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Chapters (93)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Chapter 44
  49. Chapter 45
  50. Chapter 46
  51. Chapter 47
  52. Chapter 48
  53. Chapter 49
  54. Chapter 50
  55. Chapter 51
  56. Chapter 52
  57. Chapter 53
  58. Chapter 54
  59. Chapter 55
  60. Chapter 56
  61. Chapter 57
  62. Chapter 58
  63. Chapter 59
  64. Chapter 60
  65. Chapter 61
  66. Chapter 62
  67. Chapter 63
  68. Chapter 64
  69. Chapter 65
  70. Chapter 66
  71. Chapter 67
  72. Chapter 68
  73. Chapter 69
  74. Chapter 70
  75. Chapter 71
  76. Chapter 72
  77. Chapter 73
  78. Chapter 74
  79. Chapter 75
  80. Chapter 76
  81. Chapter 77
  82. Chapter 78
  83. Chapter 79
  84. Chapter 80
  85. Chapter 81
  86. Chapter 82
  87. Chapter 83
  88. Chapter 84
  89. Chapter 85
  90. Acknowledgements
  91. About the Author
  92. Also by Charlotte Philby
  93. About the Publisher

At four months pregnant, the sickness had finally subsided and with it the fatigue that had taken hold in those early weeks. The pallid colour of her cheeks, which colleagues had joked was the result of her time spent in Russia, gorging on dumplings and vodka in a serotonin-deprived purgatory, had lifted in the second trimester so that she felt brighter than she had in a long time as she sashayed through the doors at KCS.

Tom had been brought on to a project in Shoreditch a couple of weeks earlier, which could last until just before Gabriela was due to give birth. They had spent the previous evenings ironing out the details: she would stay at work until a week before her due date, and then take a few months off before returning to her job full-time, when Tom would step in as the primary carer.

She had felt a rush of confidence about her plan to inform the office of her pregnancy that morning as she headed off towards the tube station, Tom squeezing her arm lightly as he saw her off with the words, ‘You’ve got nothing to worry about.’

‘Morning, Lauren,’ she greeted Emsworth’s secretary as she approached her desk, her eyes surreptitiously casting around for signs of her boss in his office.

‘Good morning.’ Lauren smiled, looking up from her computer screen.

‘Is he in?’

‘Not yet. He’s in meetings all morning, let me check … OK, he has a lunch later but it looks like he’ll be back by three …’

She managed a smile, pushing down her disappointment at being made to wait. Already the buoyancy she’d felt on her way in, her belief that everything would turn out well, that all she needed to do was to be upfront and give plenty of notice as to her situation, had started to wane. As if attuned to impending disaster, the minute hand crept ever more slowly around the clock over the course of the morning, towards the end of days.

‘Gabriela, Lauren tells me you wanted to see me?’

It was quarter to four by the time Emsworth arrived at her desk, his eyes shining with drink.

Glancing around the open-plan room, noticing the heads pretending not to be listening, she stood. ‘Do you mind if we speak somewhere more private?’

Emsworth paused before holding out a hand in the direction of his office.

‘I’ve just been having lunch with a few colleagues, one of whom you met in Moscow – Peter Bradford, you remember him? He was very impressed, speaks highly of you … Do take a seat,’ he said, holding the door open for her.

‘Yes, of course,’ she said, picturing Bradford’s face at one of the long dinners held by the embassy, his hand holding onto hers a moment too long as they were introduced. He and Emsworth were clearly cut from the same cloth.

‘It sounds like you settled in extremely well over there …’