Back A Double Life
Chapters (93)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Chapter 44
  49. Chapter 45
  50. Chapter 46
  51. Chapter 47
  52. Chapter 48
  53. Chapter 49
  54. Chapter 50
  55. Chapter 51
  56. Chapter 52
  57. Chapter 53
  58. Chapter 54
  59. Chapter 55
  60. Chapter 56
  61. Chapter 57
  62. Chapter 58
  63. Chapter 59
  64. Chapter 60
  65. Chapter 61
  66. Chapter 62
  67. Chapter 63
  68. Chapter 64
  69. Chapter 65
  70. Chapter 66
  71. Chapter 67
  72. Chapter 68
  73. Chapter 69
  74. Chapter 70
  75. Chapter 71
  76. Chapter 72
  77. Chapter 73
  78. Chapter 74
  79. Chapter 75
  80. Chapter 76
  81. Chapter 77
  82. Chapter 78
  83. Chapter 79
  84. Chapter 80
  85. Chapter 81
  86. Chapter 82
  87. Chapter 83
  88. Chapter 84
  89. Chapter 85
  90. Acknowledgements
  91. About the Author
  92. Also by Charlotte Philby
  93. About the Publisher

The sound of the buttons as she entered her pin number focused her attention on the screen in front of her. Her fingers, she saw now, were shaking; the skin in the grooves of flesh between her forefinger and thumb was pink and chapped. Her bank balance emerged, and she paused to think about the implications of the numbers in front of her, the minus symbol confirming what she had just been told. And then she remembered: the new boiler at her mum’s house, which would have eaten up the money that came in from that month’s rent. How could she not have foreseen this? Yet with all that was going on, was it any surprise that she couldn’t hold together situations that she would never previously have let go unchecked?

The overarching implication was less straightforward to dismiss. The fact was that while until now she had just about made ends meet, suddenly things didn’t seem quite so certain. She needed money.

In another moment, she might have rung Tom. She might have asked him if he could access any of the cash due from the job he had been working on; but right now, riddled with uncertainty as she was, could she really risk rocking the boat? Could she trust that she was robust enough to withstand the questioning that might have followed?

She couldn’t be sure, afterwards, that she even made the decision consciously. Pulling out her other phone, she dialled his number, her fingers moving as if of their own accord.

Her face moved into a smile at the sound of his voice.

‘Gabriela!’ Despite his huffiness the day before, he sounded pleased to hear from her.

‘Ivan,’ she said, hesitating only for a second. ‘Listen. I need to ask a favour. I’m so sorry and I wouldn’t usually ask – I really wouldn’t – but …’

‘Gabriela,’ he stopped her. ‘You know you don’t have to do that, just tell me what you need.’

She closed her eyes and took a deep breath. ‘I need to borrow some money.’

By the time Gabriela reached the Freemasons Arms, she was feeling calmer, Ivan having promised to transfer the cash to her so that it would arrive by the end of the day. Despite the weather, Madeleine was seated outside, under a heater, a pashmina wrapped around her.

‘Jesus, it’s been so long,’ Madeleine said, hugging her tightly.

‘Well, in my defence, you do now spend half your life flying around, saving the world … But we can talk about that later.’ Gabriela paused a moment before carrying on, ‘What the actual fuck?’

Madeleine nodded. ‘Assume you’re talking about our old friend Emsworth. Yeah, well, it looks like the discrimination case was an easy way out for him.’

‘What do you mean?’ Gabriela said, inching forward in her seat.

‘I mean, perhaps it was a convenient distraction.’

‘A distraction from what?’