Back A Double Life
Chapters (93)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Chapter 44
  49. Chapter 45
  50. Chapter 46
  51. Chapter 47
  52. Chapter 48
  53. Chapter 49
  54. Chapter 50
  55. Chapter 51
  56. Chapter 52
  57. Chapter 53
  58. Chapter 54
  59. Chapter 55
  60. Chapter 56
  61. Chapter 57
  62. Chapter 58
  63. Chapter 59
  64. Chapter 60
  65. Chapter 61
  66. Chapter 62
  67. Chapter 63
  68. Chapter 64
  69. Chapter 65
  70. Chapter 66
  71. Chapter 67
  72. Chapter 68
  73. Chapter 69
  74. Chapter 70
  75. Chapter 71
  76. Chapter 72
  77. Chapter 73
  78. Chapter 74
  79. Chapter 75
  80. Chapter 76
  81. Chapter 77
  82. Chapter 78
  83. Chapter 79
  84. Chapter 80
  85. Chapter 81
  86. Chapter 82
  87. Chapter 83
  88. Chapter 84
  89. Chapter 85
  90. Acknowledgements
  91. About the Author
  92. Also by Charlotte Philby
  93. About the Publisher

For the rest of the day Si and I avoid eye contact. At just after 5 p.m., he gets up and shuffles some papers before swinging on his coat.

Addressing Ben, though it is clearly for my benefit, he says, ‘I’m off now. Won’t be in tomorrow, I’m in court all day. I’ll let you know how it goes.’

Ben grunts without looking up, ‘Don’t let us keep you.’

I watch him cross the room from the corner of my eye.

‘Lovers’ tiff?’ Ben asks as the door slams shut.

My fingers tense over the keyboard. ‘Fuck off.’

Scraping back my chair, I pick up the packet of cigarettes.

At the other end of the office from where we sit is a cheap latex boxroom within which is the Editor’s office, his desk crammed in with a wood-effect table and a filing cabinet. Just past his office is an external door leading onto a metal fire escape covered in black peeling paint.

Outside, I smoke two cigarettes in a row at the top of the stairs, looking out over the garden, which consists of a few bald flower beds and a series of badly laid slabs of stone shaded by ancient oak and cedar trees.

In the basement Giovanni, the Art Director, is shouting at the work experience girl. For a moment I remember how, when I first started working here, I’d been quietly impressed by the ‘art department’ with its dark room and photo studio. Now it just looks like a dank cellar with strip lighting and a few rusting Bisleys.

Breathing deeply through my nose, the cigarette smoke pirouetting up my arm, I lean back against the wall, listening to the music drift across the gardens from an open window somewhere in the distance.

By 7 p.m., all but Elaine, who is sorting through paperwork at her desk in reception, have headed home or more likely to the pub. Minutes later, she pokes her head around the door. ‘I’m going home now. Don’t forget to lock up, will you?’

Once alone, I sit back at my desk. Through the slats in the blinds I see the light outside is fading, Camden Town enveloped in a haze of pinks and pale blues as dusk settles.

Working in silence, I stay another couple of hours until the room grows cold, finishing off a piece I’ve been working on, trying to put a positive spin on a knife amnesty which has produced a total of about three weapons over the course of a month.

Swigging at a warm can of gin and tonic, I type my final words. Just as I am pressing Shut down on my computer, the phone on my desk rings.

My fingers hesitate as they reach the receiver, before snatching it and drawing it to my ear.

‘Isobel? Thank God.’ The voice is Giovanni’s, behind him the telltale roar of the pub.