“Back in 1982, I was a freshman in college and I read an article in Club magazine titled the “Kalmann Diaries”. It was a story about a masochistic man that was tortured and dominated by a wealthy sadistic woman. This story contained some very intense and vivid details about how this woman whipped and abused this man. She had a sound proof room where most of this took place. When I read this story, something went off on the inside of me and from that moment, I became obsessed with female domination and sadistic women.

The thing that I found the most bizarre yet exciting in the Kalmann Diaries was how this woman trained this man to be her human toilet. She called it Immense Body Service (IBS) or something like that. The description was so disturbing and yet so sensual and exciting. This woman would always relieve herself in this man’s mouth each night before she went to bed and then she would beat his balls. Like I said, she was very sadistic and this excited me to no end.

My life took a most unusual turn from that day. I was studying to be a computer programmer in college but I never finished getting my degree.

I became so obsessed with female domination and the subject of sadistic women that my schoolwork and my social life suffered. I purchased every magazine and book on the subject that I could find. I was use to buying an occasional Penthouse or Club magazine for around 3 dollars a piece but now I was buying 8 and 9 dollar fetish and female domination magazines by the score. I bought videos and 8mm movies and I roamed from adult bookstores to old paperback exchange bookstores looking for any kind of books about sadistic women dominating men. The more I read, the more my appetite grew for female domination. I spent days upon days and weeks upon weeks fantasizing about being a masochistic male to a sadistic woman.

I went through my entire savings that my father had given me for my education. Once I was broke, I wrote some computer software and sold them for income. I worked as little as possible to live and to finance my obsessive habit of indulging in female domination. Most of my time was spent searching for literature about female domination and seeking out the sadistic woman of my dreams.