Back A Double Life
Chapters (93)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Chapter 44
  49. Chapter 45
  50. Chapter 46
  51. Chapter 47
  52. Chapter 48
  53. Chapter 49
  54. Chapter 50
  55. Chapter 51
  56. Chapter 52
  57. Chapter 53
  58. Chapter 54
  59. Chapter 55
  60. Chapter 56
  61. Chapter 57
  62. Chapter 58
  63. Chapter 59
  64. Chapter 60
  65. Chapter 61
  66. Chapter 62
  67. Chapter 63
  68. Chapter 64
  69. Chapter 65
  70. Chapter 66
  71. Chapter 67
  72. Chapter 68
  73. Chapter 69
  74. Chapter 70
  75. Chapter 71
  76. Chapter 72
  77. Chapter 73
  78. Chapter 74
  79. Chapter 75
  80. Chapter 76
  81. Chapter 77
  82. Chapter 78
  83. Chapter 79
  84. Chapter 80
  85. Chapter 81
  86. Chapter 82
  87. Chapter 83
  88. Chapter 84
  89. Chapter 85
  90. Acknowledgements
  91. About the Author
  92. Also by Charlotte Philby
  93. About the Publisher

Closing her eyes, Gabriela drew in the silence on the other side of the door before Ivan spoke again. It was then that she realised she was shaking with cold. Standing, she took a towel from the heated rail on the wall and wrapped it around herself.

‘Gabriela, I’m worried, are you OK?’

‘I’m fine,’ she managed, her voice disconnected from her body. ‘I feel feverish, I think it’s just a cold. I’m going to get dressed and have a lie-down.’

There was a hesitation and then he said, ‘All right, well, I’m going to take Layla down to the crèche. You don’t want lunch?’

‘You go. I’ll have something later.’

She imagined him straightening himself and winking a reassurance to their daughter.

‘No problem. Sleep well.’

When she woke later, Ivan still wasn’t back. Sliding open the windows, she looked out over Harvey Nichols and the Lamborghinis and Brazilian blow-dries that typified this corner of Knightsbridge: just a couple of miles from the part of the city in which she had grown up, but another world entirely.

Feeling in need of a change of scene, she walked down to the spa, moving gingerly at first, checking that there was no one there who might recognise her, however unlikely it seemed in a place that cost this much per night.

Leaving her clothes in the locker room and moving through to the spa area, she peeled off her robe and opened the door to one of the steam rooms where she was hit by the smell of eucalyptus, so strong it filled her throat, seizing her chest so that her breath became slow and heavy.

Leaning back against the tiles, the heat making her flinch, she closed her eyes. When the door sprang open a moment later, she felt herself gasp.

‘Sorry,’ a woman’s voice said and she smiled as she settled herself on the other side of the room.

Finally, Gabriela allowed her eyes to close again and saw Tom’s face drift in front of her, her fingers tensing against the ledge she was sitting on, the sweat streaming from her forehead mingling with the tears that shook her body.

How much longer could she go on like this, the lies following night and day so that there was no rest, even in sleep? And yet, how could she escape? Unless she told Tom. When the thought occurred to her now it seemed the most lucid she’d had in a long time.

Leaving Tom, she was under no illusion, would mean exposing herself not just to him but also to Sadie and Callum – but what choice did she have left? Leaving Layla was not an option, not when she was so young, so in need of her mother in every way.