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Chapters (140)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. PROLOGUE
  4. The Baby
  5. Stan Davidson
  6. PART ONE
  7. Friday, 16 July 2021
  8. Alice
  9. Tom
  10. Ambleside, July 2013
  11. Monday, 19 July 2021
  12. Tom
  13. Alice
  14. Wednesday, 21 July 2021
  15. Tom
  16. Alice
  17. Summer, 2012
  18. Wednesday, 21 July 2021
  19. The Baby
  20. Ambleside, July 2013
  21. Thursday, 22 July 2021
  22. Tom
  23. Alice
  24. Tom
  25. Alice
  26. Tom
  27. Alice
  28. Tom
  29. Alice
  30. PART TWO
  31. The Baby
  32. Carrie Sanchez
  33. Sunday, 15 August 2021
  34. Tuesday, 17 August 2021
  35. Alice
  36. Tom
  37. Alice
  38. Tom
  39. Ambleside, 2013
  40. Wednesday, 18 August 2021
  41. Tom
  42. The Baby
  43. Alice
  44. Tom
  45. Summer, 2012
  46. Wednesday, 18 August 2021
  47. Mike Andrew
  48. Thursday, 19 August 2021
  49. DI Wynne
  50. Tom
  51. Alice
  52. ‘CRUCIFIX’ KILLER STRIKES: VICTIM ESCAPES
  53. Friday, 20 August 2021
  54. DI Wynne
  55. Tom
  56. Ambleside, July 2013
  57. Friday, 20 August 2021
  58. Tom
  59. Alice
  60. Tom
  61. Saturday, 21 August 2021
  62. Tom
  63. Alice
  64. DI Wynne
  65. Tom
  66. Ambleside, July 2013
  67. Tuesday, 24 August 2021
  68. Janice Kettering
  69. Tom
  70. Alice
  71. DI Wynne
  72. Tom
  73. Alice
  74. Thursday, 26 August 2021
  75. Tom
  76. Ambleside, July 2013
  77. Friday, 27 August 2021
  78. Alice
  79. Tom
  80. Saturday, 28 August 2021
  81. Alice
  82. Tom
  83. Wast Water, July 2013
  84. Brenda
  85. PART THREE
  86. Saturday, 28 August 2021
  87. Alice
  88. DI Wynne
  89. Ambleside, July 2013
  90. Sunday, 29 August 2021
  91. Nottingham, July 2013
  92. Sunday, 29 August 2021
  93. Alice
  94. Tom
  95. Alice
  96. Nottingham, July 2013
  97. Sunday, 29 August 2021
  98. Nottingham, July 2013
  99. Sunday, 29 August 2021
  100. Alice
  101. Roland
  102. DI Wynne
  103. Nadia
  104. Stockton Heath, September 2013
  105. Sunday, 29 August 2021
  106. Nadia
  107. Stockton Heath, December 2013
  108. Sunday, 29 August 2021
  109. Tom
  110. Perth, Australia, May 2013
  111. Stockton Heath, 28 December 2013
  112. Sunday, 29 August 2021
  113. Nadia
  114. Alice
  115. Roland
  116. Alice
  117. Roland
  118. Alice
  119. Roland
  120. Alice
  121. Roland
  122. Alice
  123. Roland
  124. Alice
  125. Roland
  126. Alice
  127. Roland
  128. DI Wynne
  129. Tom
  130. Roland
  131. DI Wynne
  132. Monday, 30 August 2021
  133. DI Wynne
  134. EPILOGUE
  135. Barrow, Maine, USA, October 2021
  136. Keep Reading …
  137. Acknowledgements
  138. About the Author
  139. Also by Alex Lake
  140. About the Publisher

‘With me? Nothing. But with you? Everything.’ She drew out the last word. ‘I mean, you tried to drown Jo in the bath—’

‘That was an accident!’

‘So you say. But that’s not what the world thinks. That’s where I got the idea, by the way, of how to get rid of you both – by drowning.’

He shook his head. ‘What do you mean, both?’

‘Did I forget to mention that? In your agony, you’re going to take your daughter with you. A beautiful – but tragic – final daddy-daughter moment.’

‘No,’ he said. ‘Please, no. Don’t hurt her, Alice. She’s your child!’

She laughed. ‘My child? I don’t have children, Tom. I can’t have them.’

‘You did! You gave birth to her.’

‘I can give birth to them, but I don’t have children. When I look at her I feel nothing. She’s the same as any other person. Nothing. And that’s the problem. I’m tethered to her for ever. And I can’t do that, Tom. You can’t expect me to do that. She’s ruining my life. So she has to go.’

He looked at his wife and he saw nothing that he recognized. Her eyes were empty pools. This was impossible to believe.

But it was happening. That was the one fact he had to cling to. This was happening, and he somehow had to stop it.

‘You’re insane,’ he said. ‘You’re totally insane.’

‘You would call me that. But it’s you – and all the rest of you – who are insane. You have this gift of a life and you choose to waste it on a fucking baby?’ She laughed again. ‘It’s not me who’s lost their mind. The funny thing is, I would have stayed with you. I would have let you live. You’re harmless, a nonentity. You’re a useful disguise. But once she arrived I had to get rid of her, and the only way I could was by having it be you who did it. Under pressure, you lost your mind. The evidence was all there – I should have seen it.’

‘A disguise? We’re married.’

She laughed. ‘You’re weak, Tom, and stupid, but I could live with that. Not the baby, though.’

‘So you hated our daughter all along? Is that what you’re saying? There’s nothing about her you like?’

‘There was one benefit,’ she said. ‘I had an excuse to be out at night in the car. And when I was, I’d see these people walking, all alone, and it reminded me of someone I used to be, and what she used to do.’

As he listened, her words – and their meaning – started to sink in.

‘It’s you, isn’t it? You’re the Crucifix Killer.’

She nodded and smiled.

‘What about the letters?’