Back A Double Life
Chapters (93)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Chapter 44
  49. Chapter 45
  50. Chapter 46
  51. Chapter 47
  52. Chapter 48
  53. Chapter 49
  54. Chapter 50
  55. Chapter 51
  56. Chapter 52
  57. Chapter 53
  58. Chapter 54
  59. Chapter 55
  60. Chapter 56
  61. Chapter 57
  62. Chapter 58
  63. Chapter 59
  64. Chapter 60
  65. Chapter 61
  66. Chapter 62
  67. Chapter 63
  68. Chapter 64
  69. Chapter 65
  70. Chapter 66
  71. Chapter 67
  72. Chapter 68
  73. Chapter 69
  74. Chapter 70
  75. Chapter 71
  76. Chapter 72
  77. Chapter 73
  78. Chapter 74
  79. Chapter 75
  80. Chapter 76
  81. Chapter 77
  82. Chapter 78
  83. Chapter 79
  84. Chapter 80
  85. Chapter 81
  86. Chapter 82
  87. Chapter 83
  88. Chapter 84
  89. Chapter 85
  90. Acknowledgements
  91. About the Author
  92. Also by Charlotte Philby
  93. About the Publisher

‘So, are you going to tell me what it was like?’ he asked, once she emerged from the bathroom, the bedrooms upstairs having fallen silent.

What would the time be in Moscow? she wondered, looking up at the clock, which read 21.33. It would be past midnight. For a moment, she shuddered, stifling a yawn, and Tom lifted his head slightly to look at her.

‘It’s OK, we don’t need to talk now … you need to sleep. I’ve changed the sheets so it should be nice and cosy. Why don’t you head on up and I’ll turn off the lights down here?’

She nodded, smiling gratefully, and walked towards the door, turning briefly to watch him going through the usual evening routine, admitting to herself for the first time they were living on borrowed time.

The next morning was a Saturday. At some time around nine, Callum idled at the doorway to the bedroom before slipping in and climbing under the covers, as he had used to when he was tiny. Tom had already gone downstairs, believing Gabriela to still be asleep. When Sadie appeared in the doorway a while later, she beckoned her inside.

‘I missed you,’ Sadie said after a few moments, her voice so quiet Gabriela wasn’t sure whether she wanted her to hear it. Pressing her eyes together tightly, she ran her fingers gently over Sadie’s hair.

By the time they emerged in the kitchen, it was nearly ten. The back door was open, presumably to purge the smell of burnt toast.

She hadn’t slept so long or so deeply since before she’d left the children, despite all that should be keeping her awake, and there was something both disorientating and guilt-inducing about the experience.

‘I’ve made poached eggs,’ Tom announced, turning to her and smiling.

‘Sounds perfect,’ she replied, taking a seat at the table next to Sadie who immediately set to work, writing neatly in her school-book.

‘What topic are you doing this term?’ she asked, leaning in and inhaling deeply to soak up the smell of her, admiring the pale pink roses on her pyjamas. ‘Are those new?’ she continued before Sadie could answer her initial question, and Sadie nodded.

‘Dad bought them.’

For a moment she felt irrationally wounded. There was so much she didn’t know about the past few months, so many questions she had been unable – or unwilling – to ask, during their snatched phone calls.

‘One egg or two?’

She cleared a space on the table as Tom placed the plate in front of her, on which he had already served toast and two eggs.

‘This looks great, thank you.’