6. Cathy
  7. 2.
  8. Joe
  9. 3.
  10. Cathy
  11. 4.
  12. Now
  13. 5.
  14. Then
  15. 6.
  16. Joe
  17. Part I
  18. 7.
  19. Joe
  20. 8.
  21. Now
  22. 9.
  23. Then
  24. 10.
  25. Lydia
  26. 11.
  27. Joe
  28. 12.
  29. Cathy
  30. 13.
  31. Now
  32. 14.
  33. Then
  34. 15.
  35. Cathy
  36. Part II
  37. 16.
  38. Joe
  39. 17.
  40. Now
  41. 18.
  42. Then
  43. 19.
  44. Joe
  45. 20.
  46. Joe
  47. 21.
  48. Now
  49. Part III
  50. 22.
  51. Then
  52. 23.
  53. Cathy
  54. 24.
  55. Joe
  56. 25.
  57. Joe
  58. 26.
  59. Now
  60. 27.
  61. Then
  62. 28.
  63. Lydia
  64. 29.
  65. Joe
  66. 30.
  67. Cathy
  68. 31.
  69. Lydia
  70. 32.
  71. Cathy
  72. 33.
  73. Joe
  74. 34.
  75. Cathy
  76. 35.
  77. Now
  78. 36.
  79. Then
  80. 37.
  81. Joe
  82. 38.
  83. Now
  84. 39.
  85. Then
  86. 40.
  87. Joe
  88. 41.
  89. Now
  90. 42.
  91. Then
  92. 43.
  93. Joe
  94. 44.
  95. Cathy
  96. 45.
  97. Lydia
  98. 46.
  99. Joe
  100. 47.
  101. Cathy
  102. 48.
  103. Now
  104. 49.
  105. Then
  106. Part IV
  107. 50.
  108. Joe
  109. 51.
  110. Cathy
  111. 52.
  112. Now
  113. 53.
  114. Then
  115. Part V
  116. 54.
  117. Joe
  118. 55.
  119. Cathy
  120. Part VI
  121. 56.
  122. Joe
  123. 57.
  124. Cathy
  125. 58.
  126. Now
  127. 59.
  128. Then
  129. 60.
  130. Joe
  131. 61.
  132. Cathy
  133. 62.
  134. Cathy
  135. 63.
  136. Joe
  137. 64.
  138. Cathy
  139. 65.
  140. Joe
  141. 66.
  142. Lydia
  143. 67.
  144. Joe
  145. Part VII
  146. 68.
  147. Joe
  148. 69.
  149. Now
  150. 70.
  151. Then
  152. 71.
  153. Cathy
  154. 72.
  155. Now
  156. 73.
  157. Then
  158. 74.
  159. Now
  160. Epilogue
  161. Acknowledgements
  162. Read more
  163. Read more
  164. Prologue
  165. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING
  166. Table of Contents

‘Partnership.’

‘For nothing, I assume,’ Cathy says. ‘One fifth of the business, in exchange for nothing.’

He hadn’t thought about that. God. So they’d be giving it away.

When will this end? When will the tendrils of it stop spreading like Frannie’s mint outside?

Something is simmering underneath every word he speaks, each breath he takes. The kind of thing that only reared its head occasionally in the past. When he was stuck in traffic and somebody pulled out in front of him. When he had five minutes to prep for a meeting and Windows started a mandatory update. Momentary rages, punches thrown. Little groans of frustration. Stroppy texts sent. This, though, is a dangerous kind of sadness, not anger, but it feels related. As though at any moment he might shout or cry, he isn’t sure which.

‘Call his bluff,’ Frannie says. She fiddles with the baby monitor in her hands, then stands and begins to clear up, like the conversation is over. Cathy looks at her curiously.

‘He’ll fucking shop us,’ Joe says. ‘He will. He will. He’ll tell Mum. He’ll tell the police.’

‘Okay,’ Cathy says, folding her hands in her lap. ‘Don’t panic.’

Joe stares at Frannie’s back as she tidies. Where’s his Frannie gone? Gentle, smiling Frannie who could always ease an atmosphere?

He tries to calm and slow his breathing. In and out. In and out. Come on. Pretend you’re operating. Pretend you’re doing something involved, and fiddly, and meditative. A simple bitch spay on a nice slim dog. The first cut, a straight, beautiful line that would heal easily. The parting of the skin, then fat, then organs. Something he could do with his eyes closed.

‘I think we should give it to him,’ Cathy says quietly. She looks at Joe, her eyes clear and glassy. ‘Don’t you?’

‘I mean – it’s the … it’s the family business,’ Joe says.

‘I don’t think we have a choice.’

‘It’s blackmail, isn’t it?’ he says. ‘Fuck him,’ he shouts. ‘Fuck everything.’ He’s so angry now. He’s so angry they spoke about it so openly, in the fucking reception. He’s so angry Evan has capitalized on it. Without any further ruminating, he reaches over and punches Frannie’s wall. A satisfying, fast strike that stings the skin across his knuckles. And then – release. His shoulders sag.

‘What the fuck are you doing?’ Cathy says sharply. A piece of previously neat plaster falls to the floor. They all stare at it in shock.

‘Grow up, Joe,’ Frannie says.

Cathy turns away from him, staring out of Frannie’s window and so too does Joe, looking at the endless rain, at the spreading weeds. The thing is, he thinks, staring at it, weeds don’t stop growing because you constrain one part of them. It’s too late, it’s too late. It’s out there now. He could cry about it, now that the anger has left him, looking at those little wet green leaves, spreading because it’s the only thing they know how to do. The natural thing. The thing they were always going to do. The inevitability of it.