Chapters (93)
- Cover
- Dedication
- Epigraph
- Prologue
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- Chapter 9
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Chapter 13
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- Chapter 27
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- Chapter 35
- Chapter 36
- Chapter 37
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- Chapter 51
- Chapter 52
- Chapter 53
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Chapter 56
- Chapter 57
- Chapter 58
- Chapter 59
- Chapter 60
- Chapter 61
- Chapter 62
- Chapter 63
- Chapter 64
- Chapter 65
- Chapter 66
- Chapter 67
- Chapter 68
- Chapter 69
- Chapter 70
- Chapter 71
- Chapter 72
- Chapter 73
- Chapter 74
- Chapter 75
- Chapter 76
- Chapter 77
- Chapter 78
- Chapter 79
- Chapter 80
- Chapter 81
- Chapter 82
- Chapter 83
- Chapter 84
- Chapter 85
- Acknowledgements
- About the Author
- Also by Charlotte Philby
- About the Publisher
At four months pregnant, the sickness had finally subsided and with it the fatigue that had taken hold in those early weeks. The pallid colour of her cheeks, which colleagues had joked was the result of her time spent in Russia, gorging on dumplings and vodka in a serotonin-deprived purgatory, had lifted in the second trimester so that she felt brighter than she had in a long time as she sashayed through the doors at KCS.
Tom had been brought on to a project in Shoreditch a couple of weeks earlier, which could last until just before Gabriela was due to give birth. They had spent the previous evenings ironing out the details: she would stay at work until a week before her due date, and then take a few months off before returning to her job full-time, when Tom would step in as the primary carer.
She had felt a rush of confidence about her plan to inform the office of her pregnancy that morning as she headed off towards the tube station, Tom squeezing her arm lightly as he saw her off with the words, ‘You’ve got nothing to worry about.’
‘Morning, Lauren,’ she greeted Emsworth’s secretary as she approached her desk, her eyes surreptitiously casting around for signs of her boss in his office.
‘Good morning.’ Lauren smiled, looking up from her computer screen.
‘Is he in?’
‘Not yet. He’s in meetings all morning, let me check … OK, he has a lunch later but it looks like he’ll be back by three …’
She managed a smile, pushing down her disappointment at being made to wait. Already the buoyancy she’d felt on her way in, her belief that everything would turn out well, that all she needed to do was to be upfront and give plenty of notice as to her situation, had started to wane. As if attuned to impending disaster, the minute hand crept ever more slowly around the clock over the course of the morning, towards the end of days.
‘Gabriela, Lauren tells me you wanted to see me?’
It was quarter to four by the time Emsworth arrived at her desk, his eyes shining with drink.
Glancing around the open-plan room, noticing the heads pretending not to be listening, she stood. ‘Do you mind if we speak somewhere more private?’
Emsworth paused before holding out a hand in the direction of his office.
‘I’ve just been having lunch with a few colleagues, one of whom you met in Moscow – Peter Bradford, you remember him? He was very impressed, speaks highly of you … Do take a seat,’ he said, holding the door open for her.
‘Yes, of course,’ she said, picturing Bradford’s face at one of the long dinners held by the embassy, his hand holding onto hers a moment too long as they were introduced. He and Emsworth were clearly cut from the same cloth.
‘It sounds like you settled in extremely well over there …’