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Chapters (93)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Chapter 44
  49. Chapter 45
  50. Chapter 46
  51. Chapter 47
  52. Chapter 48
  53. Chapter 49
  54. Chapter 50
  55. Chapter 51
  56. Chapter 52
  57. Chapter 53
  58. Chapter 54
  59. Chapter 55
  60. Chapter 56
  61. Chapter 57
  62. Chapter 58
  63. Chapter 59
  64. Chapter 60
  65. Chapter 61
  66. Chapter 62
  67. Chapter 63
  68. Chapter 64
  69. Chapter 65
  70. Chapter 66
  71. Chapter 67
  72. Chapter 68
  73. Chapter 69
  74. Chapter 70
  75. Chapter 71
  76. Chapter 72
  77. Chapter 73
  78. Chapter 74
  79. Chapter 75
  80. Chapter 76
  81. Chapter 77
  82. Chapter 78
  83. Chapter 79
  84. Chapter 80
  85. Chapter 81
  86. Chapter 82
  87. Chapter 83
  88. Chapter 84
  89. Chapter 85
  90. Acknowledgements
  91. About the Author
  92. Also by Charlotte Philby
  93. About the Publisher

‘She did a good job of it. She must have had someone to help her. The theory we’re working with is that she initially hid the body and then came back with her sister and the tools needed to dig a shallow grave. Not even the foxes had found it by the time we got there. That might have been when she found your shoes and your purse, and decided to use them to scare you off …’

I frown before speaking for the first time in at least an hour. ‘But even I noticed the ground had been disturbed – surely when you followed up on that …’

Oscar looks away.

‘You didn’t even look, did you?’

He sniffs, refusing to meet my eye, ‘I should have done. I’m sorry.’

There is so much I could say but what good will it do now? Instead, I fix my gaze away from him in combative silence.

‘Issy, come on, you can hardly blame me. Do you know how many insane phone calls I’ve had from you in the past year? How many madcap theories you’ve tried to embroil me in, one way or another? Even after what you did to me? Besides, there was nothing to go on. But you wouldn’t hear it. What the hell was I supposed to do?’

‘Nothing to go on? You didn’t fucking look!’

This time it is his voice that grows louder. ‘Seriously, I’m sorry if I sound like a prick, but it’s been really tiring tiptoeing around you all the time … I know you’ve been through a lot and I’m sorry, I’m so sorry about Jess – but you can’t behave the way you’ve been behaving and expect to be treated … Anyway, you fucked me over, Is! Do you have any idea how much you hurt me? Do you have any idea how hard it was to lose you like that, and then, just as I was starting to move on with my life, to have to watch that happen to you, and not be able to be there?’

He stops, breathing in hard. Both of us are silent for at least a minute before he speaks again. And when he does, the strength of my enduring love for him, even after all these years, nearly topples me.

‘I’m sorry, Is. I wish I had listened to you earlier.’

‘Yeah, well, it probably would have been better if you hadn’t at all.’

‘You did the right thing,’ he says, and I laugh bitterly.

‘Getting a girl arrested for murder because she defended herself against a man who had trafficked her? That’s what you think happened, right? I don’t call that the right thing.’

‘Her situation will be taken into account. Her baby …’