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Chapters (93)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Chapter 44
  49. Chapter 45
  50. Chapter 46
  51. Chapter 47
  52. Chapter 48
  53. Chapter 49
  54. Chapter 50
  55. Chapter 51
  56. Chapter 52
  57. Chapter 53
  58. Chapter 54
  59. Chapter 55
  60. Chapter 56
  61. Chapter 57
  62. Chapter 58
  63. Chapter 59
  64. Chapter 60
  65. Chapter 61
  66. Chapter 62
  67. Chapter 63
  68. Chapter 64
  69. Chapter 65
  70. Chapter 66
  71. Chapter 67
  72. Chapter 68
  73. Chapter 69
  74. Chapter 70
  75. Chapter 71
  76. Chapter 72
  77. Chapter 73
  78. Chapter 74
  79. Chapter 75
  80. Chapter 76
  81. Chapter 77
  82. Chapter 78
  83. Chapter 79
  84. Chapter 80
  85. Chapter 81
  86. Chapter 82
  87. Chapter 83
  88. Chapter 84
  89. Chapter 85
  90. Acknowledgements
  91. About the Author
  92. Also by Charlotte Philby
  93. About the Publisher

When Tom talks again, it’s like he’s working through a thought process aloud. There is an edge of triumph in his voice, as though he’s made a brilliant discovery. ‘You know, actually I don’t think you are mad. I don’t. I think, in fact I would say I’m a 100 per cent certain, that it’s so much simpler than that. You’re completely selfish. That’s it. And actually, I can’t really blame you because the truth is you’ve always been like that. Ever since I’ve known you it’s just been about you. About what you want, what you need. At every single step, even after the kids … And I, I went along with it. I mean, did you even ask Saoirse about what happened with Jim?’

He reads her face like a book.

‘Course you didn’t. He’s left her. It happened months ago but, well, you’ve had other things on your mind. Obviously …’

She feels the sea air slapping her face and for a moment she fears she will drop Layla, that all the strength in her body has vanished. But then, presumably feeling herself slip, Layla pulls at her shoulder and she feels her body righting itself.

‘Now,’ he says, clarity coming to him in stages. ‘You and that baby need to go. You can write, when you work out where you’ll be. With the father, I presume? Are you in touch? Actually, spare me the details.’

For once in his life attempting to take charge. For a moment she nearly claps. How long has it taken to get to the point where he is actually attempting to assert some control? And then his words sink in.

‘Me?’ she says. ‘You’re asking me to go? Tom, come now, it’s my house.’

He looks at her with such astonishment that she looks away. ‘You’re telling me you want to leave and you want to turf your children out of their home? Classy, Gabriela.’

‘That’s not what I’m saying, Tom. We can all go, together … You’re the one saying it’s over. Besides, you can’t go back there – it’s not safe.’

For a moment he is frozen in disbelief, speechless, and then his face collapses.

‘Not safe? What the fuck are you even talking about? You’re a piece of work, you know that? Do you know how much I loved you?’ Hot tears are falling from his eyes now, his nostrils flared with a rage she has never seen him express before.

‘They’re my children, Tom. You can’t really think I would walk away from them?’

He looks up to the sky and howls with laughter, as she says, ‘I’m their mother!’

‘Oh,’ he sniffs. ‘Now you’re their mother?’