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Contents ( 166)
  1. Gillian McAllister
  2. Contents
  3. About the Author
  4. Prologue
  5. 1.
  6. Cathy
  7. 2.
  8. Joe
  9. 3.
  10. Cathy
  11. 4.
  12. Now
  13. 5.
  14. Then
  15. 6.
  16. Joe
  17. Part I
  18. 7.
  19. Joe
  20. 8.
  21. Now
  22. 9.
  23. Then
  24. 10.
  25. Lydia
  26. 11.
  27. Joe
  28. 12.
  29. Cathy
  30. 13.
  31. Now
  32. 14.
  33. Then
  34. 15.
  35. Cathy
  36. Part II
  37. 16.
  38. Joe
  39. 17.
  40. Now
  41. 18.
  42. Then
  43. 19.
  44. Joe
  45. 20.
  46. Joe
  47. 21.
  48. Now
  49. Part III
  50. 22.
  51. Then
  52. 23.
  53. Cathy
  54. 24.
  55. Joe
  56. 25.
  57. Joe
  58. 26.
  59. Now
  60. 27.
  61. Then
  62. 28.
  63. Lydia
  64. 29.
  65. Joe
  66. 30.
  67. Cathy
  68. 31.
  69. Lydia
  70. 32.
  71. Cathy
  72. 33.
  73. Joe
  74. 34.
  75. Cathy
  76. 35.
  77. Now
  78. 36.
  79. Then
  80. 37.
  81. Joe
  82. 38.
  83. Now
  84. 39.
  85. Then
  86. 40.
  87. Joe
  88. 41.
  89. Now
  90. 42.
  91. Then
  92. 43.
  93. Joe
  94. 44.
  95. Cathy
  96. 45.
  97. Lydia
  98. 46.
  99. Joe
  100. 47.
  101. Cathy
  102. 48.
  103. Now
  104. 49.
  105. Then
  106. Part IV
  107. 50.
  108. Joe
  109. 51.
  110. Cathy
  111. 52.
  112. Now
  113. 53.
  114. Then
  115. Part V
  116. 54.
  117. Joe
  118. 55.
  119. Cathy
  120. Part VI
  121. 56.
  122. Joe
  123. 57.
  124. Cathy
  125. 58.
  126. Now
  127. 59.
  128. Then
  129. 60.
  130. Joe
  131. 61.
  132. Cathy
  133. 62.
  134. Cathy
  135. 63.
  136. Joe
  137. 64.
  138. Cathy
  139. 65.
  140. Joe
  141. 66.
  142. Lydia
  143. 67.
  144. Joe
  145. Part VII
  146. 68.
  147. Joe
  148. 69.
  149. Now
  150. 70.
  151. Then
  152. 71.
  153. Cathy
  154. 72.
  155. Now
  156. 73.
  157. Then
  158. 74.
  159. Now
  160. Epilogue
  161. Acknowledgements
  162. Read more
  163. Read more
  164. Prologue
  165. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING
  166. Table of Contents

Like a parent in a crisis, Cathy ushers them all out into the rain and into her cold car.

She turns on the old heater and drives them half a mile down the road in silence, then pulls over. She reaches up to turn on the interior light. Joe watches her movements, deliberate and slow. He can’t cope. He can’t cope. He’s panicking.

‘Shit,’ she says. She kills the engine. ‘What did she say, exactly?’

Joe repeats it, word for word, glad to be giving it to Cathy, this problem that weighs too heavily on his shoulders.

He looks at the back of Frannie’s neck from his position in the back seat. Her ears stick out more than they used to. His stomach rolls over in fear for her. He wishes she would eat. She didn’t touch any of the cheese and crackers tonight, had only water. Unlike him. He had about sixty crackers. A kilo of cheese.

‘How big are the woods?’ Frannie says to Cathy. Their faces are distorted by the overhead light, grotesque shadows forming from their noses.

‘I need to get out,’ Joe says. Cathy’s car has no rear-passenger doors, and he bangs impatiently on the back of her seat.

‘All right, all right,’ Cathy says, getting out and holding open the door for him. They stand there, by the side of the road, in the glow of the headlights, as they did a week ago.

‘A fucking development,’ he says hoarsely to her.

‘It might not be where we – where we … put him.’

‘Of course it will,’ he says. He leans his hands on the top of the car. He’s going to be sick. It’s a panic attack. ‘Of course it will. This is – this is … fate.’

‘You need to calm down,’ Cathy says.

‘It’s better this way,’ Frannie says faintly. They’re in the complete darkness of the countryside, standing on the road on which they used to walk home from school. The same sibling dynamics at play but in a different situation, an unimaginable situation.

‘There is nothing we can do,’ Cathy says. ‘We just need to sit tight.’ She gets out her phone and types something. ‘Look,’ she says, showing them a website. ‘It can take ages from planning application to first build.’

Joe takes the phone from her and reads the article. ‘Or not much time at all,’ he says. ‘It says here it varies.’ He wants to throw the phone on the soil, suddenly. That fucking man from the market. Frannie’s fucking late-night trip for wine. How did they end up here?

‘It’s not bureaucratic,’ Joe says. ‘Not like here.’

‘It will still take time,’ Cathy says.

‘But then what?’

‘I don’t know.’

‘We need to go back over there and move it.’

Cathy scoffs. ‘I think that is the worst idea you’ve ever come up with.’

They stand in silence for a few minutes.

‘Do you dream about him?’ Frannie asks.

‘Yeah, I dream about him,’ Cathy says quietly.